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Ali  lifted  it  from  Kokie's  dusty  palm  and  admired  the  geometric  designs  formed  by red, white, and green beads. 'Here,' she said,  setting  it  back  in  Kokie's  grip,  'you  put  it on me.'

Ali bent and held her hair up so that the leper girl could get  the  necklace  placed.  She copied Kokie's solemnity.  This  was  no  tourist  trinket.  It  was  part  of  Kokie's  beliefs.  If anyone knew about evil, it had to be this poor child.

With  the  spread  of  post-apartheid  chaos  and  a  surge  in  AIDS  brought  south  by Zimbabweans  and  Mozambiquans  imported  to  work  the  gold  and  diamond  mines, hysteria  had  been  unleashed  among  the  poor.  Old  superstitions  had  risen  up.  It  was no longer news that  sexual  organs  and  fingers  and  ears  –  even  handfuls  of  human  fat

– were  being stolen from  morgues  and  used  for  fetishes,  or  that  corpses  lay  unburied because family members  were  convinced the bodies would come to life again.

The  worst  of  it  by  far  was  the  witch-hunting.  People  said  that  evil  was  coming  up from the earth. So far  as  Ali  was  concerned,  people  had  been  saying  such  things  since the  beginning  of  man.  Every  generation  had  its  terrors.  She  was  convinced  this  one had  been  started  by  diamond  miners  seeking  to  deflect  public  hatred  away  from themselves.  They  spoke of reaching  depths  in  the  earth  where  strange  beings  lurked. The  populace had  turned  this  nonsense  into  a  campaign  against  witches.  Hundreds  of innocent  people  had  been  necklaced,  macheted,  or  stoned   by   superstitious   mobs throughout the country.

'Have you taken  your  vitamin pill?' Ali asked.

'Oh, ya'as.'

'And you will continue taking your  vitamins after  I'm gone?'

Kokie's  eyes  shifted  to  the  dirt  floor.  Ali's  departure  was  a  terrible  pain  for  her. Again,  Ali  could  not  believe  the  suddenness  of  what  was  happening.  It  was  only  two days  ago that she had received  the letter  informing her of the change.

'The vitamins are important for the baby,  Kokie.'

The  leper  girl  touched  her  belly.  'Ya'as,  the  baby,'  she  whispered  joyfully.  'Every day. Sun come up. The  vitamin pill.'

Ali loved this girl, because God's mystery  was  so  profound  in  its  cruelty  toward  her.

Twice  Kokie  had  attempted  suicide  and  both  times  Ali  had  saved  her.  Eight  months ago  the  suicide  attempts  had  stopped.  That  was  when  Kokie  had  learned  she  was pregnant.

It  still  surprised  Ali  when  the  sounds  of  lovers  wafted  to  her  in  the  night.  The lessons were  simple and yet  profound. These  lepers were  not horrible in  one  another's sight. They  were  blessed, beautiful, even  dressed  in their poor skin.

With  the  new  life  growing  inside  her,  Kokie's  bones  had  taken  on  flesh.  She  had begun  talking  again.  Mornings,  Ali  heard  her  murmuring  tunes  in  a  hybrid  dialect  of Siswati and Zulu, more beautiful than birdsong.

Ali,  too,  felt  reborn.  She  wondered  if  this,  perhaps,  was  why  she'd  ended  up  in Africa.  It  was  as  if  God  were  speaking  to  her  through  Kokie  and  all  the  other  lepers and refugees. For months now, she had been anticipating the birth of  Kokie's  child.  On a rare  trip  to  Jo'burg,  she'd  purchased  Kokie's  vitamins  with  her  own  allowance  and borrowed  several  books  on  midwifery.  A  hospital  was  out  of  the  question  for  Kokie, and Ali wanted to be ready.

Lately,  Ali  had  begun  dreaming  about  it.  The  delivery  would  be  in  a  hut  with  a  tin roof  surrounded  by  thorn  brush,  maybe  this  hut,  this  bed.  Into  her  hands  a  healthy infant  would  emerge   to  nullify  the   world's  corruption  and   sorrows.   In   one   act, innocence would triumph.

