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‘Uh. Ma. We know you don’t like the viruses…’ the King began.

‘It’s not a question of what I like. It’s what those can do! It merges minds. It turns merged minds into a contagious disease. Anyone could catch us!’

‘Many Estates use this virus,’ said the apothecary. ‘Any time people have to share information, and work together, and know in advance what each other are going to do.’

‘How many of those have you sold?’ asked Milena in a chill little voice.

‘Many. Many.’

‘If I told the Party they would haul you in for a Reading so fast it would make your head spin.’

‘You would have to find me first,’ said the apothecary.

‘So the clown make-up is a disguise.’ said Milena.

The woman kept smiling.

Berowne slid across the floor to be closer to Milena. He was not yet pregnant. His beard was full and his teeth were white. He was beautiful. ‘Ma,’ he said. ‘Ma, look. Everyone uses the viruses.’

Milena saw the broader pattern. People were used to getting everything from viruses. These people would have no resistance to the idea. Milena covered her mouth in fear. ‘You’re all programmed to accept them.’ It was like watching a trap close. Everyone was used to the viruses doing the work for them, they had been trained to think of viruses as an unmitigated good.

‘No! Look, Ma. We need to speed up production.’

‘It takes months to rehearse a new show,’ said a heart-faced young actress, sullen with ambition. Milena could not remember her name. ‘You all knew that when we started,’ said Milena.

‘Yes!’ said Berowne in frustration. ‘But if we’re to make a living at this we have got to put on more and more shows. Each one you get us is brand new, for a different Estate.’

They aren’t used to working, thought Milena.

‘If we don’t do this,’ said the Princess, ‘We’ll just have to give up on new plays and go back to sleepwalking.’ This was before the Princess had started to stammer.

‘Look, Ma,’ said Cilia. ‘Chao Li would say we were getting it right. We’re not taking value from anyone else, we are generating it ourselves. And we’re entitled to do that.’

‘This isn’t a matter of Tarty principles,’ said Milena.

‘All I was saying is that we got to start turning a few francs.’

The truth was economic. The truth was that viral theatre came whole and finished. It was cheaper than creating and rehearsing new productions. The truth was that the Babes could mount any play they liked. But they had to make it pay.

The apothecary saw the advantage. ‘One or two days,’ she said. ‘That’s all it will take, to collect your ideas, merge them into a whole, polish them a bit. I’m not saying the play will be perfect the first time. But you’ll save time.’

‘We’re going to do it, Ma,’ said Berowne, smiling out of kind regard for Milena.

‘Don’t,’ said Milena, hand across her forehead in alarm.

She watched as the apothecary touched each of their tongues in turn with the finger of a resin glove. ‘Think of it as a kiss,’ the apothecary said.

‘None for me,’ said Milena.

She watched the Babes go pale and sick and ill. She nursed them and took care of them, and sold productions for them, and organised collections and deliveries and fittings. Over the next eighteen months, she and the Babes would stage 142 new productions. For a while, everything seemed all right.

And Milena remembered meeting Max.

Max was the conductor of one of the Zoo orchestras. He could orchestrate music. He could orchestrate the Comedy.

Milena remembered standing in his chilly office, when was it? Late November, the November after Rolfa had gone. Max sat behind a huge, black desk. The desk was meant to intimidate, Milena was certain of that now.

Max was looking through the great, grey book. He was unhurried. He was not speaking to or looking at Milena. He was like some swollen little boy: round, fat and smooth. The oils on his forehead reflected the windows of his room. His green-blond moustache masked his purple mouth. His mouth needed masking. It seemed to curl in scorn, but was somehow too pretty at the same time. It made him look petulant. Through the airy linen of his shirt, Milena could see that his breasts were pendulous with fat. Milena stood with her arms folded and looked at the room.

The floor was bare concrete, and the shelves were empty, except for a green glazed pot with some kind of dried twig protruding artistically from it. The walls were painted white and were hung with framed sheets of music, safe behind glass, like paintings. By Max’s elbow, as if he were just about to begin composing, there was a sheaf of perfectly stacked, ruled paper and a very sharp pencil. Though it was November, two charcoal hibachi kept the room stifling hot. It was so airless, that Milena felt giddy. She needed to sit down, but there was no chair for guests.

‘Hmmm,’ said Max. He finally looked up at Milena and fixed her with the swimming, glassy look of someone whose corneas have been replaced. ‘Yes,’ he said in a very flat, precise, but muted voice.

‘Yes?’ repeated Milena. ‘Does that mean yes, you’ll do it?’

‘Yes,’ he said again.

Milena was taken aback. It was too simple, just to have him say yes. ‘But how? When?’ she asked, trying to inject into her voice the joy she thought she should be feeling.

‘Well,’ he said, in the same detached, quiet voice. ‘It’s a big job. I can’t say when. I really need to look at the whole thing some more.’

So did he really mean yes? Already Milena felt a confusion, somewhere. ‘So you need some time still to look at it.’

He made a totally meaningless gesture, a shrug that looked like some kind of deprecation. What was being deprecated? The time he still needed to make up his mind? The importance of what he was asking — no big thing?

‘Do you want to keep the book?’ Milena asked. ‘It’s just I’m a bit chary still of letting it out of my sight. There’s been no time to write it all out again somewhere else. That’s the only copy.’

‘I’ll be needing it,’ he said.

‘If it’s just a question of looking at the music to see if it’s worthwhile, there is a copy of most of the main themes.’

He looked back at her without answering. Was he terribly insulted? Finally he said, ‘I will be needing the book.’

‘Of course,’ said Milena. She had to tell herself: the book is not yours now, Milena. It belongs to everyone now. It has to fly by itself. ‘Fine. By all means,’ she said.

And she thought: so why don’t I feel happy?

‘Well I guess that’s it.’ Milena tried to be generous. ‘I guess I wasn’t expecting you to be interested. I’m very pleased.’ She smiled, but there was no response in Max’s face. This was unnerving. Milena found that she did not quite know how to leave. ‘You’ll let me know, then?’

‘Yes of course,’ he replied. He turned to his pile of blank paper and began to tap its sides, as if something were out of order.

Weeks, thought Milena. That’s all I’ll give him. Two weeks. She looked about the office. At least it seemed organised and workmanlike.

‘Then goodbye,’ she said.

‘Yes,’ he replied, without looking at her.

It took a month to find him again.

She left messages at the music desk. She found his Postperson.

‘Oh him,’ said his Postperson. ‘You’ll be lucky. I can never find him myself, and if he ever sends messages he never sends them by me. What was your name, love? And your message?’

Max had the only forgetful Postperson Milena had ever met. That seemed to explain things. She visited his office and found it empty. She knocked on his door in the Three Eyes, where the musicians lived, but there was no answer.