“What?” gasped Silva. “How…?
“And that’s not all Victor Hila… “What, him too?”
“He’s still alive, but he’s been blinded.”
“Oh, how dreadful!” Silva cried.
The words were so flat, so inexorable, like the woes that prompted them. Death, blindness — things that stretched back to ancient tragedy,
“Silva,’ Besnik went on, “it’s rather awkward for me to go and see the Bermemas, as you know, but I must. Max was Ben’s closest friend…”
“Yes, Î met them together at the complex, just as they were preparing to … How is Ben?”
“Just superficial burns. Several other people were injured too. Listen, this is why I’m calling you: are you going to go over? I know it’s difficult for you too, because of Skender Bermema, bet…”
“Yes, but of course US go! If…”
“Victor’s still there, in the local hospital I’ll tell you more about how he is later on.’
“All right…”
“Ill call you at home, then, at about four o’clock^ so that we can go together. I think they’re bringing the body back around midday, and the funeral’s due to take place late this afternoon.”
Silva replaced the phone. She was shattered.
“Has something happened?” asked Linda, looking frightened. Silva nodded,
“Someone we know… died this morning at the steel complex.”
“How awful,’ Linda murmured.
“And that isn’t all” Silva paused, as Besnik had. “Victor Hila — you remember him, I’m sure — has been blinded.”
Linda turned terribly pale.
“How dreadful!” she whispered, almost inaudibly.
“All those jokes about the Chinaman and his foot,” said Silva, as if to herself. “Who’d have thought it would all end like this!”
“Oh yes, I remember!” said Linda. “He said it was all very well to laugh, but…It’s as if he had a presentiment.”
“Yes, it was that stupid story that started it all,” said Silva, “if he hadn’t had to leave his factory, he’d still be alive now.”
It didn’t shock Linda to hear Silva unconsciously equate blindness with death.
She sighed. Almost moaned.
“It was Beseik Struga I was talking to,” said Silva. She didn’t look at Linda as she spoke, thinking to spare her blushes. “His brother’s one of the injured.”
She thought of the stricken Bermema family. In the present circumstances, no awkwardness about past relationships ought to stop her going to see them. Besides, now that Ana was dead, the tension that once existed between the Bermemas, the Strugas and the Krasniqis had necessarily faded. And perhaps it would disappear altogether if …Silva turned towards Linda, and found Linda gazing back at her,
“Silva,” she said faintly. “I’ve got something to tell you.”
Silva could imagine how hard it was for her to speak: she sounded as if she might break down at any moment.
“I know, Linda,” she said. Linda stared back out of beautiful, wide grey eyes, “I saw you out in the street together.”
Linda flushed.
“I kept meaning to …but you see …I was so embarrassed …”
“I understand. But these things happen, and there’s absolutely no need for you to feel uncomfortable as far as I’m concerned. It’s perfectly natural, and as long as there are men and women …”
The words sounded so platitudinous, Silva changed the subject back to the accident, and what had happened to Max and Victor, It occurred to her that Linda, like everyone with a fixed idea, might still have preferred to go on talking about Besnik. But in fact she was listening intently to everything Silva said about the Bermemas. So much so that Silva, by intuition rather than logic, found herself asking if Linda would like to go with her to see them,
Linda shrugged.
“Yes, I'd like that very much, if you really think …”
“If you want to come, come,” said Silva, “It’s not like an ordinary death. When there’s a disaster of this kind, everyone comes to offer condolences, not only immediate family.”
Then it struck Silva that Linda oughtn’t to go if she regarded her relationship with Besnik as just a passing affair. Her decision as to what to do this afternoon might almost be regarded as a test…
“I wonder what Besnik …” stammered Linda,
“I think he’d want you to go,” said Silva. “After all, his younger brother was injured…”
“Yes, so you said…”
And at this point their conversation ended, because the boss had just walked in.
To Linda’s distress they didn’t get another chance to talk all the rest of the morning, and so didn’t finish their discussion about the afternoon. Even when she and Silva left the office, they weren’t alone: a group of colleagues- insisted in walking along with them. One called out, “I say, has anyone seen anything of Simon Dersha? I haven’t set eyes on him for days,” “Nor have I,” someone answered. Yes, thought Silva, he does seem to have vanished without our noticing. But she didn’t have time to pursue the subject, for Linda came up and whispered shyly: “So what are we doing about this afternoon, then?”
“I think it’ll be all right for you to come,” Silva reassured her. Then, after they’d walked on a few paces:
“It won’t seem out of the way. Well all be there.“
Linda nodded a rueful goodbye to her colleagues and turned towards home. “Well all be there…” What did that mean? Who were “we”? Why hadn’t Silva suggested their meeting and going together?
Linda felt hurt. The others still regarded her as an intruder. They were jealously protecting their own little circle. “Well all be there …” But she’d have to make her way there alone. Even Besnik hadn’t said anything to her: he’d talked to Sika on the phone as if she, Linda, had never set foot in the office. Yes, for all of them she was still an outsider…
But as she walked slowly along, her bitterness gradually waned. I’m just being childish, she thought How was Besnik to know she’d want to go to the funeral? From his point of view it was something she’d be glad to be spared… Linda sighed. How were any of them to know that if she wanted to go it wasn’t to please anybody, still less out of morbid curiosity (ugh I she could hardly bear to think of it!), but simply because she was fascinated by them and their world. She longed to be close to everything that concerned them, whether joy or sorrow. No, they could never understand that! let Silva’s feminine intuition must have given her an inkling, otherwise she wouldn’t have suggested…
As Linda was helping her mother lay the table for lunch, the phone rang. It was Silva.
“Hallo,” she said hurriedly. “Look, we didn’t get a chance to arrange things properly. I didn’t have time to tell you Besnik is going to ring me at four: you could come with us if you like…”
“Oh no,” said Linda inadvertently. “Not with him!”
“Why not? But just as you like. You may be right. In any case, I’m sure it will be all right for you to come on your own. There’ll be so many people no one will notice you… Do yoe know the address?”
“No,” said Linda faintly.
Silva gave it to her. And she sat pensively down to lunch.
As Linda made her way to the Bermema’s apartment, she told herself she could always have a look round when she got there, and then decide whether to go in or not.
She could see the crowd from some way off. It was larger than she’d expected: the pavement outside the apartment block was packed, and so was the pavement opposite. There was an ambulance among the cars parked all along the street. The nearer she got, the more slowly Linda went. When she got to the door she realized she could go upstairs without being noticed: two continuous streams of visitors were passing up and down. She started up without looking at anyone, reflecting that if she so decided she could turn round and come down again without setting foot inside the apartment itself.