But this morning Ali's realization was bitter. I will never see  the  child of this child. For  Ali  was  being  transferred.  Thrown  back  into  the  wind.  Yet  again.  It  didn't matter  that  she  had  not  finished  here,  that  she  had  actually  begun  drawing  close  to the truth. Bastards. That  was in the masculine, as in bishoprick.

Ali folded a white  blouse  and  laid  it  in  her  suitcase.  Excuse  my  French,  O  Lord. But they  were  beginning to make her feel like a letter  with no address.

From  the  moment  she'd  taken  her  vows,  this  powder  blue  Samsonite  suitcase  had been her faithful companion. First  to Baltimore for some ghetto work, then to  Taos  for a little monastic 'airing out,' then to Columbia University  to  blitzkrieg  her  dissertation. After  that,  Winnipeg  for  more  street-angel  work.  Then  a  year  of  postdoc  at   the Vatican  Archives,  'the  memory   of  the   Church.'  Then   the   plum  assignment,   nine months  in  Europe  as  an  attaché  –  an  addetti  di  nunziatura  –  assisting  the  papal diplomatic                 delegation      at              NATO                     nuclear nonproliferation talks.  For                a twenty-seven-year-old  country  girl  from  west  Texas,  it  was  heady  stuff.  She'd  been selected  as  much  for  her  longtime  connection  with  U.S.  Senator  Cordelia  January  as for her training in linguistics. They'd  played her like a pawn, of  course.  'Get  used  to  it,' January  had  counseled  her  one  evening.  'You're  going  places.'  That  was  for  sure,  Ali thought, looking around the hut.

Very  obviously  the  Church  had  been  grooming  her  –  formation,  it  was  called  – though  for  what  she  couldn't  precisely  say.  Until  a  year  ago,  her  CV  had  showed nothing  but  steady  ascent.  Blue  sky,  right  up  to  her  fall  from  grace.  Abruptly,  no explanations offered, no second chances offered, they'd  sent her  to  this  refugee  colony tucked  in  the  wilds  of  San  –  or  Bushman  –  country.  From  the  glittering  capitals  of Western  civilization  straight  into  the  Stone  Age,  they  had  drop-kicked  her  to  the rump of the planet, to cool her heels in the Kalahari desert  with a bogus mission.

Being Ali, she had made the most of  it.  It  had  been  a  terrible  year,  in  truth.  But  she was tough. She'd coped. Adapted. Flourished, by  God. She'd even  started  to  peel  away the folklore of an 'elder' tribe said to be hiding in the backcountry.

At first, like everyone  else, Ali had dismissed the notion of an undiscovered  Neolithic tribe  existing  on  the  cusp  of  the  twenty-first  century.  The  region  was  wild,  all  right, but  these   days   it  was   crisscrossed   by   farmers,   truckers,   bush  planes,  and  field scientists  –  people  who  would  have  spied  evidence  before  now.  It  had  been  three months before Ali had started  taking the native rumors seriously.

What  was  most  exciting  to  her  was  that  such  a  tribe  did  seem  to  exist,  and  that  its

evidence was mostly linguistic.  Wherever  this  strange  tribe  was  hiding,  there  seemed to be a protolanguage alive in the bush! And day  by  day  she was closing in on it.

For the most part, her hunt had to do with the Khoisan, or Click, language spoken by the  San.  She  had  no  illusions  about  ever  mastering  their  language  herself,  especially the  system  of  clicks  that  could  be  dental,  palatal,  or  labial,  voiced,  voiceless,  or  nasal. But with the help of a San ¡Kung translator, she'd begun assembling a set  of words  and sounds  they  only  expressed  in  a  certain  tone.  The  tone  was  deferential  and  religious and  ancient,  and  the  words  and  sounds  were  different  from  anything  else  in  Khoisan. They  hinted  at  a  reality  that  was  both  old  and  new.  Someone  was  out  there,  or  had been  long  ago.  Or  had  recently  returned.  And  whoever  they  were,  they  spoke  a language that predated  the prehistoric language of the San.