‘Have you two quite finished? Can we just go now?’ said Mathilde. ‘You’re perfectly exasperating, the pair of you. In your different ways.’
Adamsberg waved his hand and smiled, and found himself alone.
Why had Charles Reyer found it necessary to say: ‘That’s all I heard’?
Because he had heard more than that. Why, then, had he confessed to a fragment of the truth? To stop inquiries going any further.
So Adamsberg called the Hôtel des Grands Hommes. The porter on duty remembered the article in the newsletter and what the guest had said. And yes, of course he remembered the blind man too. How could you forget a blind man like Reyer?
‘Did Reyer want to know any more about the article?’ asked Adamsberg.
‘Yes, indeed, monsieur le commissaire,’ said the porter. ‘He asked me to read the whole thing out to him. Otherwise I might not have remembered.’
‘And how did he react?’
‘Hard to say, monsieur le commissaire. He used to have an icy smile that made you feel like a moron. That day he was smiling like that, but I never knew what that meant.’
Adamsberg thanked him and hung up. Charles Reyer had wanted to find out more. And he had accompanied Mathilde to the station. As for Mathilde, she certainly knew more about the chalk circle man than she was letting on. But of course none of that might be important. Thinking about this kind of information made Adamsberg feel tired. He got rid of it by passing it on to Danglard. If necessary, Danglard would do whatever had to be done better than he would. So now he could go on thinking about the chalk circle man without distraction. Mathilde was right, he was waiting for a sudden leap in the inquiry. And he also knew what she had meant about his eyes lighting up. Cliché though it might be, it means something when you say that a person’s eyes light up. It happens or it doesn’t. In his case, it depended on the moment. And just now he knew that his gaze was lost far out to sea.
XI
THAT NIGHT ADAMSBERG HAD A DISTURBING DREAM, A combination of pleasure and outlandishness. He saw Camille come into his room, wearing a bellhop’s uniform. Looking serious, she undressed and lay down alongside him. Although he realised he was dreaming, and that he was on a slippery slope, he had not resisted. Then the Cairo bellhop had appeared in person and burst out laughing, holding up ten fingers to indicate ‘I married her ten times.’ Next, Mathilde had arrived, saying, ‘He wants to arrest you’, and had dragged her daughter away from him. He had clung on to her. He would rather die than lose her to Mathilde. And he had realised that his dream was degenerating, and that the initial pleasure had vanished, so it would be best to put a stop to everything by waking up. It was four in the morning.
Adamsberg got out of bed, cursing.
He paced up and down in his flat. Yes, he was on a slippery slope. If only Mathilde had not told him that Camille was her daughter, she would not have come back into his life with a reality that he had kept at bay for years.
No. That wasn’t right. It had started with that sudden feeling she was dead. That was when Camille had re-emerged from the far-off horizons where he had imagined her, fondly but distantly. But he had already made the acquaintance of Mathilde by then, and her Egyptian profile must have suggested Camille to him more strongly than before. That was how it had begun. Yes, that had been the start of the dangerous series of sensations resounding inside his head, as his memories were being prised up like slates in a high wind, opening gaps in a roof which had previously been carefully maintained. The slippery slope, dammit. Adamsberg had always placed little hope or expectation in love, not that he was opposed to feelings, which would have been pointless, but they weren’t the central thing in his life. That was just how it was, a deficiency on his part, he sometimes thought, or an advantage, as he thought at other times. And he never questioned this absence of belief in them. Nor was he about to do so tonight, more than any other night. But as he paced round the flat, he realised that he would have liked to hold Camille in his arms, if only for an hour. Being unable to do so frustrated him; he closed his eyes to imagine it, which didn’t help. Where was Camille? Why wasn’t she here, to lie in his arms until morning? Realising that he was a prisoner of a desire that could never be fulfilled, not now, not ever, exasperated him. It wasn’t so much the desire itself, since Adamsberg never allowed himself to be the prisoner of pride. It was the impression he had of wasting his time and his dreams in a futile and recurrent fantasy, knowing that life would have become much easier long ago if he had been able to forget it. And that was exactly what he had been unable to do. What wretched bad luck it had been to run into Mathilde.
Unable to get back to sleep, he walked through the office door at five past six in the morning. So he was there to take the call ten minutes later from the police station in the 6th arrondissement. A circle had been spotted on the corner of the boulevard Saint-Michel and the long and deserted rue du Val-de-Grace. In its centre lay a pocket English-Spanish dictionary. Feeling out of sorts after his bad night, Adamsberg seized the opportunity to go back into the fresh air. A uniformed policeman was already there, guarding the blue chalk circle as if it were the holy shroud. The man was standing stiffly to attention beside the small dictionary. A ridiculous sight.
‘Am I going down some blind alley?’ Adamsberg wondered.
Twenty metres further down the boulevard, a café was already open. It was seven o’clock. He sat at an outside table and asked the waiter if the establishment stayed open late, and if so who was on duty between eleven-thirty and half past midnight. He thought that in order to get to the Luxembourg station the chalk circle man would have had to go past this café, that is if he was still using the metro. The proprietor came out to speak to him in person. His attitude was rather aggressive until Adamsberg showed him his card.
‘I recognise that name,’ the café owner said. ‘You’re a famous detective.’
Adamsberg let this pass without comment. It made it easier to talk informally.
‘Yes,’ the café owner said after hearing him out. ‘Yes, I did see someone a bit suspicious who could be the one you’re after. It would have been just after midnight, he went past here, trotting along rather fast, when I was moving the tables on the terrace and shutting up shop. See these plastic chairs? They’re awkward, they fall over, they catch on things. One of them fell on its side, and he tripped up on it. I went over to help him up, but he pushed me away without a word, and off he went fast as he came, with a sort of satchel under his arm, that he kept tight hold of.’
‘Sounds like him,’ said Adamsberg.
The sun was just reaching the terrace. He stirred his coffee. Things were looking up. Camille was returning to her place in the far distance.
‘Did he remind you of anything?’ he asked.
‘No. Yes… I did think, poor old sod, I say that because he was a skimpy little chap. I thought there goes some poor bloke who’s been out for a drink, and he’s scurrying home, because his wife’s going to tear him off a strip.’
‘Male solidarity,’ Adamsberg muttered to himself, with a sudden feeling of distaste for the man. ‘Why did you think he’d been drinking? Because he wasn’t too steady on his legs?’
‘No, that’s not it, because now I think about it he was quite nimble, not clumsy. Perhaps he smelled of drink, though again, I can’t say I noticed that at the time. It’s just coming back to me, now you mention it. Second nature to me, of course, the smell of drink, my work. You can show me anyone and I can tell you how many he’s had. But this little chap the other night, I’d say he’d had a few shorts. Yes, you could smell it all right.’