He studied us, then glanced at the journal again. “Funny how things never really change, even after all these years.” He held it up, waving it slightly. “This Jesuit priest, Eusebio de Salvatierra . . . he wanted to bring his discovery back to Europe and share it with the world. He wanted to let people know death wasn’t the end. But they wouldn’t let him.” He fixed me with a curious stare and asked, “Why do people always assume they have the right to dictate what others can or can’t try out for themselves?”
I kept an intentional vacant stare on my face for a moment, then I feigned a sudden awareness. “I’m sorry, was that rhetorical, or are you expecting an answer?”
He didn’t seem amused.
“Eusebio ran, and he hid, and he never did spread his great discovery. All he did was keep writing in this journal until the end of his days.” He smiled. “I intend to help finish what he started.”
“So that’s why you’re doing it? To help the rest of the world lose their minds?”
He looked at me quizzically. “Lose their minds? Have you even read this?”
I shook my head, and a tremor of unease rumbled somewhere deep inside me. “No. DEA had it. They said it was useless.”
Navarro smiled. “Useless? Maybe. But interesting . . . very. The one thing it doesn’t say, though, is how to make the damn thing.”
“What thing?” Stephenson asked. “What does this drug do anyway?”
“Oh, I think you, more than anyone, will appreciate this, doctor. You see, this drug, this miraculous concoction that Eusebio and McKinnon stumbled upon . . . it lets you relive your past lives.”
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Navarro’s words just hung there, freeze-framed in midair like bullets in a Matrix movie.
Neither I nor Stephenson said anything.
Navarro was more than happy to step in. “You see that? Your reaction, amigos, is exactly why this is going to be a huge hit, why everyone’s going to want to try it, even those who aren’t into drugs.’Cause that’s what it does. It’s the ultimate mind trip. It takes you back years, decades, centuries even—back to moments from lives you never knew you lived. It’s like time-traveling in your head, to real places and real memories and real feelings and real people . . . it’s like dreaming, only much clearer and more vivid—and it’s not fantasy. What you experience really happened.”
“How do you know?” I asked. “How do you know it’s not just your imagination?”
“Oh, I know all about cryptoamnesia,” he countered before turning to Stephenson for corroboration. “I know all the arguments against past-life regression . . . that what we remember under hypnosis is nothing more than random things we read or saw on TV or heard about and forgot, long-lost memories that regression therapy are bringing up from the deepest folds of our minds. But these aren’t fantasies. Trust me. I’ve taken it. I’ve experienced it, more than once. And I know fantasy from reality. The things this drug brings up, the things you experience . . . the emotion, the richness of the experience, the level of detail, right down to the smells. It’s beyond imagination. It’s like you’re there. And it’s tangible. It’s clear enough to give you something to research. Specific memories, names, and places. And that’s what I did. I looked into them.”
“You researched the past lives you experienced while you were under the drug?” Stephenson asked.
Navarro’s face beamed with palpable pride. “Of course.”
He just looked at Stephenson, as if teasing him to ask. Which he quickly did. “And?”
“I discovered who I’d been. Where and when I’d lived. And what I found was . . . amazing. The days of the revolution, fighting against the Rurales. And before that, right here, in this place.” He spread his arms wide, gesturing at the walls around him. “This hacienda. Why do you think I bought it? Why do you think I chose this place?” He smiled. “I was here. In this very place, over a hundred years ago. I worked like a slave in the fields out there, harvesting the henequén cactus for the hacendado, Don Francisco Mendoza. I can tell you how that shredding machine you passed on your way here worked. I can even tell you what it sounded like. And I can assure you that I knew nothing about this place or about henequén or Mendoza before I tried McKinnon’s magic potion. Nothing at all. You want to explain to me how else it could have happened?”
I felt light-headed listening to him. If this were true, it would be a game-changer in so many ways. But we weren’t there yet. The guy was a psycho, and it wouldn’t exactly be out of character for him to lie. For a true skeptic like me, it would take a lot more than the words of a crazed narco to convince me that this was all true.
But if it were . . . the implications would be unimaginable.
I looked across at Stephenson. His face was locked in concentration, visibly awed by what he’d just heard. I felt an unwelcome tinge of unease. Navarro had just dangled him the prize he’d been waiting for all his life. Proof of reincarnation. Vindication of his life’s whole work.
I found myself wondering if my fellow captive was about to join the dark side.
“Real or not,” I put in, “it’ll be hard to prove it.”
Navarro shrugged. “When thousands of people start taking it, they’ll start asking questions about what they’ve seen, they’ll do their research and I’ll bet they’ll find a lot of evidence that what they saw really happened. Which will be a lot of fun to watch. And even if there was no way to prove it, even if some people will stubbornly insist that it’s only our imagination . . . it won’t matter. It’s still one hell of a trip. Better than anything any other pill can give you.”
I saw the logic in what he was saying. Regardless of whether or not it gave its users a look at their actual previous lives—assuming there was such a thing—it would still be a hard drug to resist.
Then Stephenson surprised me. He didn’t look as excited as I thought he would be.
“And it’s basically, what, some kind of psychoactive alkaloid?”
Navarro nodded. “Yes. But the exact composition is still a mystery.”
Stephenson frowned.
“What?” Navarro asked.
“If that’s what it does,” Stephenson replied, “you can’t just unleash it like that. It has to be properly tested. A drug that can open doorways like that in the mind . . . it could be very dangerous. If it can really open up pathways to past life experiences, it could bring up suppressed memories from those lives that might be best left suppressed. Past-life memories usually come out because of some trauma, and bringing up these . . . these psycho-spiritual epiphanies could unhinge you and send your spirit spiraling into, I don’t know, some kind of primordial chaos. You could turn into someone you don’t really want to be and end up with a lifetime of hell.”
That didn’t seem to alarm Navarro at all. “There are good trips and bad trips. A lot of people prefer that to no trip at all.”
Stephenson looked stunned. “Yes, but this is a trip that could turn them into mental wrecks.”
Navarro shrugged. “Life’s about choices, isn’t it?”
“So all this,” Stephenson shot back, “Alex . . . Bringing me here. You really think he can help you recover the formula for this drug?”
“Why not? He remembers everything else.” Navarro held up the old journal. “Eusebio’s writings are very illuminating about the whole experience, but the one thing he didn’t write in this was how to make the damn thing.”
“But McKinnon found it,” I chimed in. “He tracked down the tribe Eusebio wrote about.”