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Leaking through the cellar bars and remaining

Just two eyelids swollen from insomnia…

And then, before dawn, comes an enormous horse.

(1919)

PARTING OF WAYS ON THE STEPPE

Tonight my soul is a steppe and on it drunken Cossacks ride at a gallop

Mikhail Sholokhov, this Don is not quiet like you described

Movements from which the sole has been torn and every prefabricated verse

Eyes brimming with dead-end alleys with muddy streets

From which a surgical procedure has

Removed every stride

This deep blue Don that carries me randomly in its inside

Pocket and occasionally takes me out into the light of mud to see what

time, day, month, year it is

This barbaric ice-blue Don

Tonight my soul

Stuck in an elevator between the cold

And the second floor where at the desk

Small like a man, it writes out on signatures of brain matter

With its sharply imagined pain

Mathematical operations of delirium and intricate equations of loneliness

Just so the night doesn’t grow fat or go mad

Mikhail Sholokhov, until they fire a burst of breath into the mouth

Of an Anyusha or a Tanya

Until this Don takes me

To the bottom of the ocean…

(1920)

A DESCRIPTION OF NOTHING

On a line stretched across the yard

Women hang out

The washed brains

A dead bird without ID

Falls into the wrinkled streets

And everyone wonders

what its name is

The mouths of the dead speak not

On rows of death notices

Your name printed

And year of birth

On my left lung

Likewise your name printed

And year of death

Is that the real reason why

Gutenberg

Invented the technology of printing

After that I go home

Resolute

To read nothing at all

Sunday

Holy Sunday

Fat roasted turkeys

Fly over the streets

Greasy Sunday lunches

Swollen greasy stuffed cabbage leaves

Lazily napping

On the dead backs

Of solemn tables set for guests

In Sunday guest rooms

Fathers counsel children

I’m waiting for you in front of the butcher shop

In solemn Sunday

First person singular

And so wonderfully

I do not exist

You don’t have to come

Anyway you don’t exist

I don’t have to wait

Anyway you won’t come

Let the Earth turn aimlessly

Around its sun

I am empty

Like the universe

This Sunday afternoon is

Longer than the smooth meridian

That severs me lengthwise

Thus there exists

An eastern and western

Joseph Kowalsky

An east and west heart

An east and west hand

An east and west waiting

And all of it divided

By a thin lengthwise line

Into an eastern NOTHING

And a western NOTHING

And in the middle

Holding my breath

I wait for you frantically

(1923)

AMEBAS (1957)

At night, as soon as I fake going to sleep so

I could rest from pretending to be awake, my red boots

would set out. They would check to see if my eyes

were closed, and if my breathing was rhythmical and then

they would go out into the street.

I would follow them barefoot and bareheaded in my nightshirt. Without success. A few streets over they would lose me and there was always a cop there who was bored and liked to ask a lot of

questions.

Who knows with whose feet they went, where they went, what they

did I never managed to find out where

they go

those boots of mine.

And still, I forgave their unfaithfulness, took them to the cobbler,

shined them with whale oil until they finally fell apart.

~ ~ ~

It is impossible to simultaneously feel and not feel them

How uninvited they find refuge in the shallow seas of marrow

And blood

Named after kinds of ravings

Bloated shapeless Amebas

Look… two baby Cancer amebas

In your tear duct they are weeping

Jangle the rattles of your bones

Go on let them play

Let their soft mouths chew on you

Bring them mother’s milk

Bring them yourself

In the right pocket of Cancer

~ ~ ~

In the left pocket is a trite emptiness

Dedicated to the waters; below the sun shatters into

Tiny boulders

Below is their home and ours

A large village of silence

And we shall

Return Cancer

The one and only Cancer

Look, two baby amebas on the corner sobbing

Break off the hands

Break off the head

Feed the insatiable hunger

Feed the amebas

Of Cancer

~ ~ ~

If they gently enter the whites of the eye and become cataracts

What word should you softly say so they don’t become enraged

And deform even these pitiful contours

And these pilfered shapes

And these airy constants

How do you tell them to come to their senses when they do not even

Have themselves and when they don’t know

In which direction and how far they spread

Into which of the unstable senses

Into which of the floppy ears

~ ~ ~

Watch out Cancer

One of them slipped unnoticed into your ear

Across your hand

Maybe it will tell you a lie

Maybe it will pierce your eardrum

Fly away, fly

~ ~ ~

They are at times in my outstretched palms

and again at midnight they stick to the blind window panes

all by the way from childhood to this telephone booth

in the hospital wing of the madhouse

They call on the telephone: let us into your eyes

let us into your lungs

let us into your veins

let us into your glands

let us into you

Static in the lines

They naturally are not anything but they are also not stars

they twinkle though they barely exist usually around

zero-zero

(when the senses change shifts)

They flicker on the restless boundary between

semi-darkness and…

Static in the lines

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