There was a momentary quiet in the room.
“Are you safe?” asked Sandy in a no-nonsense, corporate-attorney voice.
“I think so,” Moth answered. “How can anyone tell?”
He could have meant anything, from a killer stalking him, to a legal system ready to pounce and prosecute, to the constant desire to drink. None of them could have actually answered this question. Moth remained standing in front of the group.
Sandy tried again. “Timothy. Are you safe?”
Heavy emphasis on the word safe-as if all the membership were speaking this single word in unison.
“Yes,” he replied. He could have said: “There’s no one left that’s trying to kill me, except maybe me.” He did not.
“Then I have an idea,” said Fred the engineer. “Let’s call this Day One.”
Moth smiled. This made a great deal of sense to him. He hoped it was true. What he truly hoped for, and what he believed his uncle had tried to teach him, was to be a fighter.
“Hello,” he repeated. “My name is Timothy and I have one day sober.”
“Hi, Timothy,” the entire group responded.
When she finally arrived home, her mother was at the piano, doing scales before her next student arrived. Often this repeated practice irritated Andy Candy, but this time the notes seemed light and melodic. Up and down, sharps and flats. The necessary routine of a music teacher. The same was true of the scrambling, scuffling, tail-wagging response she received from the dogs. Expected. Happy. Musical.
Her mother looked up-afraid to probe, afraid to not ask, completely unsure what to say or do, with absolutely no idea whatsoever what her daughter had been through. The mother wondered whether she would ever know. She doubted it.
“Are you okay?” A bland question.
“I’m okay,” Andy Candy responded. She thought this might be the truth or it might be a lie. She’d find out soon enough.
“Is there something we should talk about?”
Everything? Nothing? Murder and death? Survival?
“Is Moth…”
Love? Loyalty?
“He’s fine,” she said. “We’re fine.”
But changed. She did not say this out loud.
“Back together?”
“Sort of,” Andy said.
She headed toward the shower, hoping that her scraggly, almost weather-beaten appearance hadn’t shocked her mother too much. Over her shoulder, she called out: “I think I’m going to go back to school.” She knew this would make her mother happy.
Fuck the date-rapist, she thought. Fuck him and his evil. It will catch up to him eventually. Maybe not this week or next year. But someday it will. It will all balance out. Karma is a bitch. She was absolutely sure of this, but didn’t consider who it was that had taught this lesson to her.
“I need to finish up that last semester,” she added, tossing the words toward her mother, back over her shoulder. The piano. The dogs. Her home. Familiar stuffed animals on her bed, framed family pictures on the walls. Everything was so normal it almost overwhelmed her. “Get my degree. Got to move on,” she said quietly, not sure whether her mother heard her or not.
And, she realized, she had much left to learn in subjects far different from what she had studied over the past days.
Four weeks after death:
Susan, happily back at her job, stared down at the computer printout of her picture and bio. There was a bloodstain in the corner. She had the killer’s computer next to her own, on her desk at the state attorney’s office, but she had yet to open it, boot it up, and even make an attempt to see what it contained. She didn’t want to know; her picture told her everything she needed to. She picked up her telephone, dialed a number. It was the Monroe County Sheriff’s Office. A couple of quick electronic transfers and she reached a supervisor in the Homicide Department.
“Hey,” she said, after identifying herself-giving her name and title with unequivocal toughness. “Are you making any progress on that killing on Angela Street the other week?”
“Not much, Counselor.” She could hear the resignation in the supervisor’s voice. “I mean clearly there was a helluva fight. Things were knocked around pretty good. The guy didn’t want to get shot, that’s for sure. You know, usually these drug gang murders are, well, I guess you’d have to call them ‘cleaner’-if you know what I mean. Usually find the dead dude trussed up with blowtorch marks on his genitals, that sort of thing. Or floating in the mangrove trees where he’s been dumped. Not too often do they get a chance to get a few licks in. But until we get some suspect in mind… well, not too much to go on. And apparently the dead guy, well, there’s just not too much on him anywhere. Sort of a cipher. He did a pretty good job of concealing who he was. Maybe you can help? You know something?”
Susan Terry knew a great deal. But what she answered was: “No, not really. The guy’s name came up in another narcotics investigation-you know, peripherally. I was just checking to see if there’s any connection.”
“You think?” the cop asked.
“Maybe. Maybe not. Probably just another wild-goose chase. Don’t waste time. If I hear anything else, I’ll be sure to call.”
“Thanks.” The detective hung up.
He probably didn’t recognize that lie, she thought. Susan went to the paper shredder in her office. She carefully fed the bloody computer printout into it.
Six months after death:
Susan had waited diligently. She’d known it was only a matter of time before the right case with the right evidence came up in the courtroom worlds adjacent to the prosecutor’s office. It was a convenience store robbery that had gone terribly wrong. A clerk was dead. Two suspects arrested within minutes. Facing life in prison. Not a good trade for the $323 they tried to steal.
The guilty pleas were taken in open court. Susan sat two rows back. Family members-both the victim’s and the robbers’-sobbed behind her. The judge accepted the plea, banged her gavel, and that was it.
Susan paused until the room was clear, with only the judge’s clerk lingering behind. Susan approached her.
“Hi, Miss Terry,” the clerk said. She was an older woman and she had seen just about everything in her courthouse years. “What brings you here? Nothing special about this case.”
Susan shook her head. “No, you’re right about that. It’s just I wanted to check some of the evidence out. I have this feeling that these guys might have done another robbery or two, ones I’ve got on my desk. Think I can look at that?”
She pointed to an evidence box on the clerk’s desk.
The clerk shrugged. “Have at it. It’s all going to storage anyway.”
While the clerk busied herself with paperwork, Susan began to paw through the box. What she wanted was on top, encased in a sealed bag, with the court case number on it in thick black ink. A.357 Magnum revolver-exactly like the one Moth had given her. The only difference was the serial number on each weapon. Susan had placed Moth’s weapon in a similar plastic container, with the identical court case number. As soon as the clerk was distracted enough to turn aside, Susan performed a little sleight of hand, removing the convenience store murder weapon from the box and placing Moth’s gun inside. She hid the other gun in her briefcase. Switch complete.
“Thanks,” she said to the clerk. “I got what I need.”
The gun, she knew, was the only real piece of hard evidence that could tie Moth to the killing on Angela Street. She never underestimated ballistics scientists.
She would keep the convenience store gun for six months, then swap it out with yet another, in another case. One more switch-that would effectively destroy any connections that even the most dogged investigator could follow.