‘But it’s Friday,’ she says. ‘Clara promised to bring that friend. You needn’t do anything. Just watch. I know you’re tired. Don’t you want some more cocaine?’
I am incapable of complaint. ‘Then we must be ready to leave by six. Did you have lunch?’
‘I wasn’t hungry. You could order something now.’
I go into the sitting room and ring the bell. I tell the waiter to bring some cold ham and a selection of cheeses and pates, some bread, a bottle of hock. I retrieve the papers from the bed and return to the sitting room. The idea that I am trapped in this city makes me uneasy. I hope that my bank will not be affected, have forgotten to get a new book of cheques. The papers say there is every expectation that the food-rationing system will preserve supplies of basic commodities for the duration of the War. A well-informed source has assured a correspondent that Germany is bound to send troops soon. There is no reference to Holzhammer’s capture of the Krupp cannon. A sortie by Bulgarians has been successfully driven back at the Cesny Gate, to the south. Various regiments are deployed about the first line of defences beyond the walls. All the loyalist soldiers are in good spirits. Morale amongst Holzhammer’s ‘rag-tag’ of mercenaries, misguided peasants and treacherous rebels, is said to be already very low and the world has received the news of the cannonade with horror. Comparisons are made to the Siege of Paris, to Metz and elsewhere, but in all cases those cities were, we are told, far less well-prepared. ‘Her name is Lotte,’ says Alexandra, her cosmetics in place. She smiles at me and comes to nibble on a piece of cheese. ‘The one Clara says had to leave Paris in a hurry. Why was that?’
I decide to take a bath. As I undress I tell Alexandra what I know of Lotte. She used to specialise in a bizarre tableau known as The Temptation, Crucifixion and Resurrection of the Female Christ, in which she would resist any temptations invented by her customers, be tried, punished and then tied to a large wooden cross, whereupon she would be revived by the attentions of the clients. This tableau had been famous in Berlin and Lotte had been the most sought after ‘specialist’ in Germany. She had transferred herself to Paris and continued with her presentation there until pressure from the Church, which owned her house, caused her to seek the protection of Frau Schmetterling who accepted her on condition that the tableau no longer be performed. Frau Schmetterling, although Jewish in origin, is a pious woman. The last time I had talked to Lotte she told me she planned to return to Berlin eventually and start up in business again; but she would not skimp. You had to spend money to earn money. She prided herself on the elaborate details of her show. She was saving every pfennig in order to make a rapid return from ‘the wilderness’. She was an actress, she had told me, at heart. Alexandra listens. ‘She sounds an interesting woman. You know Clara has invited us to her own room tonight. She seems to like you very much. And me.’
It is perfectly true that Clara is attracted to both of us and this puzzles me; to some extent it alarms me, also. Refreshed, I dress in my evening clothes. Alexandra is wearing a pink dress trimmed with red. She looks unusually beautiful. Our cab takes us through streets full of gun-carriages and supply-wagons; workmen labour amongst the half-destroyed shells of houses and shops, shifting beams and rubble. Alexandra hardly notices as she chatters to me, until we have turned into Sangerstrasse and she gasps. ‘Oh, my God! The Mirov Palace!’ The seventeenth-century building has received a direct hit which has caved in part of the roof and left a huge gap in its upper floors, and yet the trees surrounding it remain as tranquil as ever, the ornamental gardens as orderly. I expect her to be frightened, but she is not. I suspect she has still failed to understand the reality of what is happening. She is half-grinning as she stares around, wide-eyed, at the destruction. ‘Oh, my God!’ And I realise that for her it is merely another dream come to life. Perhaps that explains her peculiar attitudes: she perceives all this experience as merely a more intense form of dreaming. Something in her still expects to wake up and find everything ordinary again. That is why she is so heedless of consequence. Yet surely I am dreaming, too. A scarlet motor-car goes past. In it, looking rather self-conscious, are four high-ranking officers in tall helmets and a great deal of gold braid. Alexandra giggles. ‘Each one could be Franz-Josef himself. Are they in the right army, do you think?’
