‘What else did she say?’
‘Nothing,’ he said. ‘I told her I’d call again soon and said goodbye and she said goodbye and that was that.’
Al remained mute and motionless.
‘And that was the last time you talked to her?’
‘Yes,’ he said.
Bouvert seemed to be telling the truth. I didn’t think he told her to call me, but some questions still remained unanswered: Why did she call me? Who put her in touch with me? Why did she lie, saying that her lawyer, Bouvert, gave her my number? I put these questions to Bouvert and his associate, but neither seemed to have the slightest clue as to why she had called or who put her in touch with me. When I began asking questions about Gerald, neither seemed to want to talk to me anymore. I insisted, though: ‘Why would someone want to murder Gerald Andrews and target his wife?’
‘Mr. James,’ said Bouvert, ‘Gerald’s murder and Elaine’s disappearance come as a great shock to us, too.’ He walked around behind his desk and sat in his large chair in front of the large window. ‘The truth is neither Al nor I have any idea whatsoever why someone would target the Andrewses.’
When I opened the door to the hatchback I asked Darren if he smoked and he said yes but we couldn’t smoke in the car because of the flowers and because it belonged to the florist, so we sat on the curb and smoked cigarettes under a streetlight. I’d quit, years ago, though nevertheless I was smoking, not caring about the consequences, and my old cough reappeared immediately, a curt bark. I inhaled deeply, holding the smoke, then slowly exhaled the warm pinching smoke through my nostrils. My eyes were closed and I listened to the soft sounds of occasional traffic. Darren didn’t talk. He was a nice kid. Respectful of others. I stood up and crushed the cigarette underfoot, thinking, I don’t need anymore goddamn cigarettes in my life. A city bus approached and I said to Darren that I could take the bus home and he said that he was going my way anyway, and we got in the car. We drove off and I turned to Darren and said, ‘Thanks for waiting, bud.’
My apartment was dark and I didn’t turn on any lights, just placed my keys and wallet on the mantel and went to the kitchenette and poured myself a drink and drank it back and poured another one, emptying the bottle, and dropped face down on my couch and kicked off my shoes and that was that.
12
A buzz startled me out of sleep and I woke on my couch, thirsty, listening to the rain on the fire escape. I remained still, then let my eyelids close under their immense weight. Again, however, there was a loud buzz. It was my doorbell. I sat up on the couch and grabbed the glass sitting on the floor beside it and held the glass up to the meagre light from the street; it was empty and opaque with fingerprints. Again, there was that loud grating buzz and I said, ‘Hold your horses.’ I stood up and did up my pants and belt and walked toward the door, unlocked it and opened it. Much to my chagrin, O’Meara stood there, with one of his plainclothes minions.
‘Mind if we come in, Rick,’ he said, as they pushed past me into my apartment.
‘Make yourselves at home,’ I said, lighting a cigarette.
O’Meara pushed me up against the wall, slapped the cigarette out of my mouth, and said, ‘Don’t get smart, smartass!’ I shoved O’Meara, and the plainclothesman punched me in the stomach. I dropped to my knees. I fought back vomit while trying to catch my breath.
‘Now here’s how it’s going to be, tough guy,’ said O’Meara, ‘we’re going to ask the questions and you’re going to provide the answers. Understand?’ I nodded. ‘Did you rape Elaine Andrews?’
‘Are you fucking crazy?’ I said, and the plainclothesman kicked me in the left kidney, from behind, and I gasped in pain, clutching my side, gritting my teeth and waiting for the pain to dissipate.
‘Did you rape her, Rick?’ he repeated.
‘You know I wouldn’t hurt her.’
‘Rick, we found your friend in a parking lot dumpster, the parking lot of a florist near you, Chez Marine, with her hands tied behind her back, gagged, and there are clear signs of forced penetration. Cause of death was a severe blow to the cranium. You wouldn’t know anything about that — would you, Rick?’
‘O’Meara, I didn’t fucking kill her!’
The plainclothesman was holding up one of my boots, looking at its sole.
‘Well?’ O’Meara said to him, and he said, ‘It’s a definite match.’
‘All right, cuff this motherfucker,’ and the officer was on me, with his knee in my spine and my hands pulled around my back and clasped in handcuffs. The cuffs drew blood.
‘You have nothing linking me to her death,’ I said.
‘Rick, you were the last person to be seen with her, one; two, we took plaster casts of the footprints in the Andrewses’ backyard and guess what, buddy? That’s right — your boots are a match!’
‘I never set foot in the Andrewses’ backyard.’
‘You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say can be used against you in a court of law.’
‘Fuck you.’
Someone punched me again in my kidney, and again I fell. ‘Listen, you sick fuck, you’re under arrest and you’re going to rot in jail,’ he said into my ear, both of us gritting our teeth, me in pain and him in anger, ‘and I’ll make sure you get bunked up with some twisted fuck who’s going to ream you out every morning, every afternoon and every evening, you fucking scum!’ My ear was wet with his spittle.
‘You’re a fucking moron, O’Meara,’ I said, and then I was hit in the head with something hard and blacked out.
When I came to I was cuffed to a chair in a dark interrogation room under a bright hot light. I heard voices, though I couldn’t see faces. ‘Who do you think you’re fooling?’ said a voice. ‘You’re transparent as all hell. We know. We all know.’
‘I have no idea what you’re talking about,’ I said.
‘Playing dumb won’t help you, Rick.’
‘Hi, O’Meara.’
‘Come clean, Rick.’
‘Okay, I’ll come clean. I think you’re a fucking moron.’
A fist emerged from the darkness and caught the edge of my jaw. I bit my tongue when my teeth snapped shut and immediately tasted blood.
‘We know what you’re up to, psycho. There’s nothing mysterious about it, you sick lonely fuck.’
I tried to talk but couldn’t form words. Blood and saliva ran down my chin. The disembodied voices kept talking but I could no longer follow.
‘I bibn’t boo banybing,’ I said.
‘I bibn’t boo banybing,’ said O’Meara, laughing in the dark. And then he said, ‘Work this degenerate over. We don’t need fucks like this walking the streets,’ and fists, many sets, emerged from the darkness and started pounding on my ribs, jaw and kidneys. My eyes shut tight, I gritted my teeth, and then I passed out from the pain.
I woke up, in the dark, still cuffed to the chair. The bright interrogation light was off. I called out and no one answered. I was alone. Immediately I thought of Elaine and felt sick. I pictured her, gagged, hands restrained, like mine, dead from head trauma. She was found in a dumpster, I thought. How’d she get there? How’d someone get her out of the house without me or the officer out front knowing, without making a sound or leaving a single trace? I looked hard into the darkness. I could make out nothing, which wasn’t a surprise. I didn’t kill her, I thought. I said out loud, ‘I know I didn’t kill her.’ How could I? How could’ve I killed her, done away with the body, and made it back to inform the police? What was O’Meara thinking? A horrible buzz sounded and a red light flashed in the corner of the interrogation room. I stared up at it, frightened, and it kept sounding, over and over, and the light lit up again, and the room went red, then pitch-black, then red again, with the buzzing sound. I stared at the painted bulb. There was pounding at the door. ‘Open up, Rick,’ I heard, and the buzzing continued, now relentless, without pause, a solid grating sound, and the light stayed red, giving the room the horrifying atmosphere of a darkroom, where negatives, negatives of unspeakable acts, bloom into being. ‘Open the fucking door, Rick!’ And the pounding and buzzing continued. I tried to speak but couldn’t. I tried to say, ‘My fucking hands are cuffed!’