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“Soon after that, the liberal lost his job again, let’s say for the sake of simplicity it was for crooked arms dealing. Two days later he appeared at the bakery, all muffled up, said there was a big conspiracy behind it, he’d soon be rehabilitated, for a very short time he just needed… My father looked right through him. ‘Next, please,’ he said, and turned to his customers.

“Since that day my father hasn’t wanted to know any more about any political parties.”

223. Paradise

General Kabdan, who overthrew President Mutamiran at the end of 1964, hated the fundamentalists and had them tortured and killed. Murtada, a nineteen-year-old Islamist, lobbed a hand grenade at General Kabdan, but it went off only after some delay. The President was already at a safe distance when it exploded, so the detonation threw him to the ground, but apart from the weight of his muscular bodyguard on top of him he suffered no harm. The would-be assassin, however, was hit by a splinter in his forehead and fell unconscious. When he returned to his senses he was lying in a white bed and four women, also in white, were looking at him. He thought he was in Paradise and the women were the houris, the promised nymphs with their immortal charms whom, so his sheikh had told him, he could deflower daily, and as soon as his prick came out of them their virginity would be restored.

“You made it, Murtada,” he told himself loudly, because his hearing was still affected by the detonation. “It was all true.” And just to increase his happiness yet more he asked if the women would take him out and show him the rivers flowing with milk and honey, because all these years, somehow, it hadn’t been quite clear to him exactly how honey could flow like water, or why the milk didn’t turn sour in the sun. The houris looked at each other and chuckled. Their laughter sounded like Paradise too.

“What milk?” asked the eldest nymph. “What honey?” She wasn’t twenty-five yet, and she had sensuous lips and full breasts. Murtada longed to lay his head between them.

“There’s a stream somewhere around here,” she said, “but it’s dried up now in summer, and the garbage in it stinks to high heaven.” That sounded to him very earthly.

“You’re in Mazzeh military hospital,” said the second nymph. He suddenly noticed the iron bars over the window. And for the first time Murtada understood that there are worse things in life than death.

BOOK OF GROWTH IV

A dictator lives not on earth but in his head.

DAMASCUS, 1965 — 1968

224. The Problem of Brothers

In the middle of July 1965, a month after General Baidan’s perfidious coup against his own party comrade President Kabdan, Josef and Farid received the diplomas qualifying them to work as teachers. They had both had to wait two years longer than their former fellow students, Farid because of his imprisonment, Josef simply because he was in no hurry to qualify. He was busy with a thousand other activities, was better known in the university than many of the lecturers, and spent more time in the cafeteria than the lecture hall. He could afford this delay because, like Farid, he hadn’t had to do two years’ military service; a man who was an only child wasn’t drafted into the army, and instead his family just had to pay a fee amounting to a private soldier’s pay for two years’ service, which didn’t come to much. In making this regulation the state had acknowledged the wish of clans to protect their sons and heirs. As women, Josef’s sisters didn’t count, because once they married they would be contributing only to their husbands’ bloodlines.

A little while before receiving his diploma, Josef had met a woman who interested him. It was the first time he had felt any such attraction in the five years since the sad story of Fatima. Nadia Markos was fascinated by him, for he had something to say on any subject, and what he said was often very cogent.

Her parents were from an old family of Damascene craftsmen who set great store by tradition. That irritated Josef, but Nadia thought the world of her mother and father. And before a month was up she told him they’d like him to be engaged to her, or he couldn’t meet her any more. Josef laughed at that, since he could move about the university as he liked with Nadia every day, and he called this threat a paper tiger.

But two weeks later Nadia told him the bad news: three rich cousins had asked for her hand in marriage. She’d close her eyes to their limousines and their villas, but Josef must act fast and get engaged to her, or she wouldn’t be able to give her parents any reason for turning her cousins down. And from now on, she said, she wouldn’t be allowed to go to the university except in her youngest brother’s company.

He half-heartedly agreed, and soon he was engaged. But he had insisted that they didn’t want a big party. They’d keep it to the two families and Farid, whom he described as “my brother by other parents”.

Farid himself thought the Markos family tedious, but it was a good party. The only person who seemed out of place was Josef. He somehow looked all wrong in his new suit, and he was so agitated that he couldn’t even propose a toast well. However, his parents felt emotional, and they liked his fiancée.

Nadia had four older brothers and one younger brother, whose name was Girgi. Girgi was just fifteen and dreamed of nothing but driving a Mercedes by the time he was twenty. That was the one idea in his head. “His mouth is a car exhaust,” said Josef of his future brother-in-law, and he wasn’t exaggerating. Girgi’s world was as simple and neatly arranged as his interests. Those who liked cars were his friends, those who did not were his enemies.

Since Josef hated cars, Girgi was bent on finding an opportunity to show his parents that this fiancé of Nadia’s was bad news in more ways than just his unprepossessing outward appearance. At the time engaged couples were never allowed out unsupervised, and this tradition gave him more power than his head could cope with. Since Nadia’s elder brothers were already married and fully occupied with their own affairs, only the youngest, who was also his mother’s favourite, was available for supervision duty, and he took advantage of it. Farid’s advice to Josef to use presents and invitations to get around this guardian of virtue, or persuade him to turn a blind eye, would have worked in ninety-nine percent of such cases. Girgi was the hundredth.

Josef desperately tried to shake off the shadow sticking to him all the time, but in the end it was Nadia who showed him the only way to do it. “I’m afraid there’s nothing for it,” she sighed, when Girgi had kept them from exchanging a kiss yet again. “We’ll have to get married.”

Next day Josef called Farid. “I need you,” was all he said, in a voice that cracked. When his friend rang the doorbell a little later, Madeleine let him in with visible relief. “You’re a loyal soul, like your mother. Josef is being impossible, shouting at everyone, even me. I don’t know what’s the matter with him. Please tell him he’ll never find another such well-bred, intelligent wife,” she said, patting his cheek and going to the kitchen. Soon she brought them coffee.

Josef was ranting, and Farid listened. Arab society, he raged, hadn’t moved on since the time of the Mongol hordes. Not only had it been mummifying its ancient customs for generations, it taught you to lie and deceive as well. Just as if cities had never been built but we were still living in the desert, the clan was everything and the individual nothing.