Timmys boat was small. White paint flaked off the metal where it hadnt been scraped well enough before being repainted. Lydia sat in the bow, her legs folded under her, her chin high and proud. The motor was an under-the-waterline pulse drive, quiet as a hum. The water in their wake was louder. The sun was near to setting, the city casting its shadow on the waves. A handful of other boats were on the water, manned by children for the most part. The citizens of basic with nothing better to do with their time than spend the twilight on the water, then go home.
Timmy ran them along the coast for a time, and then turned east, out toward the vast ocean. The moon had set, but the lights of the city were bright enough to travel by. The islands had once been part of the city itself, and now were ruins. Timmy aimed for one of the smaller, a stretch not more than two city blocks long by three wide humped up out of the water. A few ancient walls still stood. The boat ran up onto the hard shore, and Timmy jumped out, soaking his pants to the thighs, to pull it the rest of the way up. The metal screeched against the rotting concrete sidewalk.
The ruin he led her to was little more than a camp site. A bright yellow emergency-preparedness sleeping bag lay unrolled on a foam mattress. An LED lamp squatted beside it with a cord snaking up the grimy wall to a solar collector in the window. A small chemical camping stove stood on a driftwood board placed over two cinderblocks, a little unpowered refrigerator beside it to store food. Two more rooms stood empty through the doorway. If the house had ever had a kitchen or a bathroom, it was lost in the tumble of rubble beyond that. Outside, the city glowed, the violence and bustle made calm and beautiful by even such a small distance. The wail of the sirens and angry blat of the security alerts became a kind of music there, transformed by the mystical act of passing above waves.
Timmy pulled off his water-soaked pants and dug a fresh pair out from under the sleeping bag.
This is where you go? Lydia said, putting her hand on the time-pocked window glass. When you arent with me, you come to this?
Nobody bugs you here, Timmy said. Or, you know. Not twice.
She nodded, as much to herself as for his benefit. Timmy looked around the room and rubbed his hand across his high forehead.
Its not as nice as your place, he said. But its safe. Temporary.
Yes, she said. Temporary.
Even if Liev does tell em about you, its not like its over. You can get a new name. New paper.
Lydia turned her gaze back from the city, her right hand going to her left arm as if she were protecting herself. Her gaze darted to the empty doorway, and then back. Wheres Erich?
Yeah, the meet didnt happen, Timmy said, leaning against the wall. She never ceased to be amazed by his physicality. The innocence and vulnerability that his body managed to project while still being an instrument of violence.
Tell me, she said, and he did. All of it, slowly and carefully, as if worried he might leave something out that she wanted to know. That she found interesting. The low rumble of a launch shuddered like an endless peal of thunder, and the exhaust plume rose into the night sky as he spoke. It had not yet broken into orbit when he stopped.
And where is he now? she asked.
Theres a coffee bar. The one at Franklin and St. Paul? On top of the old high-rises there. I got him there when it was done. Theyve got a deck there you can rent by the minute, and since his got taken, I figured hed like that. Gotta say, he was pretty freaked out. That DNA thing? I dont see how thats gonna end well. If hes right about how Burtons gonna react
Lydia shook her head once, a tiny gesture, almost invisible by the light of the single LED lamp. I thought you were his bodyguard. You were assigned to protect him.
I did, Timmy said. But then the job was done. Burton didnt tell me I was supposed to go to the bathroom with him for the rest of his life, right? Job was done, so the job was done.
I thought you were his friend.
I am, Timmy said. But, yknow. You.
Dont worry about me. Whatever comes to me, I have earned it a thousand times over. Dont disagree with me! Dont interrupt. Burton asked you to protect Erich because Erich is precious to him. The particular job he assigned you may be over, but worse has come to the city, and Erich is still precious.
And I get that, Timmy said. Only when they got Liev
I have lived through the churn before, darling boy. I know how this goes. She turned to the window, gesturing at the golden lights of the city. Liev was only one. There will be others. Perhaps many, perhaps few, but Burton will lose some part of his structure to the security forces or to death. And the ones who remain afterward will become more important to him. He is a man who values survivors. Who values loyalty. What will he think, dear, when he hears that you left Erich to come spirit me away?
Job was done, Timmy said, a little petulantly she thought.
Not good enough, she said. Not anymore. You arent the boy Erich drinks with anymore. You arent even your mothers son now. Those versions of you are gone, and they will never come back. You are the man who took a job from Burton.
Timmy was silent. Far above them, the transports exhaust plume went dark. Lydia stepped close to him and put her hands on his shoulders. He wouldnt meet her eyes. She thought that was a good sign. That it meant she was getting through to him.
The world changes you and you cant stop it from doing so. You have to let go of being someone who doesnt matter now. Because if you live through this timejust live through it and nothing moreyou will be more important to Burton. You cant avoid it. You can only choose what your importance is. Will you be someone he can rely upon, or someone he cant?
Timmy took a deep breath in through his nose and sighed it out. His eyes were flat and hard. I think I maybe fucked up again.
Only maybe, Lydia said. There still may be time to repair the error, yes? Go find your friend. You can bring him here.
Timmys head jerked up. Lydia rubbed his shoulders gently, beginning at the base of his neck and stroking out to the bulges of muscle where his arms began, then back again. It was a gesture she had made with him since he was a child, a physical idiom in their own private language. Her heart ached at the sacrifice she was making. The world changes you, she thought. Hadnt she just said that?
Bring him here? Ysure about that?
Its all right, she said. Its temporary.
Okay then, he said. She felt a tug of regret that he had given in so quickly, but it passed quickly. Ill leave you the good boat.
The good boat? she said to his retreating back.
The one we came in.
The door closed. The gray that passed for darkness swallowed him up, and five minutes later she heard what might have been a skiff splashing in among the waves. Or it might only have been her imagination. She pulled herself into the warm, stinking, plastic embrace of the sleeping bag and stared at the ceiling and waited to see whether he returned.
All through Baltimore, the struggle between law and opportunity continued, but most of the citizens allied themselves with neither side. The unlicensed coffee shop filled with customers looking for a cheap way to make their dinners on basic seem more palatable, and then with younger people who either didnt have the currency or else the inclination to take amphetamines before descending to the one-night rai clubs on barricaded streets. A few parents came home from actual jobs, proud to spend real money for a stale muffin and give their credits to the gray-market daycares run out of neighborhood living rooms. Very few people stood wholly for the law or wholly against it, and so for them the catastrophe of the churn was an annoyance to be avoided or endured or else a titillation on the newsfeeds. That it was a question of life and death for other people spoke in its favor as entertainment.