I insist that she wear her heavy veil as we pay off the carriage and enter the peace of Rosenstrasse. Starlings are swarming overhead in the hazy October sky and the beeches are beginning to shed their leaves. ‘The air smells so good,’ she says, hugging my arm. ‘I am very happy, Ricky.’ She compliments me for her state of mind. At the door, Tru takes my hat, stick and gloves, my top-coat, but Alex remains dressed until we reach Clara’s quarters, two large rooms near the top of the house, overlooking the lawn and fruit-trees of the garden. I have never visited Clara’s private rooms before. The hangings, cushions and upholstery are predominantly dark blue, black and gold, and the perfume seems to come chiefly from the large, yellow lilies which fill vases on either side of a mahogany desk. There are books in this room, and a small piano, showing that Clara has, after all, some taste for culture, for the pieces on the music-stand are by Mozart and Schubert and the books are either German translations of Fielding, Scott and Thackeray, or works by Goethe and Schiller. Clara claims to be English, but she has nothing in English on her shelves. There is a modern novel or two by von Roberts, some French novels of the cheaper sort, as well as Zola’s Nana (which all the whores of my acquaintance read with jeering fascination, more interested in his originals and how they correspond with the fictitious characters than the story or the moral), a number of histories and biographies, some books of travel. Clara comes in from the bedroom. She is wearing a black and white riding costume. ‘I am so pleased you could come,’ she says. She kisses first Alexandra and then me. ‘Lotte will be with us in a little while.’ I remark on her good taste. ‘I’m easily bored,’ she says. ‘Only substantial music and books seem to please me these days.’ I indicate the bookcase. ‘Yet you have nothing in English… She smiles. ‘I prefer German and French. After all, it is years since I was in London.’ She resists my interest in her story, cocking her head and smiling into my face. She is so pale. I would think her consumptive if I did not know otherwise. As she chats about her favourite novels and composers she begins to undress a passive Alexandra. She leads my girl into the bedroom and I follow, leafing through a volume of Le Sage and remarking on the quality of the engravings. Alexandra is spread on the dark yellow bed, face down. Clara tells me that the book had been a gift from a novelist who had travelled all the way from Brussels to be with her. She applies cream to Alexandra’s anus and crosses casually to a chest of drawers to take out her china dildo. ‘Do you care for Le Sage?’
‘I had the usual enthusiasm for him once,’ I say. ‘Like Moliere, he can seem like a revelation when one is young.’ She smiles in accord, parting Alexandra’s cheeks and pushing the dildo in hard. Alexandra groans. ‘Cocaine,’ she says. ‘Not yet,’ says Clara. ‘You can have some later. This is my little pleasure, before Lotte arrives. And I think Ricky needs arousing tonight. You look tired, Ricky.’ I let her know I had not planned to join in much. ‘To tell you the truth the only use I have for a bed is to sleep in one. But I might feel better later.’ Clara removes the dildo, wipes it and replaces it neatly in its drawer. This exercise, then, has been for me. Alexandra does not move but I can tell from the set of her shoulders that she is petulant, though not as yet prepared to demand anything of Clara. ‘Stay there, ma cherie,’ says Clara. We both go back into the other room. Clara hands me a book. It is by Flaubert, his Salammbo. I admit that it has always defeated me. Clara is pleased. ‘I am glad to hear it. My friend from Brussels recommended it. I have started it so many times and have perhaps managed a hundred pages at best. I am not much interested in the exotic aspects of history. So many of these modern painters leave me cold. Moreau, for instance.’ I cannot agree with her. ‘My moods change. Sometimes I like the smell of incense and the feel of heavy gold. It can be soothing to the senses. You are more of an epicurean than I, Clara.’ I give her back the Flaubert and she replaces it precisely. ‘Are Princess Poliakoff and Lady Diana still in residence?’ She nods. ‘They have hardly left their rooms, either. I think it must be the beginning of an affair, or one which was interrupted. I don’t know. Certainly the Princess is infatuated. As for Lady Cromach, I am not sure. She seems anxious to please the Princess but not from what I would call any driving enthusiasm. She is perhaps too intelligent. Are you attracted to her?’ I shake my head. ‘Not attracted, but I think she is interesting. She is a type of Lesbian I have not really encountered before. Very self-assured, eh? Yet, oh, let’s say less narcissistic than the general run of those one associates with Princess Poliakoff.’ Clara sits down on a Liberty chair and lights a cigarette. ‘I know what you mean. That woman goes about her business and takes exactly what she wants from people. Yet she has none of Poliakoff’s greediness. Would you like me to send for Lotte yet?’ I shake my head. ‘I’ve been ravenous all day. I can’t stop eating. Let me leave you here with Alexandra. She loves you and might like to be alone with you for a while. I’ll go down to the salon for half-an-hour or so.’ Clara seems concerned. ‘If you would like some of the drug now…?’ I shake my head. ‘Perhaps later. Really, I am quite content. Tell Alexandra some of your stories. Or let her sleep. I’ll come back shortly.’ As I descend the staircase I realise that I am curious about the progress of the War and am hoping that I shall learn something more than what has been reported. Newspapers are particularly untrustworthy at this time. The salon is half-empty. There are many more women here than men. Some of the girls have not even bothered to give themselves the special ‘poise’ which Madame demands. They are still relaxed. The casual way in which their legs are positioned hints not at any particular carelessness of temperament; they unconsciously assume the habitual attitudes of their calling, as a soldier will stand at ease even in civilian dress, or an off-duty coal-heaver will rest one side of his body in favour of the other. But they are beginning to become ‘ladies’. Caroline Vacarescu is here, agitated, speaking urgently to an old dandy in a French-cut coat who spreads his hands and shakes his head. ‘But why arrest him? What has he done?’ She sees me and appeals to me. ‘Ricky. Tell Herr Schmesser that the Count is a man of honour.’ I raise my eyebrows. ‘Mueller?’ Herr Schmesser shrugs. ‘He was caught red-handed with the documents destined for Holzhammer. My dear lady, if you had been with him, you too would now be under arrest. Think yourself lucky.’