The teller moved on. Eleanor wasn’t looking at Stan. She seemed to be looking at a point over his shoulder.
— I thought I’d start with you, Miss Lacroix, said Stan.
— I know who you are, Mr. Maitland. Are you still with the police?
— No, I’m retired now. Like I say, I’m not here on anybody’s behalf but my own.
— Mr. Maitland, I know people used to talk about my family, how my dad was a drunk who couldn’t keep a job. But I also know how my dad lived his whole life picking up the pieces after you sent his brother to be executed. So yes, I know who you are. You talk about wanting to ask some questions, but is it really for my peace of mind?
— It’s not so straightforward as that.
Eleanor stood up. She wouldn’t look at him. She was shaking again.
It occurred to Stan what Edna would say about all of this. She would likely tell him to leave it be, that digging around in anybody’s fresh upset wasn’t going to resolve anything. She would tell him he was acting like an old man who was both bored and lonely.
— I have to get back to work, said Eleanor. This is the worst thing I’ve been through in a long time. I’d appreciate it if you’d give that some thought. Can I ask you that much?
— I … yes, said Stan. I’m sorry to bother you.
— Have a good day, Mr. Maitland.
Lee liked to take walks, a weekend afternoon or a weekday evening if Helen wasn’t around. Walking, you could just go, give your head all the latitude it might want. Strangers’ houses interested him, what he’d glimpse in the yard or through the front window as he passed by. A man raking leaves, a woman setting out the dishes for supper. One time he stopped to watch some kids playing ball hockey on a side street. There were four of them, two goaltenders and two forwards, and they scrambled around each other and shouted and their sticks scraped on the roadtop. Lee leaned against a lamppost, taking in the game, until he realized the kids had stopped playing and were just looking at him. He gave them a little salute, and when none of them returned the gesture, he shrugged, pushed himself off the lamppost, and went on his way.
All things considered, he felt alright. He had the freedom to open his own door and go out walking for however long he wanted. He liked what he saw-the dinners being set out on tables, the kids playing ball hockey on the road-but he reckoned they were outside his reach. For now, at least. In the meantime, it was okay just to watch. And if it was evening when Lee went walking, he would go right to sleep when he came home.
A block away from Lee’s place was a poolroom called the Corner Pocket. He’d noticed it on a walk. One evening at the end of September, he went up the steps of the poolroom and went in. A layer of cigarette smoke hung below the lights, and he heard country music playing. There were six eight-ball tables and two snooker tables and two of the coin-operated decks, and four of the tables were in use. A couple of rummies perched at the bar. There was the sharp-featured man in a down-filled vest who Lee recognized, but could not remember where from. He was shooting pool by himself at one of the coin-op tables. Lee wandered between the tables and watched what games were going down until the man behind the bar asked if he could help him.
— No, said Lee. Sorry.
Lee went back to the door and opened it halfway. Then he turned and went back to the bar.
— Could I get a table?
The barman gave him a tray of balls and marked his start time on a chalkboard behind the counter.
— Are you thirsty, my friend?
— I could do with a Coke.
The barman popped open a can and filled a glass and handed it to Lee. Lee took the drink and the tray of balls over to a vacant table. The felt on the tabletop was worn dark and smooth in patches. Lee picked a straight cue and chalked the tip of it. He racked up the balls and broke them and studied where they’d moved to.
He’d played some as a kid, and they’d had a table at the halfway house in the city. The game pleased him, the variations of it, the precision, the interactions between players. He took on the parts of both opponents. Once when he looked up he found the sharp-faced man at the coin-op table looking back at him. Or so he believed. Lee bent down again to bank the nine ball into a pocket. Playing pool by himself was like the walks he took. His mind unfettered. Almost an hour went by. Then there were sirens outside and a flash of red lights against the windows. The sound of the sirens fell away but Lee had already replaced the balls on the tray. He carried the tray over to the bar.
— What do I owe you?
— Seventy-five cents for the table and the same for the Coke, said the barman.
Lee stacked a note and some coins on the bartop.
— Maybe I’ll come on back sometime.
— Make sure you do.
Lee passed by the sharp-featured man on his way to the front door.
— How are you? said Lee.
— … What? How am I? said the man. Never better is how I am.
— Hey, John.
— I’m Luke, said the boy.
— I knew that, said Lee. I was just checking to see how switched on you are.
Clifton’s crew had only worked until the early afternoon and Lee had hitched a ride with Jeff and Jeff Junior out to Donna’s house. The older of Lee’s two little nephews had come to the door when he knocked. Donna appeared behind her son. She was drying her hands on a dishtowel.
— Luke, who’s at-Oh, Lee.
— I thought I’d come visit you and Ma.
He set his lunch pail and tool belt down by the front door and followed Donna and Luke into the kitchen. Donna went to a cutting board on the counter and Luke went back to the table where his brother was sitting. They had notebooks in front of them. Irene was there as well, slumped on a chair where she could watch the room. She breathed heavily, rhythmically, and her clothes hung loosely from her. It had been only a week and a half since he’d last seen her, but even since then she’d lost handfuls of hair. What remained was as thin as mist.
She smiled when she saw him, said: You look like you came from work.
— Thought I’d come to visit.
— What a nice surprise.
Lee looked down at John’s notebook. He saw child’s writing in big, cumbersome characters. He put his hand on the boy’s shoulder.
— How’s your school work going, buck?
Before John could reply, Donna told them: Boys, you can take a break. Go on down to the basement. No horseplay.
Lee watched the boys charge out of the kitchen and disappear down the stairs. Only once they were gone did Donna ask if Lee would sit and have a cup of tea and a piece of rhubarb pie. He sat.
— How’s it going, Ma?
— I’ll see the doctor tomorrow. More treatments.
— You let me know if you need me to go with you.
— Barry takes her, said Donna.
Donna put a piece of pie before Lee. She poured tea for Lee and Irene and then she stood near the counter.
— Well, like I say, it’s what I’m here for, said Lee. I’ll help you out, Ma, any way I can. I didn’t move back up here to get rich and famous. Would you sit down, sister?
Donna scooted into the chair Luke had vacated. She examined what the boy had been writing in his notebook. Lee forked off a piece of the pie.
— To tell the truth, I don’t know so much about the treatments, Ma.
— The doctor says it’s going good, said Irene. He uses words I don’t understand, but. He’s foreign. Coloured.
— Chemotherapy and radiation, said Donna. They can’t just remove the tumour at her age. You want to know, you take one look at all the pills in the bathroom. And you see what the chemotherapy does?
Irene grinned and said: I won’t win the beauty pageant at the fall fair.
Donna looked hard at her son’s notebook.
— You got the same thing as that kid, said Lee.
— Kid?
— That one-legged kid who tried to run across the country. I’m betting on you, Ma. We’re a bunch of survivors is what we are.