To her relief Grace smiled. Perhaps, after all, she was just shy.
“I’ve never been much of an eater. Picky I’m afraid. I’ve brought a supply of chocolate. You musn’t worry about me. I’m fit as a lop.”
This was an expression Rachael hadn’t heard since childhood, and then only used by old people.
And Grace did seem fit. She covered miles of river-bank every day and arrived back at the cottage at dusk showing no signs of exertion.
Sometimes Rachael watched her approaching over the flat land from the Skirl burn, her pace so even that she seemed to be floating, pale in the gloom like one of the short-eared owls that hunted over the low fields near the farm.
The day before Bella’s funeral Peter Kemp turned up at Baikie’s Cottage. Rachael had been up at four, out on the hill at five and was back, eating breakfast, getting warm. Overnight there’dbeen a fresh scattering of snow on the tops. Now it was sunny, but a gusty wind had blown up on the last transect. If it had been like that when she started she wouldn’t have bothered. Grace was walking a river on the Holme Park Estate. Anne was in the kitchen, filling a flask, almost ready to go out. She heard the car first, went to see who it was and called to Rachael.
“Christ Almighty! Come and look at this!” The last thing Rachael wanted was to get out of the chair, leave the fire and her toast, but Anne wasn’t always so good-humoured. It would have been churlish to ignore the request. She took her coffee and stood in her stockinged feet at the kitchen door. It was Peter, driving a brand new Range Rover with a discreet Peter Kemp Associates logo stuck to the passengers’ door. Rachael hadn’t seen the car before, hadn’t known even that its purchase was planned, but made no comment. Anne wasn’t so restrained.
“So that’s why you pay your contract staff peanuts,” she said, teasing him but also making a serious point. She always felt undervalued. “We sacrifice a living wage so the boss can swan around in a Range Rover.”
He was unoffended, grinned wolfishly. Rachael turned back into the house.
“It’s all about giving the punters confidence,” she heard him say.
“You’re a bright lady. You’ll understand that.”
His tone was flirtatious. Rachael, who knew of Anne’s reputation for wildness, promiscuity, wondered if they’d ever had an affair, if, despite Amelia, they were having one now.
“Well, as I’m just a wage slave,” Anne said, “I’d better get on with some work. I’d hate to get the sack.”
“No chance of that, sweetie,” he replied easily. “You’re the best botanist in the county.”
If there was an answer Rachael didn’t hear it. Peter came into the living room, stood with his back to the fire, blocking out the heat.
“You’re not going into the field?” he said.
“I’ve already been. There’s no point counting this late in the day.
You should know that. You wrote the manual.”
He looked at her as if he didn’t understand what point she was making.
There were times when he could make her believe that she’d dreamt her part in the Kemp Methodology, that she was going mad. He took the other chair. “I heard about Bella,” he said. “I’m so sorry. That’s why I came. To see how you were.”
“I’m fine.”
“No, really. I know how close you two were.”
“Really. It was a shock, but I’m fine.”
“You’ve no idea why she did it?”
“None.”
“I don’t suppose you’ve heard what’ll happen to the farm?”
“Dougie certainly can’t manage it. Unless Neville takes it on I suppose it’ll be sold. Dougie’s moved into a nursing home. That’ll have to be paid for.”
“What’s happening over there now? They must be lambing.”
“Geoff Beck from Langholme’s looking after it. I suppose Neville made the arrangements.”
It was more of an interrogation than she had been subjected to by the young policeman.
“Neville Furness. Has he been over?”
“No, I had to speak to him on the phone. He’s sorting out the funeral.”
“You know he works for Slateburn Quarries?”
“I had heard.”
He turned boyish, gave her a smile. “I don’t suppose there’s any chance of a coffee.”
She made him coffee but didn’t offer any food. It was a trek into Kimmerston to stock up on supplies and she didn’t see why they should share their rations with him. In the old days, when they were living together at Baikie’s and he was still working for the trust, he’d have brought treats fresh crusty bread from the bakery at Slateburn, pate and Brie from the delicatessen at Kimmerston, Spanish strawberries from the supermarket, though they both knew the Costa Donana had been drained to produce them and if they had any conscience they’d leave them alone. Today he was empty-handed and despite herself she felt cheated.
“And the project?” he asked. “Is that going well?”
“So far. Very well.”
“Anne’s a trooper of course, but Grace is settling in, is she? I’ve heard great things of her.”
“She certainly seems to know her subject.”
Rachael had no intention of discussing Grace’s health or her state of mind with Peter. It had become a habit to reveal as little as possible. Besides, to discuss the women’s problems would have seemed like telling tales.
“So we’re on schedule?”
“Ahead of schedule. We’ve been lucky with the weather.”
“Good. That’s good.”
Still he seemed reluctant to go. He sat in the tatty chair which would have looked disreputable in a student bed sit which would certainly have no place in the flat he shared with Amelia, and clutched his empty coffee cup. She realized that he wanted to talk to her. He was building up to a confession or confidence, even to an apology. She didn’t want to hear what he had to say. Not about his wife or his work or his affairs.
“Will you come to the funeral?” she asked abruptly.
“I don’t know. I hadn’t thought.”
“I think you should. Bella was a great help to Peter Kemp Associates.”
“Perhaps I will then.”
And if you have queries about the farm you can ask Neville.”
“Yes.” But still he sounded uncertain.
“Look,” she said. “I’m knackered. I could do with a couple of hours’ sleep before I go out again this evening.” Though she could tell already that the wind would be too strong.
“Of course. I should go anyway. A meeting with English Nature. The possibility of more work. Good news, huh?”
Her only response was to stand up to show she expected him to leave immediately. He had left his jacket in the kitchen. It had been flung on the bench as he came in. His boots were on the doorstep. He laced them, then put on the jacket, turning up the collar. Rachael didn’t bother putting on her outdoor clothes, but stood in the doorway to see him off. At the Range Rover he turned to face her and gave a sad little wave of farewell.
The car pulled away slowly and suddenly she ran after it, shouting, banging the door panel where the logo had been stuck. Even wearing the thick oiled socks the yard felt very cold under her feet. Peter braked and looked eagerly out of the window. Perhaps he thought after all he would be given the opportunity to confide in her.
“There’s something I have to ask.”
Anything, of course.”
“Did you come to see Bella, the afternoon she died?”
For a moment he was stunned. He seemed unable to speak but perhaps that was only because he had been expecting a different question.
“No,” he said at last. “Why would I? It was your project.”
“You weren’t out on the hill?”
“No. Why do you ask?”
She shook her head and stood back from the Range Rover. He hesitated and then he drove away.
She was convinced he had lied. The memory had been triggered as he stood by the car and turned to wave goodbye. It was something about his posture and the shape of the jacket with the collar pulled up. It had been Peter she had seen caught in her headlights as she crossed Black Law ford on the night of Bella’s suicide. And he had lied.