It grew hotter as I drove. Soon I was dipped in that serenely alien palette, the grotesque, infernal outcroppings and magnificent desolation of apocalyptic pastel. Déjà vu: that uncomfortable feeling the Furnace Creek Inn didn’t exist, and somehow I’d taken a wrong turn, never again to reclaim my superheated Shangri-La. Then suddenly there it was, in all its Spanish Colonial glory, the parking lot oddly filled to capacity — just as before.
Upon arrival, the clerk did some registering too (of my face) — the same garrulous oddball who’d given us the lowdown on the dicey denizens of that aridly majestic park. (My detective said he’d been a helpful source.) He smiled broadly until his memory linked me to the man whom everyone, postmortem, unfailingly called Mr. Michelet. His amiable expression begged I explain my return. I told him I was a friend of both Michelet and his companion — recent acquaintance of the former, childhood friend of the latter. He expressed discreet condolences. By now, other guests had gathered, either to check in or have the registrar dispense a map to Scotty’s Castle along with a quickie historic spiel. I said I was going to freshen up and asked how long he’d be at the desk. He got off at 5:00 P.M., he said — little more than an hour away. I told him I’d be pleased if he would allow me to spring for a couple of date shakes. I even dropped the name of the detective, respectfully adding that the gumshoe told me to look him up.
We met on the terrace.
“He’s a wonderful actor. Was. Always a favorite. They got here — Mr. Michelet and your friend…”
“Clea Fremantle.”
“I remembered them from when you came.”
“They’re hard to forget.”
“Exactly!” he exclaimed. “But this time, I have to say they didn’t look so well.” He lowered his voice, hesitant to desecrate the dead. “A little ‘worse for wear.’ It wasn’t so much intoxication, per se. They just looked… exhausted. Like they’d ‘been through it.’ We get people like that in the valley but not so much here at the inn. I see ‘newcomers’ once or twice before they usually get — what’s the word? — assimilated. If you see ’em again, they’ve usually cleaned up their act. Course most you don’t see again. People on the run. Come to the valley same way they go to Mexico these days only it’s a little tougher here. To get by. You don’t have the sand and sea, the surfers and beach life to lose yourself in. Harder to be invisible I guess. If that’s what you’re after. You really kind of have to find a rock. To crawl under. Anyhow, they ate in the restaurant on Saturday night — I told Detective Raintree all this.”
“I know that. And I appreciate you sharing it with me.”
“Mr. Michelet didn’t have a coat so I gave him one that we keep behind the desk for people who don’t know about the code. It’s unusual when a guest doesn’t have a sport jacket but if it happens we’re prepared. They looked a little better — I think they must have taken baths!”—again, the clerk seemed embarrassed—“and were pretty well behaved during dinner. I don’t think anyone bothered him. No one asked for his autograph. But the girl — Ms. Fremantle — she’s an actor too, isn’t she?” He’d cordially slipped into present tense.
“Yes.
“Her mother was Roosevelt Chandler.”
“That’s right.”
“After dinner, they went swimming. We have towels out there. We leave our guests alone. The caretaker said they sat by the fire quite a while. He left at 11:00 P.M. and they were still there. Not making a ruckus or anything but they may have had a bottle with them. That wouldn’t be unusual. It’s nice to have a little vino under the stars.
“I was working double shifts — I don’t actually live here, I swear!” he added, cracking himself up. “Though sometimes it seems like I do. No one saw them in the morning, far as I recall. They breakfasted in their room; we have a record of that. They didn’t have a suite like when you came before. A single, adjacent to the terrace. We call it the smokers’ terrace. People can go out and get their nicotine fix. It overlooks the valley — I think I saw you and your other friend up there. What was her name?”
“Miriam.”
The guy didn’t miss a thing. He was beginning to remind me of Norman Bates.
“They left around 4:00 P.M. on Sunday. I guess they found the car Monday morning, early. I think it hit a rock — it was only a rental sedan. Helps to have a four-wheeler if you’re going up to the Racetrack. Didn’t y’all go up there?”
“Yeah,” I said. “We did.”
“Spooky place. They found your friend — Ms. Fremantle — on the periphery. Mr. Michelet was farther off. Did Detective Raintree tell you the position of the bodies?”
I stopped him short, done with the travelogue.
I thanked him for his time and set off.
“Drive safely,” he said.
By the time I got there, it was nearly dusk. As I strolled the “periphery,” a few hikers passed by and waved. Then I was alone with the rocks and the phantoms.
Raintree had reconstructed things thus: Thad and Clea were observed at the 49er Café, in late afternoon. They were drinking. It was noted by patrons that he wore a strange costume — one witness likened it to a toga — but all were in agreement the peculiar getup “wasn’t the cleanest looking.” The barkeep recognized Thad right away, and engaged the pair in friendly conversation. The actor said they were filming nearby. The barkeep didn’t know who Clea was and later told the detective that it seemed “the female companion” was in some kind of distress. I was certain my poor, beleaguered darling had by then become captive (years of news reports about Stockholm syndrome and the psychology of battered women sorrowfully told me so). They left just after sundown, driving about an hour before going off road, where the Taurus had indeed broken its axle.
As I walked, I saw them in my mind’s eye — Thad, with the unerring instincts of a drunk, uncannily finding the Racetrack, almost 9:00 P.M. now — veering off asphalt in querulousness or exaggerated jest before smacking the stone that cracked the undercarriage. Explosion of expletives and laughter. He’d have been the first to leave the car — Clea, cowed — for cursory damage report. Futzing with keys, rumbling in trunk. Retrieving… then reconnoitering. Clea pulling herself together then wandering after him into stillness, stoned, though maybe not, maybe even already having run through her stash — tragic! — stumbling along in numb, detoxed, zombified despair. Saw them clumsily pick through sharp-stoned black-and-blue darkness toward that dry lake of ancient monoliths, Thad yodeling, guffawing, shrieking, that tritely maddening bay-at-the-moon routine he did when out here last but no longer in the realm of charming, wild or willful, of “entertainer,” or the realm of anything anymore. Clea dazed, shaken, animal-knowing this was the end as they lurched toward Paleolithic infield of petrified mud, deaf-and-dumb klatches of rubble, following her keeper’s bruising makeshift path through sleeping creosote bushes, rattlesnake weed and moonflowers, gravel ghosts and cream cups, conspirational windflowers and whispering beardtongues.
… Saw him reach the lake bed and breathe, finally berthed on the cleared, smooth surface, untrammeled, almost hygienic in contrast to chaotic, uneven roadway, syrupy quiet all around again, Zabriskie Point stillness, cooler now that they’d stopped the trudge, his trudge, sweating the dope out, free at last from the nettles and brambles of their rugged, improvised trek: not broken, bullheaded Taurus rentals but twin Geminis, now he was home, a prince returned to Fellcrum serenity. He had doubles of the fastidious propmaster’s daggers stowed — dagger back-ups! Dagger stand-ins! — imagine carrying them two weeks on the lam then thoughtfully transferring from suitcase to car — and used them to bludgeon because they could not properly stab. I saw him after his exertions, that stillness again, nearly religious, Clea’s breath truncated then finally stopped, his own growing less ragged, all actions now become the same, flatness and lack of consequence, expirations and inhalations all one, the assault as if in a dream, bad script, bad dream from which he’d awake to complain of migraine, retiring to trailer or Chateau hours later or in morning to begin again but when he saw he could not waken, still the flatness of response, not remorse, more the discomfort of it and the wishing away, the whooshing, but the acceptance too, and the knowing it would all soon end. The irrefutable knowing.