“November fourth or fifth, 1945.”
When she found the oversized, bound volume for him, he carried the heavy book to a table and sat down in the hard wooden chair. Opening it out, he turned the yellowed pages with care until he had the dates he wanted. He checked carefully through the obituaries until he found James Dawson, complete with his most recent address.
Dawson had been a retired mining engineer, he died on a Tuesday night of sudden, massive heart failure. His father, Neal Dawson, had been a prominent lawyer in San Francisco. His mother, Claire Dawson, n?e Patterson, had been well known in San Francisco for her civic work for crippled children. Both were long dead. James Dawson, born in San Diego, California, had one surviving relative, a son, Robert Dawson, a practicing lawyer in New York. Lee jotted down the particulars, returned the book to the desk, and asked for two more sets of newspapers.“I didn’t find what I wanted, I guess I wasn’t so sure of the year.”
He dawdled over the other two volumes for some time before he returned them and headed for the door. Before he pushed out into the hot street he turned back to thank the librarian. She smiled at him as if grateful for his courtesy.“Is there anything else I can help you with?”
“There is one other thing, I almost forgot. Somewhere I’ve lost my birth certificate. Would you know how to go about getting it replaced?”
“Where were you born? What county?
“I was born in San Diego.”
“That would be San Diego County.” She fetched a directory from the shelf above her, thumbed through and copied down an address. “Send your name and date of birth to this address, along with your father’s name and your mother’s maiden name. You’ll need to send one dollar, and include a stamped, self-addressed envelope.” She studied him with more interest than Lee liked. Maybe the old doll was lonely. Reaching into her desk drawer, she handed him a clean sheet of paper. “Post office will have stamped envelopes.”
He thanked her in a way that brought a flush to her sallow cheeks, and sat down at a nearby table. He wrote out his request and information, folded a dollar bill inside, and placed it carefully into his pants pocket. He gave her a big smile, thanked her again, bringing another blush, and quickly left the library. Stepping out into the late afternoon heat he headed fast for the post office. He opened a post office box in Dawson’s name, using Dawson’s last address, thanking his good luck they were busy as hell and that was all the information they wanted. He bought two stamped envelopes, addressed one to the new post office box. He put that and his birth certificate application in the other envelope, addressed and mailed it, then headed for the train station to meet Jake. Scanning the street ahead, he didn’t see Jake’s truck—but he saw the yellow cat standing in plain sight on the roof of the train station, the big yellow tom looking down at him as if he could see clear through him, see Lee’s every thought and intention.
Though Lee knew the nature of the cat, though they talked together when Misto felt the need, the cat’s sudden appearances where Lee didn’t expect him could still unnerve him. Lee was standing on the sidewalk looking up at the cat when a little girl raced by laughing at a flock of kids behind her. She didn’t see Lee, she ran into his leg and half fell. He grabbed her shoulder lightly to helpher right herself. Pausing, she looked up into his eyes still laughing—then stopped laughing, and turned pale.
She saw something in Lee’s eyes that made her go white and still. Then she spun around and ran, her face frightened and grim. Lee stood looking until she disappeared. Pedestrians moved around him, glancing back at him puzzled and then moving on.
What had the child seen? Something of his own nature? Or had she seen that other presence, seen a hint of the dark spirit looking back at her?
But it was the child herself that unnerved him. She looked so familiar, almost like the picture he carried of Mae. She had dimples, long blond hair, so like his little sister. Except this child’s eyes were light blue, not dark, not like Mae’s eyes in the faded photograph that he had carried all these years and didn’t know why, only knew he couldn’t throw it away. Only knew, or thought he knew, that somewhere down the road he’d know why he kept it. But this child, she had seen something in his face that had scared her and, as tough as the old cowboy was, or thought he was, that hurt him. Whatever had frightened her had upset Lee, too, made him turn away uncertain in himself, badly shaken.
21
Outside Morgan Blake’s automotive shop the Georgia sun beat on the pavement, glaring up into the work bay where Morgan was replacing the fuel pump in a 1932 Chevy. It was just noon. He had pulled the Chevy onto one of the two lifts, but the lift was not raised. He was bent over the engine, his sandy hair tucked under a black cotton baseball cap, his lean, tanned face smeared with grease. He was priming the carburetor with gas when, from the other side of the upright hood, a man laughed. There was a long pause, as Morgan rose up. He stood unmoving, at the man’s unwelcome voice.
“Hey there, Morgy. Long time no see, Morgy boy.”
He hadn’t heard Brad Falon come in, that was Falon’s way, walking silently on soft shoes so you didn’t know he was there. At the first sound of his voice, Morgan’s whole being went wary. Falon used to practice that silent walk when they were kids, slipping up on him—or slipping up on Becky, which neither she nor Morgan had liked. Even when they were only little kids, that had given him the creeps. He looked across the Chevy engine at Falon. There was no smile on the man’s narrow face or in his close-set eyes. Across in the other bay, the farther one from the office, the new mechanic kepton working, paying no attention to the visitor, the tall, rail-lean, towheaded young man cleaning the plugs of a Ford truck, as oblivious of Falon as if he’d been invisible.
“What do you want?” Morgan said. “I heard you were in town, that you were out of prison again.” He stood silently looking the man over. Everything about Falon stirred up a part of Morgan’s life that he wanted only to forget. “I don’t want you around here, Brad. What do you want?” herepeated.
Falon’s narrow smile was no more than a grimace. His voice was hoarse, thin, and rough as he tried to make it jovial. “Hey, Morgy boy! Don’t say you’re not glad to see me, that’s not good Southern manners! It’s me! Falon, your old buddy!” He moved around the Chevy and slapped Morgan on theshoulder, his grin no more than an animal sneer. Morgan stepped back away from him, turned back to the engine, and set the last mixture screw onto the carburetor.
“Hey, I just got out of bed, Morgy. Couldn’t get my car started, had to leave it at my girlfriend’s.” He yawned hugely, and pushed back his ruffled hair. “Car sounds like something broke off, loose and clattering. I’m afraid to try it again, it sounds like hell.”
Morgan said nothing.
“You know I don’t know anything about motors. I had to walk the seven blocks over here, and this humidity’s got me, I’m not used to this weather anymore, I feel like a ton of lead weighing me down. Can you run me back over there, and have a look? I know you can fix it. I ain’t even had breakfast yet. Come on, Morgy, I’ll buy you breakfast. Or lunch, we’ll go out to Sparky’s for ribs, we can do that before you fix my car.”
“I don’t leave the shop at noon, Falon. Albert can run over there, Weiss is a better mechanic than I am.” He looked across to Albert. Albert straightened up then, laid down his tools, and pulled off his canvas apron.
But Falon shook his head and took Morgan by the arm.“Come on, Morgy. Everyone has to take a lunch break. We’ll just run out to Sparky’s, be back in half an hour. Your car parked close, here?”