The other women leave the room, throwing glances my way as I stay, holding Derek’s eyes. He is glaring furiously at me, and Shelby stands by, looking from one to the other of us. Once the room is empty except for the three of us, Derek’s eyes shift to Shelby, and he quickly instructs her to take me to the sofa. Derek returns to get a drink of water from the kitchen before joining us. Shelby looks excited and at ease, contrary to me. I’m instead sitting stiffly beside her, dread taking over my body. When Derek approaches, he sits in front of me on the large leather ottoman. I stare at his chest, afraid to meet his eyes, but he doesn’t let me get away with it and orders me to look at him. My eyes rise slowly to his, my terror, without a doubt, showing clearly on my face.
When he speaks again, my terror increases tenfold. “Shelby likes pussy, don’t you, Shelby?”
She smiles shyly back at him as she nods flirtatiously, but he ignores her and continues to stare at me. “Would you like to see Ashton’s pussy?” Again Shelby nods and bats her eyelashes seductively, and once again, Derek ignores her. I’ve stopped breathing entirely and am suddenly ready to bolt from the room. I’m trembling as I gasp for air. My head is shaking from side to side in dissent. At the sight of my fear and refusal, Derek mocks me. “No?” He leans close to my face before he continues to speak. His voice is calm, seductive even, were it not for the fact that his words are dripping with a veiled threat. “You know you can leave anytime you like. Pack your bags and get out while you can … I’ll even call you a cab. How about it?”
I shake my head, my brow wrinkled in pain, and as the helplessness of my life settles in, I respond, “I can’t.”
Tears prick my eyes as Derek continues to watch me intently before he speaks again. “Can’t?”
He’s eying me suspiciously, and I work quickly to rectify my slip. “Won’t. I won’t.”
He continues to eye me intently. “I see. Well then. Shelby, shall we have some fun with the new girl?”
Shelby nods excitedly beside me, and as I continue to hold Derek’s gaze, he winks tauntingly at me once before standing and moving away from me. He then instructs me to undress and lay on the ottoman. I undress slowly, resigned to whatever is to come, and I can feel his eyes move over my body from one of the side couches.
As I take my place on the ottoman, Shelby kneels on the floor between my legs, waiting for Derek’s instruction. My body trembles in fear, more fear than I’ve ever experienced. I’m ridiculously hurt by Derek’s little game, and I want to scream at him for his cruelty, but I say nothing at all. Derek stands and approaches the ottoman, sitting at my shoulder, looking down at me. He instructs me to raise my hands above my head and spread my legs. I comply while he watches, and obviously unhappy with my legs, he grabs my knees, prying them farther apart as I gasp.
He then speaks to Shelby, and I’m ignored entirely. “What do you think, Shelby?”
She peers up at him before responding. “She’s beautiful.”
“Is she?” He peers down at me, meeting my eyes before returning to Shelby. “Tits are entirely too small,” he comments blandly.
“I like her tits. They’re very pretty.”
“Are they? Would you like to taste them?”
Shelby nods, and he gives her permission to touch me. She moves up the ottoman between my legs, and my body freezes at the unwanted contact. I close my eyes as she leans toward my breast. I feel her mouth on me. Were it the right mouth, I would enjoy this thoroughly, but I don’t want this, and Derek is well aware of that fact. When she finishes with my breasts, she returns to her place between my legs.
As I open my eyes, I see that Derek is looking intently down to me. He speaks to Shelby once again. “What do you think of her pussy, Shelby?” He doesn’t take his eyes from me for even a moment.
“Incredible.”
“You think so, do you? Put your finger in her.” Shelby reaches out to me and slowly enters my body with her index finger as Derek watches. “Is she wet?”
Shelby shakes her head. I close my eyes again, doing my best to ignore what is being done to my body, but when Derek asks if she wants to taste me, my eyes bolt open, and I find his eyes watching me closely.
