‘I don’t deserve it,’ Merrily said. ‘I don’t deserve any of you… Sophie… Jane – don’t ever tell her I said that! I just… flounder about from one irrational scenario to another, making a balls of things, coming to false conclusions – appealing to God, apologizing to God… being terrified of coming one day to reject God. I mean, before all this began I was supposed to recruit a back-up team. I don’t know where to start. Simon—’
‘Forget Simon,’ Lol said. ‘Like you don’t have enough problems.’
‘He came through today, though.’
‘You don’t know what he’s like tonight.’
‘I do have a situation he could help with. If he’d be willing to talk to someone with the same kind of… sensitivity problem.’
‘Amy Shelbone?’
‘Either she represses it and it goes on causing trouble. Or she gets advice from the wrong kind of people and becomes something monstrous. She won’t get sent to a detention centre, but she might get put into the psychiatric system – and who’s that going to help? Not Amy, and certainly not any other patients she comes into contact with.’
‘Psychiatric medicine doesn’t allow for people like that,’ Lol said. ‘No use talking to Simon, though. He’ll only say he’d screw her up even more. How about I talk to Isabel and she talks to Simon?’
‘Would he talk to the Shelbones, too, do you think? As a psychic and a clergyman?’
‘But not in those jeans,’ Lol had said.
Merrily had yawned and asked if it was OK to go up to her cell in Prof’s cottage and lie down for a while.
There was no need to show her to the room; she knew the way. And, anyway, Prof had rung then.
It was evening now, with a premature darkening of the sky. Probably the coming of the long-forecast storm. Lol sat down in the booth with the Boswell, fingered the opening chords of the River Frome song. He needed to sleep; didn’t think he’d be able to.
He thought about the Boswell Romany philosophy: live lightly. And love lightly? He couldn’t love lightly, didn’t think Al Boswell could either. He found himself wondering, not for the first time, what would have happened if Al and Sally hadn’t found them in the hop-yard last night. Decided he wasn’t going to think about that ever again.
Or about Gerard Stock hanging in his cell.
‘Why did he have to kill himself?’ Merrily had said. ‘So many things nobody will ever know. Everyone said he wasn’t the suicide type.’
‘Circumstances can change the kind of person you are,’ Lol said.
‘Wolverhampton?’
‘Experience. I…’ He’d hesitated. ‘Suppose he had a… prison visitor…?’
Merrily had said, ‘Huw Owen uses the term “visitor” to describe the appearance of a relative or close friend – a comfort thing, usually.’
‘Maybe I mean burglar. Maybe that’s not logical. Where would it find female energy in the remand centre?’
‘If there’s one thing I’ve learned in the past year,’ Merrily said, ‘it’s that human logic doesn’t often come into it. But… there might be absolutely no paranormal context to Stock’s death. I mean, I might have to operate on the basis that the Unseen permeates everything, but society functions well enough – if a little colourlessly – without it.’
Lol padded up the steps, along the minstrel’s gallery and into his loft, as the first thunder sounded from the west. He took off his round, brass-rimmed glasses and popped them into their case on the plywood onion box serving as his bedside table.
A vivid mauve light filled the skylight above him. It was open a little, and the loft was filled with the rich caramel smell of ripened hay from the meadow.
Lol felt inexplicably upset.
Well, perhaps not that inexplicably.
He let himself fall back on to the camp bed. But it wasn’t there. He came down on hay. He looked up at the blurred purple square of the skylight. Huh? Was he so overtired he’d climbed up to the wrong loft?
He reached for his glasses on the onion box.
A hand closed around his wrist.
With so little sleep in two days, they’d both been beyond exhaustion, but this had somehow made it both more intense and more nebulous. Maybe the fatigue was responsible, also, for that sense of been-here-before, if only in dreams, and Lol had been afraid to sleep in case this should turn out to be another one.
It was the storm that awoke him, creamy lightning in the skylight, and he jumped up to close it against the inevitable rain, climbing on the camp bed, which she’d folded up before spreading the hay and straw and the duvet on top of it.
She said she’d dreamed of Stock. The carcass turning slowly, from side to side.
‘You see what you get sleeping with me,’ Merrily said.
They made love again, under the thunder, and then she lay on her back, and the rain began to hit the skylight in long, slow drops, as if each one had been calculated.
– TWO –
Strung Up
MID-MORNING, MERRILY went back to the vicarage, and then she planned to go and visit the Shelbones – or try to. Lol wanted to go with her, and then thought no: love lightly. Don’t seek to possess.
He went into the studio to think about creating a new song before Prof arrived back. Any new song; he knew it wasn’t going to be a problem. The sky was washed clean. The Boswell guitar felt like a living thing.
It was around eleven-thirty when DI Frannie Bliss phoned from Leominster.
‘Hope you don’t think I lied to yer about that press statement, Lol, but it’s not happened, has it? And now the lovely Snow Maiden’s gone on a few days’ leave. Which was unexpected.’
‘It’s God, Frannie. God looks after key personnel.’
‘You didn’t talk to anybody yourself, then?’
‘Never really got chance, in the end.’
‘Ah well…’ Pause. ‘Merrily wouldn’t be there, would she?’
‘Gone to work. I mean… she’s… at work. Presumably.’
‘Only, with the boss skiving off, the PM report on Stock’s arrived on my desk, with no little controversy.’
‘We were talking about Stock earlier.’
‘A lot of people are talking about Stock again this morning.’
‘It’s what he would’ve wanted. We were still trying to think why he did it – hanged himself.’
‘It’s a mystery,’ Frannie Bliss said. ‘And not the only one.’
‘Can I give Merrily a message?’
Bliss thought about it, sighed. ‘Bugger it,’ he said. ‘This is tormenting me a bit. Stock strung himself up with his shirt, right?’
‘That’s what we heard.’
‘The PM report says the severe ligature marks found on his neck are what you might call inconsistent with that. According to the Home Office pathologist and the forensics lab, we should be looking for a length of rusty wire, maybe seven or eight millimetres thick, probably multi-stranded. There was no sign of any such wire in Stock’s cell. We can be fairly sure he did not bring any in with him. And it was certainly not around his neck when he was cut down. Needless to say, the remand centre is being searched, no doubt, even as we speak.’
‘Strange.’
‘It is, isn’t it? There was also an impression on the side of his neck strongly suggestive of a hook being attached to the wire. One of my lads, who was a farmer’s boy, had an idea what this might be.’
Lol said, ‘You’re talking about hop-wire, aren’t you?’
Closing Credits
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