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`Glad to meet you, Doctor. Dr. Mann has told me a tot about you.'

`How do you do, Doctor,' a woman's musical voice said, and I turned to Mrs. Cannon. Small and trim she was standing

behind the left shoulder of her husband and smiling horribly her eyes kept flickering off to a line of female hags who

were oozing noisily through the hallway outside our door. The patients were dressed with such indescribable ugliness

they looked like character actors who had been rejected for Marat-Sade for being overdone.

Behind her was the son, Eric. He was dressed in a suit and tie, but his long long hair, rimless glasses and sparkle in the

eyes which was either idiotic or divine made him look anything but middle-class suburbanite.

`That's him,' said Pastor Cannon with what honestly looked like a jovial smile.

I nodded politely and motioned them all toward the chairs. The pastor and his wife pushed past me to sit down, but

Eric was staring out at the last of the women passing in the hall. One of them, an ugly, toothless woman with dish-mop

hair, had stopped and was smiling coyly at him.

`Hi ya, cutie,' she said. `Come down and see me some time.'

The boy stared a second, smiled and said, `I will.'

Laughing, he darted a bright-eyed look at me and went to take a chair. A juvenile idiot.

I plumped my big bulk informally on the desk opposite the Cannons and tried my `gee-it's-wonderful-to-be-able-to #161;

talk-to you' smile. The boy was sitting near the window to my right and slightly behind his parents, looking at me with

friendly anticipation.

`You understand, Pastor Cannon, I hope, in committing Eric to this hospital you are surrendering your authority over

him.

'Of course, Dr. Rhinehart. I have complete confidence in Dr. Mann.'

`Good. I assume also that both you and Eric know that this is no summer camp Eric is entering. This is a state mental

hospital and-'

`It's a fine place, Dr. Rhinehart,' said Pastor Cannon. `We in New York State have every right to be proud.'

'Hmmmmm, yes,' I said, and turned to Eric. `What do you think of it all?'

'There are groovy patterns in the soot on the windows.'

`My son believes that the whole world, is insane.'

Eric was still looking pleasantly out the window. `A plausible theory these days, one must admit,' I said to him, `but it

doesn't get you out of this hospital.'

'No, it gets me in,' he replied. We stared at each other for the first time.

`Do you want me to try to help you?' I asked.

`How can you help anyone?'

'Somebody's paying me well for trying.'

The boy's smile didn't seem to be sardonic, only friendly.

`They pay my father for spreading the Truth.'

`It may be ugly here you know,' I said.

`I think I'll feel right at home here.'

`Not many people here will want to create a better world,' his father said.

`Everyone wants to create a better world,' Eric replied, with a hint of sharpness in his voice.

I eased myself off the desk and walked around behind it to pick up Eric's record. Peering over my glasses as if I could see without them I said to the father: `I'd like to talk with you about Eric before you leave. Would you prefer that we talk privately or would you like to have Eric here?'

'No difference to me,' he said. `He knows what I think. He'll probably act up a bit, but I'm used to it. Let him stay.'

`Eric, do you want to remain or would you like to go to the ward now?'

'Full fathom five my father lies,' he said looking out the window. His mother winced, but his father simply shook his head slowly and adjusted his glasses. Since I was interested in getting the son's live reaction to his parents, I let him stay.

'Tell me about your son, Pastor Cannon,' I said, seating myself in the wooden desk chair and leaning forward with my sincere professional look. Pastor Cannon cocked his head judiciously, crossed one leg over the other and cleared his throat.

`My son is a mystery,' he said. `It's incredible to me that he should exist. He's totally intolerant of others. You … if you've read what's in that folder you know the details. Two weeks ago though - another example. Eric [he glanced nervously at the boy, who was apparently looking out or at the window) hasn't been eating well for a month. Hasn't been reading or writing. He burned everything he'd written oven two months ago. An incredible amount. He doesn't speak much to anyone anymore. I was surprised he answered you …. Two weeks ago, at the dinner table, Eric playing saint with a glass of water, I remarked to our guest that night, a Mr. Houston of Pace Industries, a vice-president, that I almost hoped sometimes that there would be a third World War because I couldn't see how else the world would ever be rid of Communism. It's a thought we've all had at one time or another. Eric threw the water in my face. He smashed his glass on the floor.'

He was peering intently at me, waiting for a reaction. When I merely looked back he went-on: `I wouldn't mind for myself, but you can imagine how upset my wife is made by such scenes, and this is typical.'

`Yes,' I said. `Why do you think he did it?'

`He's an egomaniac. He doesn't see things as you and I do. He doesn't want to live as we do. He thinks that all Catholic priests, most teachers and myself are all wrong, but so do many others without always making trouble about it. And that's the crux. He takes life too seriously. He never plays, or at least never when most people want him to. He's always playing, but never what he's supposed to. He's always making war for his way of life. This is a great land of freedom but it isn't made for people who insist on insisting on their own ideas. Tolerance is our byword and Eric is above all intolerant.'

'Sorry about that, Dad,' Eric suddenly said, and with a friendly smile got up and took a position directly behind and between his parents with a hand resting on the back of each of their chairs. Pastor Cannon looked at me as if he were trying to read by the expression on my face exactly how much longer he had to live.

`Are you intolerant, Eric?' I asked.

`I'm intolerant of evil and stupidity,' he said.

`But who gives you the right,' his father said, turning partly around to confront his son, `to tell everyone what's good

and evil?'

'It's the divine right of kings,' Eric replied, smiling.

His father turned back to me and shrugged. `There you are,' he said. `And let me give you another example. Eric, when

ha was thirteen years old, mind you, stands up in the middle of my church during a crowded midmorning Communion

and says aloud above the kneeling figures: 'That it should come to this," and walks out.'

We all remained as we were without speaking, as if I were the concentrating photographer and they about to have their

family portrait taken.

`You don't like modern Christianity?' I finally said to Eric.

He rang his fingers through his long black hair, looked up briefly at the ceiling and screamed.

His father and mother came out of their chairs like rats o$ as electric grid and both stood trembling, watching their

son, hands at his side, a slight smile on his face, screaming.

A white-suited Negro attendant entered the office and then another. They looked at me for instructions. I waited for

Eric's second lungful scream to end to see if he would begin another. He didn't. When he had finished, he stood quietly

for a moment and then said to no one in particular: Time to go.'

`Take him to the admissions ward, to Dr. Vener for his physical. Give this prescription to Dr. Vener.'

I scribbled out a note for a mild sedative and watched the two attendants look warily at the boy.

`Will he come quietly?' the smaller of the two asked.

Eric stood still a moment longer and then did a rapid two step followed by an irregular jig toward the door. He sang:

`We're OFF to see the Wizard, the Wonderful Wizard of Oz. We're OFF…'

Exit dancing. Attendants follow, last seen each reaching to grasp one of his arms. Pastor Cannon had a comforting arm around his wife's shoulder. I had rung for a student nurse. `I'm very sorry, Dr. Rhinehart,' Pastor Cannon said. `I was afraid something like this would happen but I felt that you