Not that the family registered that fact.
‘Hi, Dad.’
‘What is this “hi” business? Should I now respond “low”?’
‘Hello, Dad, Father, Pater, O Kingly One.’
Her father grinned. The room smelt musty, a smell composed of old flesh and old furnishings and books. Pam crossed to the window.
‘Leave it!’ her father said.
‘As you wish.’
‘Sit, sweetie. What are the lawless up to?’
And Pam told him, embellishing, watching her father’s avid face. It was more than a simple desire for salacious detail. Pam suspected that he took a certain eugenicist position on crime.
‘And what did this fellow look like?’
‘Oh, pretty average,’ Pam said. ‘How’s the book going?’
Dr Murphy had been a lecturer in mathematics. He’d led an uneventful life, but was trying to screw an autobiography out of it.
‘At the rate I’m writing,’ he said sourly, ‘I’m likely to die before I’ve been conceived.’
That afternoon, van Alphen wondered about the relationship between sexual desire and cocaine. Clearly Clara wanted him, but he didn’t know how to read it. Simple desire, for him as an individual? Gratitude for his being there when she needed him after the fire? Or was it chemical, the cocaine itself acting on her, and nothing to do with him as a person?
She was discreet. He’d never seen her take the stuff. She’d hidden it away without taking any the night he delivered it, and when he’d called around yesterday it was clear that she’d already had some. No way did he want to see her take it, and she was protecting him, insisting that he always contact her before he called in to see her.
Whatever, she was always ready for him. But did she need to get stoked first? Did she see him as no more than her supplier, who had to be kept sweet, because he didn’t want payment in cash but in sex?
He was a long way in, now. He’d given her grams and grams of the stuff. ‘Clara, don’t be offended, you’re not going to sell the stuff on, are you?’
She was shocked, genuinely outraged. ‘Van, I told you, it’s for my nerves.’
‘I know.’
‘You can see it’s helping, can’t you? I mean, do I seem as jumpy to you any more?’
‘I guess not.’
‘No. So don’t ask me that. I feel ashamed enough as it is.’
‘Okay.’
‘It’s not as if I’m a junkie or anything.’
There were old scars, scarcely visible. Maybe she had been, once upon a time. ‘Forget I said it, Clara, okay?’
‘All right,’ she said grudgingly, then stretched out fully against his flank. ‘God you’re good for me.’
She’d drawn the curtains. Incense was burning. In the perfumed dimness he turned and kissed her. She broke away. ‘We’re forgetting you, Van. You seem edgy.’
‘Ahhh,’ he said, rolling on to his back and flinging an arm across his eyes, ‘it’s been a hell of a couple of days. Two of my constables arrested some rich prat two nights ago, now the mother’s making waves, complaining to the superintendent.’
‘Plus that girl being found murdered.’
‘Plus that.’
They fell silent, began to caress each other. Afterwards, heartbeat and blood flow ebbing pleasantly, he propped himself on one elbow and with the tips of his fingers began to trace her breasts and stomach and the glorious hollows inside her thighs. ‘Incredible skin,’ he said. ‘You wouldn’t be part Maori, would you?’
Her body seemed to alter under his gaze, recoiling, shutting him out. ‘Here we go,’ she said. ‘It had to come, sooner or later.’
‘What?’
‘Does it make a difference who or what I am?’
‘Of course not. I just asked-’
‘You like a bit of black meat, is that it? Or maybe you’re disgusted but can’t help yourself? Or are you trying to break it off with me?’
‘I only said-’
‘Just you remember where the coke came from, big boy. Hurt me again, insult me, get me into trouble, and I’ll spill everything so fast you won’t know what hit you. “Cop steals drugs for girlfriend,” I can see it now.’
‘Jesus, I only said-’
‘I’m flesh and blood, aren’t I, like you? I got feelings?’
‘Of course.’
‘I deserve respect.’
‘I respect you.’
‘Well don’t say anything insulting to me again. Don’t even think it. I especially don’t want to hear anything about Maoris or New Zealand or anything about my past, okay?’
‘Sure.’
She pushed down on his head. ‘Do me with your tongue. That’s it… that’s it…’
She was slippery ground, but sex was firm ground, and van Alphen threw himself into it. He heard, through the dampish slap of her inner thighs against his ears, a sound like pleasure and pain.
At four o’clock, just as John Tankard was finishing a cup of tea in the staff canteen before going on patrol with Pam Murphy, someone called, ‘Hey, Tank, bad luck, mate.’
‘Yeah, thanks.’
‘Dropping the charges, what bastards.’
‘Yeah, I know.’
‘So, did you get to screw old Cindy, or what?’
John Tankard propelled the other man across the room, forearm to the throat, flattening him against the wall. ‘You arsehole.’
‘Chill out, Tank. He was only joking.’
‘Yeah, let him go, Tank. Look, we’re all on your side. They think if they’ve got money they can get away with anything. It’s not right. We’re on your side. So let him go.’
Tankard released his colleague. It wasn’t often-ever? — that the others were on his side.
Challis picked up the phone and heard Tessa Kane say, ‘Hal, I thought I’d ring now to wish you Merry Christmas. I’ll be with my family all day tomorrow.’
There was a touch of desolation in her voice. Was her life like his? He breathed out heavily. ‘Have a happy day.’
‘Thank you.’
Then her voice dropped, taking on slow, lonely tones. ‘You should have called.’
Challis waited, then said carefully, ‘I was going to.’
‘I wish you hadn’t left like that.’
They were silent. Eventually Challis said softly, ‘I’d better go. I’d like to see you again soon.’
‘Wait! I heard you arrested-’
Challis put the phone down. Arrested Lady Bastian’s son, she was going to say, and apparently there were questions all over the arrest, but that wasn’t his problem.
He glanced at his watch. Six-thirty. He decided against going home and then coming back again, and walked down High Street to the Fish Bar, a bistro between the shire offices and the jetty. From the window he could see the open ground that the town had set aside for fairs and carnivals. Tonight: Carols by Candlelight. Late January: the Westernport Festival. Anzac Day: dawn service.
He liked eating alone. He often had no choice but to eat alone, but he did like it, most of the time. Tonight it would have been better to have dined with someone, for he felt peaceful and relaxed for the first time in a while-which owed a lot to the fact that it was Christmas Eve and the town-even the police station all that day-was in a slowed-down mood, everyone benign and full of good intentions.
At eight o’clock he paid his bill, and as he was standing, waiting, folding his credit card receipt into his pocket, he saw Scobie Sutton’s car draw into the kerb on the other side of the road. The grassy area near the little bandstand was filling rapidly. Sutton and his wife and daughter got out of the car, carrying blankets and hymn books. The child was sleepy. Challis watched them join the crowd. Someone gave them candles from a cardboard box, and they settled on to their blankets. But Challis didn’t join them when the carol singing began. He might have, and been welcomed, but he found a corner of the crowd where he could sing and not be expected to talk.