“Enough,” Groton said. “Used to shoot it some.”
“You been shooting a long time,” Corman said.
“Since I was eighteen,” Groton said. He laughed, but edgily, as if at himself.
“Must have seen a lot,” Corman added.
“You writing a book?”
Corman forced a laugh. “Me? No. I’m a shooter. I leave the words to other people.”
Groton wagged his finger at him. “That’s your mistake, partner.”
“You think so?”
“I know so,” Groton said. “You know that saying, ‘a picture’s worth a thousand words’?”
Corman nodded.
“It’s bullshit,” Groton said with a sudden vehemence. “I’ll tell you what a picture’s worth. It’s worth thirty-five bucks a print. A few bucks more for color.” He lifted his glass slightly. “That’s what a picture’s worth.” He took a quick sip from the glass, then returned it loudly to the table. “I never had a picture up from page five. Front page? Forget it. I’m talking page five.”
Corman could smell the air souring around him. Groton’s self-pity was like a musty odor, and the fact that he probably had a few legitimate reasons for it didn’t do a thing to relieve it.
“You shoot blood and guts, you’re on the front page five, minimum four times a year,” Groton went on irritably. “But you shoot some rich little twit’s birthday party at the Met, you’re back with the motor pool and the boiler-room jobs.”
Corman cleared his throat softly. “I had a shoot a few days ago,” he said. “A jumper on Forty-seventh Street.”
“East or West?”
“West. Good shots, too, but Pike said no.”
Groton shrugged. “When a spade jumps out a window, that’s page eight, column one, no shots. That’s the way it’s always been. Nothing changes.”
“She wasn’t black.”
“Well, these days, even whites end up on the back pages.”
“She had a college degree,” Corman said. “At least that’s what I heard.”
Groton leaned back slowly, rubbed his stomach gently, groaned. “Gas,” he explained. “Lately, I get real bad gas.” He curled one of his large red hands into a fist, pounded it softly against his stomach. “I guess I’ll have to get off the sauce,” he said quietly, more or less to himself.
“You never worked the news beat, did you, Groton?” Corman asked.
Groton shook his head. “Not me. I got a different gig altogether. Society.” He belched quietly. “But even that beat, it has its secrets.”
“Like what?”
“Well, you got to know how to shoot it.”
Corman cocked his head to the left. If he took over Groton’s job, he’d need to know how to play the inside track.
“You got to flatter the rich, that’s the secret,” Groton said. He laughed. “That’s the only secret there is.”
“How do you do that?”
“Well, I’ll tell you this,” Groton said. “You don’t concentrate on their fancy clothes and shit.” He shook his head dismissively. “That’s what the young turks do, dumb fucks.”
“You don’t?”
“Just enough for atmosphere,” Groton told him. “But I’ll tell you something about the rich. They don’t give a shit about their clothes and their big fancy dining rooms. When it comes to publicity, that’s not what matters to them.”
“What does?”
“They want to be flattered all right,” Groton went on. “Who doesn’t? But in a certain way. They want the pictures to make them look like there’s something to them besides money. They want to believe that. It’s important to them. They want everybody to believe that.” He shrugged. “That’s why they like to hang out with writers and actors and people like that, and you always need to take pictures of them with that type of people, not just sipping champagne with some leather-skinned old boozer who married a shipping tycoon when Napoleon was a corporal.”
It was the sort of tip Corman thought he could use if he ever found himself standing in a fancy ballroom somewhere, staring blankly at a line of giggling debutantes, his camera bag hanging from his shoulder like a ball and chain.
“You eat good on my beat, too,” Groton added after a moment. “You know, always scarfing something from the hors d’oeuvre tray.”
Corman allowed himself a quick laugh.
Groton turned inward suddenly, as if his mind were taking inventory, recalling, year by year, the motion of his days. “All in all, it’s not a bad life,” he said finally, as if in conclusion. Then the conclusion fell apart, and a shadow passed over his face. “But it’s strictly back page.” He belched again, took another sip from the glass. “You live in midtown, don’t you?”
“Yeah. Couple blocks away.”
“High rent?”
“High enough.”
“You’re still lucky to have it,” Groton said. “There aren’t many places left in Manhattan a regular working stiff can afford.”
“Yeah, well, I may not be able to afford it much longer.”
Groton scratched his ear. “How long you been living in New York?”
“Long time.”
“Well, I been here for almost fifty years,” Groton said. “But originally, I was from the wide open spaces. Way out west. My father could remember when they still called it Indian Country.”
“Is that right?”
“God’s truth.”
Corman said nothing.
Groton turned inward again, remained silent for a moment, then suddenly smiled, almost impishly. “Where never is heard a discouraging word,” he crooned lightly. “And the skies are not cloudy all day.”
Night had fallen over the city by the time Corman finally left the bar, nodding quietly to Groton, who seemed hardly to know that he was going.
Near home, the streets were filled with people who only came out after dark, their eyes still dim and puffy with the long day’s idleness. A black woman in a blond wig motioned to a couple of strolling West Point cadets. They eased away from her, laughing nervously. For a time, Corman followed them, taking pictures from behind, concentrating on the proud lift of their shoulders as they made their way down the avenue, carefully glancing away from the windows of porno shops, the mocking eyes of the whores who lined their path. He could feel the tension of their besieged rectitude, but as he continued to photograph them, he felt his sympathy slip away, and with it, his interest, found himself concentrating on other faces, bodies, styles of being, the street’s engulfing randomness, until he turned onto 45th Street and made his way home.
Once in his apartment, he made dinner, sat with Lucy at the small table, and chatted about her day, the usual round of fourth-grade gossip. He listened quietly but found he could hardly remember what she was saying. It was as if she were already disappearing from his life, dissolving into those tiny dots Seurat had used to portray the parks and beaches of his own dissolving age.
“Maybe we should go to a museum again sometime,” he said after a moment.
“Okay,” Lucy said.
“An art museum.”
“I thought you liked pictures better.”
“I like paintings too,” Corman said.
“Okay, we could do that,” Lucy said. She took a large bite from the hot dog Corman had made for her and munched it energetically. “I like paintings.”
Corman wondered if perhaps Lexie would have been more inclined to leave Lucy with him had he been a painter. At least he would have had a little studio somewhere, and she could have gotten the idea that Lucy was being introduced to art, something Lexie would value in a way she could never value the part of life Lucy had come to know by being with him, the streets, the sharp edge of the city, its fierce irony and darkly battered charm.
He thought of the woman, then of the only witness to her fall, the man Lang had interviewed and the lookout had called Simpson. “I have to go out tonight,” he said. “Something I’m working on.”