Bolitho had intended to make light of it, but knew that this was far too important to the youthful captain who had been sitting across the table from him. It was something very private, like that other secret which was rarely out of Bolitho's thoughts. They had shared so much, but the time to share that had not yet come.
Then Adam had said quietly, "Captain Keen is a very lucky man."
Adam had insisted that the sleeping cabin should be for his guest, while he had been content to take his rest in the stern cabin. That caused Bolitho to recall another incident on this passage, which for the most part had been uneventful. On the day after the ship's company had spread the lighter canvas for the final run in toward the Western Approaches he had found Adam sitting in the stern cabin at his table, an empty goblet in his fingers.
Bolitho had seen his distress, the disgust he obviously felt for himself, and had asked, "What ails you, Adam? Tell me what you will I shall do all I can."
Adam had looked up at him and replied, "It is my birthday today, Uncle." He had said it in such a steady, level tone that only Bolitho would have known he had been drinking, and not merely the one goblet. It was something Adam would have punished any of his officers for. He loved this ship, the command he had always wanted.
"I know." Bolitho had sat down, afraid that the sight of his vice-admiral's gold lace would drop a barrier between them.
"I am twenty-nine." He had glanced around the cabin, his eyes suddenly wistful.
"Beyond Anemone, I have nothing." He had swung round as his cabin servant had entered. "What the hell do you want, man?"
That too had been unusual, and it had helped to bring him to his senses.
"I am sorry. That was unforgivable when you cannot answer me back for my intolerance." The servant backed away, hurt and confused.
Then there was another interruption, when the second lieutenant had entered and informed his captain that it was all but time to call both watches and change tack.
Adam had acknowledged him with equal formality. "I shall come up directly, Mr. Martin." As the door had closed he had reached for his hat, and hesitated before adding, "On my birthday last year I was kissed by a lady."
Bolitho had asked, "Do I know her?"
Adam had already been listening to the trill of calls, the stampede of feet across the deck. "I think not, Uncle. I don't think anyone does." Then he had gone.
Bolitho made up his mind, and disdaining a boat cloak he found his way to the quarterdeck.
The smells, the creak of spars and timbers, the stress and strain of all the miles of standing and running rigging it made him feel very young again. He seemed to hear the admiral's response to his plea for a ship, any ship, when the war had broken out with Revolutionary France.
Still weakened by the fever which had cut him down in the Great South Sea, and with every officer clamouring for re-employment or a command, he had almost begged.
I am a frigate captain…
The admiral's cold answer, "Were a frigate captain, Bolitho, " had wounded him for a long, long time.
He smiled, the strain dropping away from his face. Instead of a frigate they had given him Hyperion. "The Old Hyperion', about which they still yarned and even sang in the taverns and wherever sailors gathered.
He heard voices and thought he could smell coffee. That would be his mole-like servant Ozzard. Ozzard never seemed surprised by anything, although it was hard to read the man's thoughts. Was he glad to be going home? Or did he even care?
He stepped on to the wet planking and glanced at the dark figures around him. The midshipman of the watch was already whispering to the sailing master that their illustrious passenger was up and about.
Adam stood with Peter Sargeant, his senior lieutenant. Sargeant was probably already ear-marked for his own command, Bolitho thought. Adam would miss him if that happened.
Ozzard moved from the shadows with his coffee pot and presented him with a steaming mug. "All fresh, Sir Richard, but almost the end of it."
Adam crossed to his side, his dark hair ruffling in the damp wind.
"Rosemullion Head on the larboard bow, Sir Richard." The formality was not lost on either of them. "Mr. Partridge assures me we shall be off Pendennis Point by four bells of the forenoon watch."
Bolitho nodded and sipped the scalding coffee, recalling the shop to which Catherine had taken him in London 's St. James's Street. She had bought fine coffee and good wines, cheeses, and other small luxuries he would never have troubled about. He watched the sunlight breaking across the rocky coast and the rolling green hills beyond. Home.
"That was a fast passage, Captain. A pity you cannot take time to come to the house."
Adam did not look at him. "I shall cherish that in my mind, sir."
The first lieutenant touched his hat. "I shall hoist our number when we are within range, sir." He was speaking to his captain, but Bolitho knew it was directed at himself.
He said quietly, "I think she will already know, Mr. Sargeant."
He saw Allday's powerful shape by one of the gangways. As if he could feel his gaze like something physical the big coxswain turned and glanced up at him, his tanned face breaking into a lazy grin.
We are here, old friend. Like all those other times. Still together.
"Stand by to wear ship! Man the braces! Hands aloft an' loose t'gallants! "
Bolitho stood by the rail. Anemone would make a perfect picture as she altered course.
For a perfect landfall.
Captain Adam Bolitho stood at the weather side of the quarterdeck, arms folded, content to leave the final approach to his first lieutenant. He watched the crouching walls and tower of Pendennis Castle as it seemed to swing very slowly through the black crisscross of tarred rigging as if snared in a net.
Many glasses would be trained from the old castle, which with the fort and battery on the opposite headland had guarded the harbour entrance for centuries. Beyond Pendennis and hidden in the green hillside was the old grey Bolitho house with all its memories, of its sons who had left this very port never to return.
He tried not to think of the night when Zenoria had found him drinking brandy, his eyes burning with tears for his uncle who had been reported lost in the transport Golden Plover. Was that only last year?
Bolitho had told him Zenoria was with child. He had dared not consider that it might be his. Only Catherine had been near to discovering the truth, and Bolitho's concern for Adam himself had almost made him confess what he had done. But if he feared the consequences, Adam feared what the truth might do to his uncle far more.
He saw Allday's massive bulk by the larboard guns, lost in his own thoughts; wondering perhaps about the woman he had saved from robbery and worse and who now owned the little inn, the Stag over at Fallowfield. Home is the sailor.
Old Partridge's voice intruded.
"Let 'er fall off a point! "
"Nor' by East, sir! Steady she goes! "
The picture of the land shifted again as the frigate pointed her long tapering jib-boom towards the entrance and Carrick Roads.
A fine ship's company. It had taken patience and a few knocks, but Adam was proud of them. His blood still ran like ice-water when he recalled how Anemone had been lured into the range of a shore battery firing heated shot by a vessel carrying French soldiers. It had been as near as that. He glanced along the clean length of the maindeck where the men now waited at the braces and halliards for the run up to the anchorage. Heated shot would have turned his beloved Anemone into a pillar of fire: the sun-dried sails and tarred rigging, the stores of powder and shot would have been gone in minutes. His jaw tightened as he recalled how they had gone about to pull out of range, but not before he had poured a devastating broadside into the enemy's bait and given her the terrible end intended for his own ship.