“Let them! Let everyone know Macbeth’s wife no longer trusts him!”
She began to weep silently.
Even now, after all these years, it hurts me to think of it. I don’t know why, but ever since she died, of all the things we used to talk about’ it’s the witches I think of most often.
One day (cold and gloomy, like today),1 mounted my horse and rode out in the direction of the heath. As we drew near I told my guards to come no further. The heath where I had met John Tendler’s tattered messenger looked more derelict than ever. A chilly drizzle fell on the stony scrub, I stood for a long while looking at the place where the woman in rags had appeared to me, I felt expectant, somehow. At one point i even thought! heard footsteps behind me. Î swung round. But apparently it was only the sound of a bird dropping a twig.
Standing there in the rain, I remembered my lady’s words. “Might it have been just a vision?” And for the first time î found myself wondering if! really had met John Tendler’s emissary in this fallow field, or if it had all been a figment of my imagination.
God Almighty, î cried, deliver me from these ridiculous doubts! Over there were the two bushes growing together. And there was the third, a little way off. There was the splinter of rock, sticking into the ground at a slant. And to the right of it, the dead tree-trunk. I remembered it all quite plainly,
I intended all this to reassure me, but a voice inside me said, yes,you’ve been here before, not once bet several times, but what does that prove? The question is, did John Tendler’s messenger ask you to meet him here, and if so, did he really say those things to you. Or…?
If Tendier had still been alive, I’d have gone and found him straight away, to gather from his own lips the proofs of Duncan’s perfidy. Unfortunately I was reduced to going over and over everything in my own weary mind.
Back home I tried to recall my meetings with John Tendier. Or rather my one meeting, because after that, for security reasons, Ï avoided any further direct contacts.
“Duncan obviously dislikes you.”
“Why?”
“Oh, it’s easy to understand. As with all tyrants, his ruling passion is jealousy. Suspicion only comes afterwards, to justify the crime…What should you do? Keep your eyes open, my lord. That’s the only advice I can give you now. Ill warn you if anything looks like happening. One of my men will come to see you disguised as an old beggar woman, muttering verses or some other mumbo-jumbo …”
Just before Duncan’s visit John Tendier managed to send me a message: “My lord — beware of your guest. Another warning follows,’
For days I waited anxiously for his messenger, longing to find out what Duncan intended to do while he was staying with me. I was haunted by the most terrifying possibilities. As if deliberately to reduce my nerves to shreds, the emissary still didn’t come. My wife was as anxious as I was, if not more so. I didn’t want to add to her anxiety, so Î didn’t tell her I’d decided to ride out to the old priest’s house where all the rogues and vagabonds gathered on Sundays…I certainly heard plenty of mumbo-jumbo there…I spoke to one of the beggar women, but try as I might I couldn’t make head or tail of what she said… Nor was Î very lucid myself, after so much worry and so many sleepless nights… I took the old woman aside and whispered to her, twice: “Now we’re alone, speak clearly!” But she only started raving worse than before…Apparently that was what she’d been instructed to do…She talked about a black cauldron, boiling something…It was very difficult to make her out, but she seemed to be going on about some imminent trick, some trap, someone being murdered in his sleep, an act of treachery…In the hope that she might thee speak more clearly, I arranged to meet her again two days later on a patch of waste land behind the priest’s house…And there, distraught, I waited for her for hours, on a day just like this…
“That’s enough!” i shouted at last to my astonished guards, and set my horse off at a gallop. “I don’t want to think about it any more. To hell with the shades of the past!”
Age was bringing me close to the kingdom of the shades myself, and I had no reason to fear it. Soon it would be I who frightened others, not as a king but as a ghost. Strangely enough, î found this thought soothing. There was no reason why! should cudgel my brains about something that had happened fifteen years ago. The only thing that mattered was that Duncan had plotted my death, and I had circumvented him. That was the heart of the matter. The rest was insignificant detail
Feeling better, I went out on to the terrace and started to look through the regular report on the day’s main events, and the account from the secret police on the rumours circulating among the people. I’d always taken a particular interest in the latter, especially in recent years, since gossip about the murder of B— had risen to the surface again. Noticing my interest, the chief of police was always adding extra material — whole conversations recorded by his spies, intercepted letters, prisoners’ confessions, anonymous denunciations, and so on.
The strange thing was that some of the rumours coincided with what Billy Hampston had written in his play. All the gossip, from that which could be traced back to the Duchess of M— or the Bridge Tavern to the mauederings of the drunken Cheavor, mentioned Duncan’s ghost. But there was frequent mention, too, of the bloodstains my late wife was supposed to have seen on her hands, ï remember that was mentioned in Hampston’s play too — I can even remember the first reference:
I: Take the body to the canal at Berverhill!
SHE: Will the waters of the canal wash away the blood?
And in a later scene (one of the most melancholy, I recalclass="underline" when my beloved lady read it she went terribly pale), she was shown trying to wash her hands, thinking she could see those cursed stains on them.
All the rumours more or less agreed on that point: during a meal, or a dance, or while she was busy at her embroidery, my wife suddenly saw her hands grow covered with bloodstains that no soap could ever remove.
Ugh! How deep can man’s morbid imagination sink? The truth is that a year before her death she developed a skin disease on her hands. Her doctor tried every possible remedy, but couldn’t cure her. My heart bled at the sight of those beautiful hands covered with ointments and bandages. In the course of a reception the shrewish Duchess of M— stared at my wife’s arms and asked, “How are your hands, your Majesty? I’m told there’s something wrong with them…”
My wife was dumbstruck. That night — or perhaps it was another night — trying to console her for her suffering,! started to kiss her bandages and to move them aside a little to kiss the skin beneath. But she pushed me away roughly, and in a toneless voice I’d never heard before, said:
“Perhaps you think it’s Duncan’s blood, too!”
My poor lady…It was apparently from then on that the rumours started about stains of Duncan’s blood. Perhaps she confided her anguish to some trusted woman friend, thus becoming the source of her own misfortune?
How often have I asked myself, in vain, if those rumours really did start then, and if Billy Hampston, more skilful than my secret police, managed to hear of them and put them in his play. Or was it his play itself that exploded into a thousand rumours? Learned men say that it’s like that, by means of particles coming into being, disappearing, and coming into being again in an endless cycle, that the celestial bodies are created.
I was sure there must be a copy somewhere of that wretched play, but though! did my best to get my hands on it, my efforts were in vain. My spies went through every nook and cranny with a fine-tooth comb, searched secret drawers, inspected cellars and the remotest priests’ houses, to no avail. What didn’t they find in the course of their researches? The most lurid manuscripts, descriptions of disgusting orgies, vile letters revealing the existence of immoral liaisons and abject vices, not to mention other aberrations too horrible to mention. Some of these were frankly ridiculous, others excruciatingly boring. But none of them remotely resembled Billy Hampstoe’s play.