Rahksan came through the door with her shoes in one hand, buttoning the linen blouse with the other. She was a short woman, full in breast and hip, with a mane of curling blue-black hair and skin a pale creamy olive that reminded him of Italians he had seen. Her face was roundly pretty, eyes heavy-lidded above a dreamy smile.
He stood: the serf squeaked and jumped in startlement, then relaxed into a broad grin as she recognized him.
“Why, masta Eric, good t’see yaz egin,” she said, tilting her head on one side and glancing up at him; she came barely to his shoulder.
He laughed and pulled her close; she flowed into his arm, warm, soft skin damp and carrying a faint pleasant scent of woman.
“I was looking for you, Rahksan,” he said.
“Why, whatevah fo’?” she asked slyly, snuggling. They had always been friendly, as far as different stations allowed, and occasional bedmates in the years since Tyansha died.
“ . . . unless you’re too tired?” he finished politely.
“Well . . . ah do have wuk t’do, masta. ’Sides, all this bedwenchin’, that is.” She paused, with a show of considering. “Tonaaht? Pr’bly feel laahk it agin bah then.”
He nodded, and she jumped up with an arm around his neck; he tasted musk on her lips as they kissed, and then she was gone with a flash of bare feet, giggling as she gave him a swift intimate caress in passing. Eric shook his head, grinning.
Another thing that hasn’t changed about Oakenwald, he thought. Rahksan had always had a sunny disposition and an uncomplicated outlook on life. It was restful for a man given to introspective brooding.
His sister’s voice interrupted his musing. “Well, brother dear, if you’re quite finished making assignations with my serf wench, come on in.”
Johanna was lying comfortably sprawled across her bed amid the rumpled black satin of the sheets, sipping at pale yellow wine in a bell goblet and toe-wrestling with a long-haired persian cat. She was, he noted with amusement, still wearing his gift of eardrops, if nothing else; she had the grayhound build of the von Shrakenbergs, but was thicker through the neck and shoulders than when he had seen her last, a year ago. Wrestling a two-engined pursuit plane through the sky took strength as well as skill.
He seated himself and took up the second glass, pouring from the straw-covered flask in its bed of ice. “Glad to see you’re not wasting your leave,” he said. “A little . . . schoolgirlish, though, isn’t it?”
“Now, listen to me, Eric—” She sank back into the pillows at his smile. “Freya, but it’s always a surprise when that solemness of yours breaks down.” Johanna paused to pick a black hair from her lip with thumb and forefinger.
“Glad you knew I was joking; Pa might not be, though. He’s a stickler for dignity,” Eric said.
Johanna snorted. “I’m old enough to fight for the Domination, I’m old enough to choose my own pleasures,” she said. More slowly: “For that matter, it’s like school around here these days: no men. Not between eighteen and forty, at least. Draka men, that is; plenty of likely-looking serf bucks . . . just joking brother, just joking. I know the Race Purity laws as well as anyone and I’ve no wish to do my last dance on the end of a rope. Actually, the only man I’m interested in is six thousand kilometers away in Mongolia, while celibacy interests me not at all.”
She sighed. “And . . . the lochos’s going operational in another month, once we’ve finished shaking down on ground support. Ever noticed how war puts a hand on your shoulder and says ‘hurry’?”
“Yes indeed,” he said, refilling her glass. “Confidentially . . . Johanna, the Germans are getting pretty close to the Caucasus. They’ve taken Rostov-on-Don already, and it looks like Moscow will fall within the month. Then they’ll push on to the Caspian, which will put them right on our northern border. Three guesses as to where the next round of fighting begins.”
She nodded, thoughtful. The Domination had never really been at peace in all the centuries of its existence; a citizen was reared to the knowledge that death in combat was as likely a way to go as cancer in bed. This would be different: a gotterdammerung, where whole nations were beaten into dust . . .
Too big, she mused. Impossible to think about in any meaningful sense; you could only see it in personal terms. And seeing it that way, Armageddon itself couldn’t kill you deader than a skirmish. It was the personal that was real, anyhow. You lived and died in person-time, not history-time.
“Funny,” she said. “Back when we were children, we couldn’t wait to grow up . . . Do you remember when Uncle Everard gave Rahksan to me? I was around six, so you must have been going on ten.”
Eric nodded, reminiscing. “Yes: you’d play at giving orders until she got tired of it; then she’d plump down and cross her arms and say, ‘This is a stupid game and I’m not going to play anymore,’ and we’d all roll around laughing.”
“Hmmm, well, it was a change to give anybody orders. At that age, nurse and all the house serfs tell you what to do, and wallop your bottom if you don’t . . . Did you know she’d have nightmares?”
Surprised, he shook his head. “Always seemed a happy little wench.”
“At night, she’d wake up sometimes on the pallet down at the foot of the bed, thinking she couldn’t breathe. Damn what the vet said, I think she got some lung damage when they gassed her village. I’d let her crawl in with me and hold her until she went to sleep; then later, when we were both older, well...” She paused and frowned. “You know, I never did go in for the schoolgirl stuff, the real thing, roses and fruit left at the window, bad poetry under the door, meetings in the pergola at midnight . . . Always seemed silly, as if this was seventy years ago and you could get in real trouble. So did what happened in the summer months off, everyone rushing out and falling on the nearest boy like ravening leopardesses on a goat.”
He laughed. She had always been able to draw him out of himself, even if that humor was a little barbed at times.
“Rahksan . . . that’s just fun and exuberance, and release from need, with more affection than you can get in barracks. I really like her, you know, and she me.” She paused to sip the cool tart wine. “And I miss Tom.”
“I always thought you two were in love,” Eric said lightly. “From the way you quarrelled: you’d ride ten miles just to have a fight with him.”
Johanna smiled ruefully. “True enough. And I do love him . . . ” She paused, set down the empty glass and linked her fingers about one knee. “Not the way you felt about that Circassian wench,” she continued softly. “Don’t think I didn’t notice. I’ll never love anyone with that . . . crazy single-mindedness, never, and I thank the nonexistent gods for it.”
He glanced away. “There has to be one sensible person in this family,” he said. He thought of his other sisters, twins three years younger than Johanna. “Besides the Terrible Two, of course.”
“Yes; they were threatening me bodily harm if I won the war before they could get into it . . . Eric, you know the problem with you and Pa? You think and feel exactly alike.”
“We haven’t agreed on a goddamned thing in ten years!”
“I didn’t say the contents of your thoughts were alike, but the way you think is no-shit identical, big brother. You feel things . . . too much: duty, love, hate, whatever. Everything’s a matter of principle; everything counts too much. You both want too much—things that aren’t possible to us mortals.”