"I'm just glad you're okay." Pete grinned and pulled a roll of papers from his back pocket. "You can borrow my notes during lunch if you want."
"Thanks." I blushed. "I'll need them."
"More painting, less talking," Mr. Barlow bellowed.
"Later." Pete winked and left the room.
"He is so going to ask you to the Christmas dance," April whispered.
"No way." I looked at my drawing and couldn't remember what I'd planned on doing next. "Pete doesn't like me like that."
"What, are you blind?" April said a little too loudly.
Mr. Barlow glared at her.
"Pastels are far superior to charcoals," April said, trying to cover. She glanced at the teacher's desk and then whispered, "Pete is so into you. Lynn said that Misty told her that Brett Johnson said that Pete thinks you're hot and he wants to ask you out." "Really?"
"Really." She waggled her eyebrows. "You are so lucky."
"Yeah. Lucky." I looked down at Pete's notes and then at the drawing. I knew I should feel lucky. Pete was what April called a "triple threat"--a cute senior, a hockey player, and a total brain. Not to mention, one of Jude's best friends. But it seemed strange to feel lucky that someone liked me. Luck shouldn't have anything to do with it.
Twenty minutes later, there was still no sign of Daniel when Barlow got up from his desk and stood in front of the class. He stroked his handlebar mustache, which draped over his jowls. "I think we'll try something new today," he said. "Something to challenge your minds along with your creativity. How about we have a pop quiz on
Edward Hopper?"
There was a collective groan from the class.
"Oh, crap," April whispered.
"Oh, crap," I whispered back.
THE LUNCH BREAK
Mr. Barlow cleared his throat over and over again in irritation as he handed back our quizzes. He returned to his sculpture and twisted a wire around an empty Pepsi can with melodramatic jerks. When the lunch bell rang, he cleared out of the art room with the rest of the students.
April and I stayed behind. AP art was a two-period class with a lunch break in the middle. But April and I were the only juniors, so we usually kept working through lunch to show Mr. Barlow that we were serious enough to be in his advanced class--except on the days Jude invited us to eat with him and his friends at the Rose Crest Cafe (the off-campus lunchtime haven for popular seniors).
April sat next to me, perfecting the shading on her pastel drawing of roller skates while I tried to study Pete's notes. But the more I tried to concentrate, the more the words on the pages jumbled into an unintelligible mess. That sinking feeling I had before seemed to churn inside me until it turned into trembling anger and I couldn't think about anything else. How dare Daniel show up after all this time and then disappear again. No explanations. No apologies. No closure.
I knew there could be a million reasons why he hadn't shown up today, but I was sick and tired of excusing his behavior. Like when he'd steal food out of my sack lunches, or whenever his teasing got too intense, or when he'd forget to return my art supplies--Pd chalk it up to all the stuff he'd been through in his life and let it slide.
But I wouldn't excuse how he'd crept back into my life just long enough to cause me to disappoint my parents, upset my brother, ditch out on Pete, bomb a quiz, and potentially fail my chemistry test. I felt so stupid, wasting my time thinking about him, and now he didn't even have the decency to show up. Now I really wanted to see him one more time. Just long enough to tell him off ... or smack his face ... or something worse.
Daniel's tree drawing sat on the table taunting me. I hated the way it seemed so perfect, with its smooth, entangled lines that I never could have drawn myself. I picked up the drawing, marched over to the waste-basket, and unceremoniously chucked it in.
"Good riddance," I said to the trash can.
"Okay, now I know you're insane," April said. "That's due in like an hour."
"It wasn't mine anyway, not anymore."
Chapter Three
Tabula Rasa
WHAT HAPPENED AFTER LUNCH
When art class started up again, I pulled out a crisp new piece of drawing paper and shot off a sketch of my favorite childhood teddy bear. It wasn't exactly up to par with my usual work--actually it wasn't up to par with my usual work when I was nine--but Mr. Barlow had a "no tolerance" policy for not finishing an assignment. I figured shoddy work was better than no work, and slipped it under the stack of drawings on Barlow's desk before leaving class.
April hung back to discuss her portfolio, and I ambled off to my chemistry test with only slightly less foreboding. My stomach felt better once I decided to forget I'd ever seen Daniel, but as far as the test? Well, my mother was not going to be happy. I'd managed to go over Pete's notes a couple of times before lunch ended, but even if
I'd had a full night of studying, I'd be lucky to pull a C. I'm not a bad student. I have a 3.8 GPA, but I'm most definitely right-brained.
AP chem was my mom's idea. Dad loved it when I worked on my paintings at the kitchen counter. He said it reminded him of his days in art school before he decided to join the clergy like his father and grandfather. But Mom wanted me to "keep my options open"--which meant she wanted me to become a psychologist, or a nurse like her.
I slipped into my seat next to Pete Bradshaw and drew in a deep breath, preparing to let out a languid sigh to prove I wasn't nervous, and was caught off guard by the clean, spicy scent of my chem lab partner. Pete had gym fifth period, and his hair was still damp from the shower. I'd noticed his scent of citrusy soap and fresh-applied deodorant before, but today it filled my senses and made me want to scoot closer to him. I guess it had something to do with what April said about his liking me.
I fumbled around in my backpack for my notebook and dropped my pen three times before I got it to rest neatly at the top of my desk.
"Feeling a little weak in the knees?" Pete asked.
"What?" My chem book took a dive off the desk.
"Test jitters?" Pete retrieved my book. "Everybody's freaking. You should've seen it, Brett Johnson only snarfed down half a supreme pizza for lunch. I thought that was bad, but you look like you've just seen the Markham Street Monster."
I winced. That joke had never been funny to me. I snatched the book out of his hands, "I'm not nervous at all." I drew in another deep breath and forced out a long, calm sigh.
Pete flashed me one of his "triple threat" smiles, and my book hit the floor again. I chuckled as he picked it up, and I felt too warm in my sweater when he handed it back.
Why am I such a dumb girl? I mean, seriously, get it together.
There was only one other boy who could make me feel stupid like that, but since I wasn't going to give him a second thought, I turned my focus to Mrs. Howell as she passed out her thick stack of tests.
"Hey, Brett and I are going bowling at Pullman's after practice." Pete leaned in with his lingering scent. "You should come."
"Me?" I glanced up at Mrs.. Howell as she put an upside-down test in front of me.