She caught herself in time, and I returned a stiff smile. I knew what she had been going to say, but, well, I didn’t have anyone waiting for me any more.
‘Fine,’ said Hans.
I observed Jan. Six, six and a half. Thomas was two and a half. It was strange how dependent you became on such small creatures. As soon as the daily routines were broken, there was a void in your existence, a hole which if you were lucky could be filled with something else, but not necessarily, and not always.
I sighed, and Cecilie sent me a dejected smile as if to apologise further for her tiny slip of the tongue.
‘Well, then I’ll be off.’
A telephone rang and Hans went to answer the call. Cecilie came over to me. ‘Sorry, Varg. I didn’t mean to open up old…’
‘Not at all. Relax, it’s not your…’
Hans returned. ‘Police on the line. They’re wondering whether one of you could talk to them.’
I looked at Cecilie, who nodded towards me. ‘OK, I’ll take it.’
I went into the hall, to the coin-operated telephone on the wall. ‘Veum speaking.’
‘Inspector Muus here.’
‘Yes?’
‘The situation has changed.’
‘Uhuh.’
‘This woman, Vibecke Skarnes. We went to the hospital to see whether she could receive visitors, but she couldn’t.’
‘What do you mean?’
‘Er… she wasn’t there any more. She had gone.’
‘Gone?’
‘Hopped it without leaving much more than her imprint on the mattress.’
‘But I suppose you’ve started to search for her?’
‘What do you think we are? Idiots?’
‘Not all of you.’
‘I beg your pardon.’
‘No.’
‘But we think it might be handy if someone kept an extra vigilant eye on the boy. Until she reappears.’
‘I see. I’ll talk to Haavik. If he can’t, I’ll stay here myself. Keep us posted.’
‘Fine.’
We hung up, and I rejoined the others. I looked at Jan and smiled. ‘Don’t you think it’s time to head for bed?’
He watched from somewhere far away, a land where adults were refused admission. Sometimes I wondered whether that wasn’t a better place to be. But the way back was closed — for most of us, anyway.
Over some brisk activity, carrying out the soup bowls and plates in two trips, I managed to update Hans and Cecilie on the latest developments. We agreed that Cecilie would stay as planned, but now she would sleep in the same room as Jan, while Hans would inform those on the night shift about the situation.
‘But she can’t know where he is, can she?’ Cecilie queried.
‘Not as far as I understand things. I wonder whether I should pop up to Wergelandsasen again in case she turns up there.’
She looked at me in surprise. ‘But isn’t that the police’s job?’
‘Yes, it is.’
She rolled her eyes in response.
We went with Hans while he showed Jan where he was to spend the night. It was a room on the first floor with two beds, a table and two chairs in the middle, a double wardrobe and a view onto a mountain face. The only picture on the wall had been taken from a book I vaguely seemed to remember from my own childhood. It showed some children lost in a forest of gigantic toadstools that grew high above their heads. I was not so sure how reassuring that would be.
However, Jan appeared to be at ease there. He still gave an impression of apathy, and I said to Cecilie that if he hadn’t snapped out of it by the day after, we would have to summon further medical support. She nodded indulgently, as if to say that she didn’t need to be told.
Cecilie stayed upstairs to help Jan with preparations for the night. I followed Hans back down to the refectory. From the adjacent room the sounds of the ice hockey game had died away. Now the TV had taken over, although I was unable to identify the programme.
Before leaving, I went upstairs to say goodnight to Jan. He had been given a pair of pyjamas from one of the wardrobes. Cecilie had found a book on the shelf over her bed and was reading aloud from it. The boy lay in bed with his eyes open, staring up at the ceiling and giving no obvious sign that he was listening.
‘Goodnight, Johnny boy,’ I said.
He didn’t answer.
To Cecilie I opened my palms, gave her a pat of encouragement on the shoulder and was off.
Hans accompanied me out. He laughed when he saw my vehicle. ‘Is there really any room in that sardine can, Varg?’
‘More than you would imagine,’ I answered. ‘But it would have been a size too small for you.’
He stood watching as I got in. I peered up at him. He wore an air of concern.
‘Anything bothering you?’
He shrugged. ‘It’s just an occupational disease, Varg. You’ll get it, too, after a few years in this line of work.’
‘And it has what effect?’
‘A slow accumulation of disillusionment regarding what some adults do to the children they brought into the world.’
‘Well…’
We nodded to each other, then I put the car into gear and set off. I glanced at him in the rear-view mirror as I turned out of the car park. Standing where he was, he looked strangely forlorn: a big, good-natured teddy bear forgotten by a child who had long grown up, slightly at odds with the times.
Beate had kept the flat in Mohlenpris. I had found myself two rooms and a kitchen in Telthussmauet, in Fjellsiden. But I didn’t go there. I did what I had told Cecilie I would do, and drove back to Wergelandsasen.
6
February was dark and this year there wasn’t much snow. It wasn’t cold, either. It had been an unseasonably warm winter, and in January the fohn winds had swept through the town for such long periods that man and beast had smelt spring in the air long before it was due. No one would have been surprised if the first migratory birds had arrived a month or two early.
Wergelandsasen was an almost noise-free zone this evening. All you could hear was the distant hum of cars down in Storetveitvegen, a cat meowing furiously in a garden and an aeroplane passing overhead towards Flesland airport.
Behind the hedges, the houses were lit and peaceful. I pulled in, got out of the car and carefully put the car door to, without closing it. I stood taking stock of the area.
The street was narrow and surrounded by withered brown hedges, most of them neat and tidy. A few cars were parked down one side. I bent forward to see if anyone was sitting in them, but there was no one.
I closed the car door quietly and moved forward. There wasn’t a hedge around the brown house but large dark green rhododendron bushes, the biggest of them at least twenty years old. I paused by the gate. The police had cordoned off the house with red and white plastic tape, a measure which did not prevent anyone from entering if they wished. I looked towards the house. It had a dark, closed air. An outside lamp was on. That was all.
A car door further down the street was slammed. I stared after it. Two men were coming towards me. Neither of them wearing a uniform, but they didn’t need to. I recognised them by their gait, and when they were close up I recognised Ellingsen and Boe. Ellingsen because he had married an ex-girlfriend of mine; Boe I had seen at the police station.
‘Something we can help you with?’ asked Boe, the older of the two, weasel-faced, lean and wiry.
‘I know him,’ said Ellingsen, a bit chubbier, dark-haired with visible bristles.
‘Hello, Elling,’ I said. ‘Everything alright at home?’
‘Yes, thanks.’
‘You know him, did you say?’ Boe asked.
‘Just by repute.’
‘His wife,’ I began.
‘They were in the same class at school,’ he added with alacrity.
I gave a thin smile as though I knew something he would have preferred not to know.
‘And what the hell are you doing here at this time of night?’ Boe pressed.
I studied him. ‘The fact is I was here earlier in the day on business. Social services, if you’re curious. I just felt like — seeing how things were up here, during the evening.’