I don’t want this, and as desperation sets in, I start to beg. “No, please … please … please … I’m sorry … I’m sorry … please stop.” I’m whispering, looking at him imploringly, desperately. My head is shaking back and forth, and as he holds my gaze, I watch his nostrils flare and his jaw clench tight. My breath is hitching as I fight back the sobs.
Shelby is waiting for direction, and his jaw keeps clenching and releasing, clenching and releasing. He exhales a final deep breath, leans to my ear, and speaks only to me. “‘Please stop’ meaning you’re ready to turn in your resignation, or ‘please stop’ meaning you’d like me to fuck you instead?”
He stays at my ear while I struggle to breathe, struggle to think, but quitting isn’t an option, and I do want him. This is more emotion than he’s shown me in weeks, and I want this emotion. “Please fuck me.”
I’m still whispering as he pulls from my ear and looks down at me harshly with his smoldering dark eyes.
“Shelby, get out,” he speaks through a clenched jaw and gritted teeth.
My eyes close in relief, and as she starts to argue with him, he stops her swiftly and barks at her to leave. Before she even manages to reach the door, he moves between my legs and drops his pants to his knees. Thinking and caring nothing at all about a condom, he lifts my hips to his and thrusts ferociously into me. His length fills me, and my head drops to the side to make sure we’re alone. I catch Shelby’s shocked expression from the door before she moves through it, leaving us alone at last.
He pounds into me over and over. His thrusts are powerful, and he doesn’t let my eyes escape his for even a moment. The ache in my womb is building with each invasion, but in the private thoughts of my mind, I acknowledge I’m satisfied at last. He continues to pull my groin to his groin roughly, and as he finally reaches his climax, he pulls himself swiftly from me and comes on my stomach. I can feel his semen running down my stomach, but my eyes are trapped by his as he glares harshly at me.
When he finally gives up my eyes, he drops my hips, and my bottom falls to the soft surface of the ottoman. As he fixes his clothes, he walks away from me to the door. I stay in place, not wanting to move, still in shock about morning coffee turning into such a train wreck. My cheek is lying against the soft cool leather of the ottoman, and I watch him walk from the room without glancing back once.
When I stand to dress, Liz enters. I dress hastily, not wanting her to see the glistening wetness on my stomach. As my shirt passes over the skin of my stomach, I can feel the stickiness of Derek’s cum on my skin when my shirt clings to it. She approaches with concern in her eyes. She feels none of the resentment the others have toward me, and it is obvious that her concern is for me.
She speaks as we start for the door. “Shelby’s not happy. Just so you know … most of us were in Teresa’s room when she came in, and she told us what happened.” I look to her eyes nervously, and she continues. “Everyone knows. I’m sorry.” I nod as we walk, too defeated to say anything, and as we approach her door, she speaks once again. “Do you want to talk about it?” I shake my head once more, and she squeezes my hand gently before leaving me in the corridor.
When I return to my room, I lie on the bed staring up at the ceiling. I don’t leave my room for the remainder of the day, and he doesn’t summon me that evening. And as I soak in the warmth of my tub, I think of him.
I don’t understand him. It is obvious he doesn’t want me here, and part of me thinks it is oddly in favor to me, but he has no idea what drives me, and so, for all his torture and cold harshness, he fails to push me away. It’s inevitable. I have to stay. He suspected it from the moment he met me. I’m not here of my own accord. If he could only see that, perhaps he’d give up trying to fight me at every turn. There are times when his dark steely stare falters, and in the depths of his eyes, I wonder what he feels. Is he acting for my benefit, or can he truly hate me as much as he appears to? Why does he stay away from the others? It can’t possibly be in preference of me. I infuriate him far more than I please him, and yet … when he watches me, it is with an intensity I don’t understand. His body is always ready for me, and for someone that despises everything about me, I find it hard to understand what drives his arousal. Perhaps this is his brand of masochism, and he gets off on fucking that which he hates the most.