I went up the steps and stood on the porch for a moment. I tried to peer inside, but there was a screen on the door and I couldn’t see properly. I crooked my index finger and rapped it on the frame of the door.
My heart was thumping.
After a moment, the door opened and standing before me was a spindly little girl of about seven or eight. She had long, dark, straight hair and deep brown eyes. I must have shown how surprised I was because she furrowed her eyebrows and said, officiously, ‘Yes?’
‘You must be Ally,’ I said.
She considered this for a moment and then decided to nod in the affirmative. She was wearing a red cardigan and pink leggings.
‘I’m an old friend of your mother’s.’
This didn’t seem to impress her much.
‘My name’s Eddie.’
‘You want to speak to my mom?’
I detected a slight impatience in her tone and in her body language, as though she wanted me to get on with it – to get to the point so she could get back to whatever it was she’d been doing before I came along to disturb her.
From somewhere in the background a voice said, ‘Ally, who is it?’
It was Melissa. All of a sudden this began to seem a lot more difficult than I had anticipated.
‘It’s a… man.’
‘I’ll…’ – there was a pause here, pregnant with momentary indecision, and maybe even a hint of exasperation – ‘… I’ll be there in a minute. Tell him… to wait.’
Ally said, informatively, ‘My mom’s washing my kid sister’s hair.’
‘That’d be Jane, wouldn’t it?’
‘Yeah. She can’t do it herself. And it takes ages.’
‘Why’s that?’
‘Because it’s so long.’
‘Longer than yours?’
She made a puffing sound, as if to say, Whoa, mister, you’re nowhere near as informed as you think.
‘Well, listen,’ I said, ‘you’re obviously all busy here.’ I paused, and looked directly into her eyes, experiencing something like vertigo, but with both feet on the ground. ‘So why don’t I just leave this with you… and you can tell your mom I was here… and that I left this for her.’
Being careful not to seem in any way pushy, I leant forward a little and placed the briefcase on a rug just inside the door.
She didn’t move as I did this. Then she looked down suspiciously at the briefcase. I took a couple of steps back. She glanced up at me again.
‘My mom said you were to wait.’
‘I know, but I’m in a hurry.’
She assessed this for plausibility, intrigued now – whatever she’d been doing before I arrived apparently forgotten.
‘Ally, I’m coming.’
The urgency in Melissa’s voice cut into me and I knew I had to get away before she appeared. I’d been going to tell her not to open the suitcase until I left. Now it would make no difference.
I backed down the steps.
‘I’ve got to go, Ally. It was nice meeting you.’
She furrowed her eyebrows again, altogether unsure about what was going on now. In a small voice, she said, ‘My mom’s just coming.’
Stepping backwards, I said, ‘Will you remember my name?’
In an even smaller voice, she said, ‘Eddie.’
I smiled.
I could have stared at her for hours, but I had to break away and turn around. I got back to the car and climbed in. I started the engine.
Out of the corner of my eye, as I was pulling away, I was aware of a sudden movement at the door of the house. When I got to the first junction, and was about to turn left, I glanced into my rearview mirror. Melissa and Ally were standing – holding hands – in the middle of the street.
I made my way over towards Newburgh and then got back on to Interstate 87, heading north. I decided I would keep going until I got to Albany and then take it from there.
It was early afternoon as I arrived in the outskirts of the city. I drove around for a bit and then parked in a side street off Central Avenue. I sat in the car for twenty minutes, staring at the wheel.
But take what from here?
I got out and started walking, briskly, and not in any particular direction. As I moved, I replayed the scene with Ally over and over in my mind. Her resemblance to Melissa was uncanny and the whole experience had left me stunned – blinking at infinity, shuddering in sudden, unexpected spasms of benevolence and hope.
But as I moved, too, I could feel Gennady’s silver pillbox lodged in the pocket of my jeans. I knew that in a few hours’ time I would be opening the box, taking out the two tablets that were left in it, and swallowing them – a simple, banal sequence of movements that was all too finite and bereft of anything even approaching benevolence or hope.
I wandered on, aimlessly.
After about half an hour, I decided there wasn’t much point in going any further. It looked like it was going to start raining soon, and in any case the unfamiliarity of these busy commercial streets was becoming a little disconcerting.
I stopped and turned around to go back towards the car. But as I did so I found myself staring into the window of an electrical goods store in which there were fifteen TV sets banked up in three rows of five. On each screen, staring directly out at me, was the face of Donatella Alvarez. It was a headshot. She was leaning forward slightly, her eyes big and deep, her long, brown hair casting one side of her face into shadow.
I stood frozen on the sidewalk, people passing behind and around me. Then I stepped a little closer to the window and watched as the news report continued with exterior shots of Actium and the Clifden Hotel. I moved along the window and stepped inside the door so I’d be able to hear the report as well as see it – but the sound was quite low and with the traffic passing behind me all I could hear were fragments. Over a shot of Forty-eighth Street, I thought I caught something about ‘… a statement issued this afternoon by Carl Van Loon’. Then, ‘… a re-appraisal of the deal in the light of negative publicity’. And then – I was really straining to hear now – something like ‘… share prices adversely affected’.
I looked around in exasperation.
There was another display of TV sets tuned to the same channel in an alcove at the back. I quickly walked the length of the store, past VCRs and DVDs and stereos and ghetto-blasters, and just as I got to the other end, they were cutting to a piece of footage from the MCL-Abraxas press conference, the one with the camera gliding across the top of the room from left to right. I waited, my stomach jumping, and then after a couple of seconds… there I was, on the screen, in my suit, gliding from right to left, staring out. There was a curiously vacant look on my face that I didn’t remember from the first time I’d seen this…
I listened to the report, but was barely able to take it in. Someone at Actium that night – probably the bald art critic with the salt-and-pepper beard – had seen the footage on the news, and it had jogged his memory. He’d recognized me as Thomas Cole, the guy who’d been sitting opposite Donatella Alvarez at the restaurant, and who’d later been speaking to her at the reception.
After the press-conference footage, they cut to a reporter standing in front of the Celestial Building. ‘Following up this new lead,’ the reporter said, ‘police then came to Eddie Spinola’s apartment here on the West Side to question him, but what they found instead was the body of an unidentified man, believed to be a member of a Russian crime organization. This man had apparently been stabbed to death, which means that Eddie Spinola…’ – they cut back to the footage from the press conference – ‘… is now wanted by police for questioning in relation to two high-profile murders…’