I recognized her little body. I’d screamed to Bud, who pulled me through the wind. Like the others, she was sleeping. As we reached her, the stand holding a bag of clear solution that seeped through the tube into her body blew over on top of her.
Bud knocked it off and swept her up into his arms. I was sobbing at that point, kissing her face, telling her that Mommy and Daddy were here. That we’d found her.
But she didn’t respond, as if we were holding a rag doll. I know I must have screamed: what was wrong with her? The needle attached to the tube had been yanked out of her arm, and she was bleeding.
Bud just grabbed me and we headed for the door. We knew we had to just get out.
The door flew open, and Dr. Martin stumbled in. I saw for a moment his eyes open in alarm at seeing Lynn limp in our arms.
The three of us ran back out into the hall. I started to ask about what happened to the soldiers when a gust of wind hit us so strong that we fell against the wall.
It was like the soldiers were leaves tossed in the air. They came from an intersecting hallway, thrown with such intensity that even in the howling winds, I could hear their bodies crash against the floor.
We couldn’t stop, though. The only way to the door was to run across that same intersection. Bud gave me Lynn, motioning us to stay behind him. Dr. Martin was actually taller and bigger, but not as strong.
We intended to run and not stop, but we all made the mistake of looking down the other hallway as we moved past.
That’s when we saw her. The woman, at the end of the hall, dressed in the same white medical gown as Lynn. Even with the debris and rain flying around her, I could tell her eyes were closed, her hands on her ears as if they were in terrible pain, blood seeping through her fingers. The soldiers who attempted to reach her were tossed away by the winds like paper dolls.
She opened her eyes.
Somehow, the wind, the chaos, was coming from her.
I heard a massive crack, and the walls themselves started to peel away; chunks of concrete and wood barreling in all directions, including ours.
As we ran, the floor itself began to crumble. I saw Bud reach the door and pull, but the winds were so hard pushing against us that it wouldn’t budge. He cried out in anger and fear, and forced it open.
For a brief moment, I could see outside. The winds and rain were blowing, but paled in comparison to the storm raging around us.
When the slivers of wood sliced into my legs, I had one singular thought. And I knew I alone had it.
Do not misunderstand me: fathers are the pillars of all families. They are the strength, they are the foundation. But it is the mother who is always one step ahead, who sees what must be done before all else.
I screamed at Bud to go out and hold the door, thrusting Lynn at Dr. Martin, ordering him to take her outside. They’d both obliged, just as a block of concrete slammed into me. I could feel my back break.
I’ll never forget Bud’s face as he turned back for me, trying to hold the door open. I was able to scream for him to run, and then immediately slam it shut, preventing everything crashing and barreling into my body from following them out the door.
I’d wanted to save them. I know now it was a futile effort.
My hand aches, but I’ve done it. I am going to rest. If I’m fortunate, I won’t wake up.
Nov 12, 1951
Lynn,
I have not written as I vowed to do. I have changed my mind.
I do not want you haunted by what happened to us in Mexico, to your mother. I am determined for you to know her as I did, and I speak of her every day. We even set her picture beside us at breakfast, lunch and dinner. You ask if Mama would have liked the food we were eating, the pumpkins in the field? Yes, I tell you. Yes, she would.
I will keep these letters, in case I change my mind. But for now, I want you to live a lie, and that hurts to even write those words. A normal life is what I want for you. And when you are grown, I want you far from these trees, never to return.
Dec 10, 1951
BUD STANSON
1 EVELYN ROAD
NASHVILLE, TN 37205
REX MARTIN
ST. LOUIS UNIVERSITY
1 NORTH GRAND BOULEVARD
ST. LOUIS, MISSOURI 63103
Bud,
I realize that I’ve also been a complete narcissist and have failed to inquire about Lynn. I hope that her memory condition has changed. I knew she’d been heavily drugged; it was obvious by her lethargic state as we’d made that awful flight back to the states. But she was alive, and didn’t appear to have any physical injuries, and that alone gave me hope. How the three of us escaped from the collapsed building without injuries astounds me.
I still have nightmares about it: Freda slamming the door, you running to open it, the entire structure vibrating. It was if a bomb had gone off inside and everything was about to blow.
I know you think it was cowardly of me to run. But I didn’t want to die. I didn’t want your daughter to die. I will be brutally honest with you: I couldn’t risk losing her. I’m a terrible son of a bitch, I know, that my first thought wasn’t of Freda’s sacrifice. It was that this child has to get out of there.
I didn’t even look to see if you were behind me. But even now, in your hatred for me, you know what Lynn represents: the only proof of extraterrestrial abductions. I never even stopped running when I heard the building collapse. It was remarkable what happened next: the sky almost immediately began to clear. The sun peeked through the clouds.
I could hear you screaming my name. I know it was the only reason you would leave Freda. You would have chased me to hell and back. Even in her lifeless form, she was your daughter. To both of us, she was the most valuable thing on earth.
Has she exhibited any physical abnormalities at all?
I know Rick, my doctor friend, gave her a clean bill of health, except for, obviously, the memory loss. Thank God he saw us when we’d shown up at his home when we’d landed. If we hadn’t been friends since the second grade, he probably would have reported us to child services. Two men, unshowered, unshaved, obviously exhausted, showing up at a doctor’s home on a Sunday with a limp child.
I can only imagine if my heart broke when she woke and didn’t recognize you, that yours must have shattered.
Damn this cough, keeps me from writing. Please, Bud, write back and let me know about Lynn.
Dec 15, 1951
REX MARTIN
ST. LOUIS UNIVERSITY
1 NORTH GRAND BOULEVARD
ST. LOUIS, MISSOURI 63103
Rex,
I don’t want to ever see you again. Your letter is just another reminder of why I will not provide you any updates on my daughter, as she is none of your business.
Do you even realize what you did? Running away from that building with my wife trapped inside? I couldn’t even try to look for her. I had to go after you. And you kept saying Freda’s dead, Bud. She’s dead. She couldn’t have survived that collapse.
I think you knew. I think you knew the danger in Mexico. And you used us to go down there. You said you still don’t understand how that woman was causing the storm inside that building, but I don’t believe you. We were your way in. You’d been looking for a family just like ours.