"But I am here," she continued. "And I must make the best of the life I have chosen. If I don't find a way to satisfy the emperor, then I am doomed to the lowest harem. I will be—"
"The lowest girl in the lowest harem." He had tried to warn her of such a fate before, but she hadn't listened. And now it was too late.
"What's done is done."
He nodded. "You are smart to think of now rather than what could have been." Much smarter than he.
"And so you must help me. Please do not doom me to what you showed me in the harem window."
This time he did laugh. All these virgins and their families with their bribes and their smiles, didn't they understand he had no control over who was selected? "There is nothing I can do, Ji Yue."
"Yes, there is," she said as she slowly lowered herself to her knees before him. He thought she was dropping into a kowtow, but she stopped with her legs folded beneath her and her upper body straight. "You can teach me. Show me how to pleasure a man."
His mouth went dry. But not his jade stalk, which tightened in joy. But he could not believe she was suggesting this. She was a virgin! "You want to…to do what you saw in the window?"
She nodded, her hand slowly stroking the bulge in his pants. "I do not know how to do it to a man." She lifted her eyes to his. "And if this is all we can have, then I want you to teach me."
"So you can do it to Yi Zhen." His voice was harsh, his bitterness sour in his mouth.
"You are my only hope," she said as she stroked him. His body throbbed with her caress, and his blood pounded so hard that it threatened to drown out his thoughts. Then she reached beneath his tunic and touched the skin on his belly. He grabbed her hand before her fingers reached to the tie there. "You go too far!"
"Isn't this what you suggested a moment ago? Isn't this what you wanted?"
It was, but not like this! Not so that she could seduce his best friend!
"If we had met before I was the emperor's virgin, if you had come to the door of my house instead of secreting yourself away in my palanquin, then I would have found a way to become your wife. I would have waited if you asked. I would have forced my mother's hand and accepted your suit somehow."
"But I did not," he said in misery.
"You did not." She twisted her hand from his then quickly thrust it into his pants to pull the tie apart. The fabric loosened immediately, slipping down until it caught on his engorged organ. "If ambition is all that I have left, Bo Tao, then I will hold on to it like the lifeline it is." She looked up and he saw how fiercely she had thought about this, how determined she was to make the best of her life as it was now.
He reached out and stroked her face. "You are already becoming hard, Ji Yue. Ambition does that."
Tears shimmered in her eyes. "I planned to have myself expelled yesterday," she said. "The bruises were at their worst then. I could have claimed an illness. I even walked to the examination room in search of the doctor."
"She must be summoned from her home in Peking," he said softly.
"The physician was not there, and you had forgotten me."
"Never!" he cried. "But you had made your choice."
"No," she said. "My mother made my choice for me. She will not allow me back home. And you had forgotten me."
How those words cut him.
"And so my choice was to leave the Forbidden City to walk the streets—"
"I would not have allowed that."
She arched her brow. "Perhaps, perhaps not. You do not have the money or the political stability to support a discarded virgin."
True enough. He had to stay in the emperor's good graces or starve.
"In any event, I did not know what you thought. So I chose."
"To become a whore?"
She hissed in anger. "To not become a whore. To learn what it means to seduce an emperor." With a quick jerk, she pulled his pants down to his knees. "I do not even know what a man looks like, and I have less than two days to learn all I can about it." She reached up and boldly cupped his sack. He nearly cried out at the force of her grip. "Do you teach me then, Bo Tao?"
With his balls in her hand, he had no choice. He reached down and touched her wrist. "Gentler, Ji Yue, they are not ink stones."
She softened her grip, then she rolled him slightly in her fingers. "They seem so hard. Underneath."
His entire body trembled and it was a moment before he could breathe. "There is a point behind the balls that has special sensitivity."
"Really?" She tilted her head to look.
"Not yet!" he gasped. "Not yet," he repeated as his breath steadied into shortened pants. "Begin with the stalk then proceed higher," he instructed.
She did as he bid. He had to shed his tunic or else the sweat would stain it. Then he stepped away from her to remove all his clothing. If she wanted to see a man, then so be it. She would see all of him.
"Oh," she breathed softly as she looked at him from head to toe. "Is the emperor this muscled?" she asked.
"No," Bo Tao said with a touch of arrogance. "Though he takes special pride in his legs."
She nodded, obviously making a mental note. Then she stroked his legs, running her hands through the dusting of hair on his thighs, then up to the thicker part between.
"You are beautiful," she said. "I have seen coolies, of course. I watched them most closely when Mama wasn't looking. You are not so thick as them." She flashed him a smile. "I like your leanness better. Can I touch it now?"
Her words and her touch were like opium smoke; his thoughts floated away into sensation. He instructed her as best he could. She cupped and she caressed. She gripped his stalk and rolled her thumb over the head. And when she extended her tongue to taste, his buttocks thrust of their own accord. He breached the confines of her mouth.
She drew back in alarm, but he had to steady himself on her shoulders. "You are losing control," she said in awe. "I have made you lose control."
"Not yet, you haven't," he growled.
"Then I shall have to try harder." And she engulfed him in her mouth.
She won. As she swirled her tongue around him, he began to move. His hands burrowed through her hair and he thrust, thinking she would gag on him. She did not. She took him all and sucked when he pulled back. The fire roared through his blood and ripped through his mind. He erupted with the force of days of hardened frustration. And when he spilled, she drank. She sucked him, caressed him, and made him think he was in the most blessed heavenly realm.
Until he collapsed onto his knees before her. He fell, gasping for breath. And when his vision steadied, he saw her licking her lips. "Thank you," she said most solemnly. "Do we have time for me to practice again?"
He could not believe it. He did not think that such a woman could exist in the whole world, much less be here looking at him with such an earnest expression. It nearly killed him to think that she could never be his.
"Not yet, Ji Yue," he murmured. "Remember, you have yet to be punished. I have to make you scream."
Her brow contracted in thought. "Can it be done at the same time?"
He smiled. "Oh, yes."
"Then I wish to learn that."
He nodded, already gathering his strength. He would have one afternoon with this amazing woman. One afternoon that would have to last his entire life, and so he decided to enjoy it to the fullest. "Very well," he said, "but you must remember to scream. As if in pain."
She nodded most solemnly. "I will remember."
"Then I will teach you."
Chapter 13
"YOU MUST UNDRESS," he said.
Ji Yue recoiled in shock, her heart beating triple fast. It was one thing to be the woman caressing him, bringing him to a place where he had no control over his body. It was quite another to remove attire that kept her safe. Except, of course, no cloth could keep her safe. The very idea was ridiculous, but she felt its protection nonetheless.