He reached for the phone to call Sara and ask her to go to his place and bring him the SIG Sauer. He took his hand back. If what Morse said was correct, the weapon was likely so much twisted metal.
He needed a replacement and he needed it fast.
Without it, his life depended on the protection of the Atlanta Police Department, the Keystone Kops who had mistakenly shot and killed a ninety-two-year-old woman when the SWAT team had raided the wrong house in a drug bust, who had arrested and roughed up a visiting college professor for jaywalking and who, more than once, had put 911 callers on hold.
No thanks.
Weak or not, he had to get out of here.
Problem was, he was wired in. Two tubes in the back of one hand and a catheter. The two in his hand were easily removed but the other…?
He was reaching for the buzzer to summon the nurse when his hand froze in midair.
He must be hallucinating again.
Gurt stood in the doorway.
Just under six feet, long blonde hair reached below her shoulders. With large, firm breasts, wasplike waist and shapely legs, she had a figure most twenty-somethings would envy.
The same small boy from Lang's supposed dreams stood at her side, his blue eyes locked onto Lang's.
"It was said you might die," Gurt announced, immobile in the doorway.
"Sorry to disappoint you."
Gurt was impervious to sarcasm. It was part of her Germanic nature. "Why sorry? It does me glad."
"I'm glad you've come back."
"I came because I wanted Manfred to at least see his father."
She gently pushed the boy forward.
"His father?"
"Lang, close your mouth. It is most unattractive hanging open."
Now Lang realized why the child had something familiar about him. His face was a small, youthful reproduction of his own. _
Lang couldn't take his eyes off the boy who was standing next to the bed, regarding him as though trying to memorize what he saw. "But I don't… I couldn't… You never…"
Gurt seated herself in the chair, fished in a purse the size of a small suitcase and produced a pack of Marlboros. "I left because I was pregnant. I did not want what you call a marriage of a shotgun."
Gurt s mastery of the American idiom was less than complete.
"Shotgun wedding," Lang corrected.
"Why would someone marry a shotgun?"
Lang shook his head impatiently. "You knew I wanted to marry you. That's why it hurt so bad when you left me. I
mean, I just turned around one day and you were gone…"
His voice trailed off as he remembered his shock and sorrow. Hell, he ought to be angry with this woman who had thought so little of his feelings. He ought to…
Whatever.
He was so glad to see her, even more astonished and delighted his dreams of a family might materialize long after he had abandoned them, that his joy would permit no anger. He shook his head slowly, making sure this scene wasn't the result of painkillers.
A son!
He had despaired of ever seeing Gurt again, of having a child of his own. Pain or not, he would have chosen a dozen more broken bones as the price of the elation he felt. Despite his desire for a family, he had always viewed the alleged joy of parenthood as suspect. Midnight feedings, projectile vomiting, nasty diapers. In seconds he had become a believer, a transformation more miraculous than any politician's hundred and eighty degree change of position.
And look at him! Already handsome, intelligence glittering from those blue eyes. In an instant he forgave Gurt the pain of her disappearance, her refusal to consider marriage and anything else she might ever have done or do in the future. He knew it was irrational but he didn't care. He knew it was love for the family that had appeared as though from behind a magician's cape. It was not a time to be rational
Involuntarily, he reached for the boy, to touch him, to make sure this was no drug-induced dream. The tubes stopped his arms short. The boy, Manfred, stepped into the embrace without hesitation. Lang felt even more delight at the touch of his son's skin, the rigidity of his bones, the knowledge this flesh was of his own.
Ignoring the sign above her head that proclaimed Grady was a smoke-free environment, Gurt lit up, sending a jet of blue smoke into the air. Lang was too happy to chide her about her habit in general and the locale in which she was giving in to it in particular.
She leaned back in the chair. "When I left you, I did not want you to know I had pregnant. I wanted to go back to work-"
"You didn't have to," Lang interrupted.
She nodded and took another drag from her cigarette. "I know. But who wants to be like the women in the building where you live? Not working makes them stupid." She took another puff. "Or they already are. Even though I knew I had a baby coming, I did not want to ask you for help, to look like I needed anyone nor was I willing to give up what could be the only part of you I would ever have."
"By your choice." There was no brittle edge to his tone, only a happy recitation of fact.
"Had you not nearly died, I would probably never seen you again," she said with uncharacteristic emotion. "I would have been very foolish. If you wish me to go, I will."
Instead, he spread his arms again, releasing his son. Cigarette in hand, Gurt came to the bed and embraced him. Lang smelled a mixture of stale tobacco and soap with the smallest hint of some sort of flower fragrance, the one he associated with her. The memories flooded back: Rome, London, Seville, the Languedoc of France. All the dangers they had faced. And the wild, uninhibited, noisy sex. He had missed the former almost as much as the latter.
"Go? Try it and I'll chain you to the bed," he said with a smile.
As though with a will of their own, his hands started moving across her back, down her sides to her hips.
She gently pushed back. "Later. When Manfred is not here."
The first lust he had felt in longer than he cared to remember had not made Lang forget the boy. "No harm in him seeing his parents' affection."
Gurt cocked an eyebrow. "Affection'? Another minute and you would have had me across the bed."
The growing discomfort from the catheter made Lang painfully aware of how right she was.
He leaned back into the pillows. "Exactly what do you have in mind? I mean, I better be planning on you staying this time."
He was afraid to bring up any arrangement that smacked of permanence. She had left his life twice before when he had.
"Manfred and I will be here at least until the hospital releases you. Longer if you wish."
Lang's eyes were riveted on his son, the child he was beginning to regard as miraculous as any held by one of Rubens's Madonnas. "I can't wait that long. Whoever blew up my condo is going to try again. I'm a sitting duck here."
"What do nesting birds have to do with it?" She was looking for a place to stub out her cigarette. She finally settled on a glass beside the bed before she returned to the chair. "There are men outside that look like policemen."
"They are, City of Atlanta. You lived here a year or so. Would you trust your life to the Atlanta police?"
She gave a toss of the head. "You do not have to. That is one of the reasons I came."
It was not bravado. She had saved his life more than once. After winning the agency's women's shooting competition, she had demanded a face-off with the male champion. She had humiliated him.
"You have a weapon?"
"I had no plans to protect you with a nail file."
"Manfred?"
"He will stay with Francis for the time being."
Francis, keeper of Lang's dog and now Lang's son. The priest was making his bid for sainthood.
Or institutional confinement.
Francis.
Lang recalled his friend's reaction when he had told him he thought he had dreamed of Gurt. "Francis, he…"
"He called me hours after you were admitted to the hospital. The doctors were not, er, optimistic."