“They promised they’d call,” Nicolai replied, “and we haven’t heard anything yet. I don’t know. There’s nothing to find anyway. I wish it wasn’t necessary, but there’s no point in protesting. They’ve got all the power.”
Now it was he who squeezed her hand.
“Sorry,” he said all of a sudden.
Carmen looked up at him and gave him a squeeze back. She was wearing her ring with a red stone in it, and he felt the sharp edge hard against his palm.
“Why are you saying sorry?”
Nicolai had started to walk faster, and she had to trot a little to keep up.
“I know that I’m being difficult and mean,” he said. “I know that I’m complaining. But at the moment I’m just so sad. And I don’t want another child, just so you know. There’s no point in talking about a replacement, because it’s not possible.”
Carmen shook her head in exasperation; now it was her turn to be sad.
“You’ll learn to love another one just as much,” she said. “I know you. You’re so kind. You’re the world’s best dad. And we can wait a bit, anyway, until everything has gone back to normal. We’re in the middle of it all right now and that makes it difficult to think. Maybe after the funeral we’ll be able to move on. Pappa Zita says that the funeral is a kind of turning point. I hope we get a place for him under the birch trees beside Louisa.”
They walked in silence the rest of the way.
When they got to Stranda, Carmen sat down on the warm sand and Nicolai took off his jeans. He walked slowly down to the water, waded out, and then dived in. He was a strong swimmer and kept good speed straight out from the shore, with strong, determined strokes. She followed his progress.
“Don’t go too far,” she called to him. “It’s best to stick to the shore, and I can’t save you if you get cramps.”
She forced a little laughter, but it felt uncomfortable in her mouth. Nicolai didn’t answer; he just kept on swimming with steady strokes. Carmen could see a tanker farther out. The red hull was visible on the horizon. She kept her eye on Nicolai the entire time. He was now so far away that she started to get anxious. And he showed no sign of turning back. Terrible thoughts flooded her mind: maybe he couldn’t face any more, and he was leaving it all behind. She stood up and shaded her eyes, catching sight of his head in the gentle waves, bobbing up and down like a cork. She started to dig in the wet sand, trying to make a sandcastle. But she wasn’t any good at it, and the castle kept collapsing. As a child, she had come here often with her father. He was as strong as an ox and had carried her on his shoulders all the way, and she rocked and felt like she was on a boat. Then he’d lifted her down onto the sand and answered all her questions. Why don’t fish drown? Well, her father told her, they get air through their gills. A fine profusion of tiny bubbles of oxygen. And just think how fast they move in the water. Everything that lives in this world needs air. Yes, her father was always on her side. No matter what happened, he was her mentor and her servant and he made her happy. She looked out at the water again to see if Nicolai had turned. But he hadn’t, so she started to shout.
“Nicolai, you idiot, come back or I’ll go home! I didn’t manage to save Tommy. And I won’t be able to save you!”
Finally he came to his senses, turned back, and swam toward the shore. She sighed with relief. She felt her body relax and started to build her little sandcastle again with eager hands. She managed to build a tower and dig a moat to channel in the water. She was delighted with her work, beaming up at Nicolai when he came out of the water.
“You scared me,” she said later as she took his hand.
“Why?” he asked. “I’m a good swimmer. I’m best in the water and you know that.”
He looked over the small sandcastle but was not particularly impressed, and she was hurt that he didn’t even make a friendly comment. As they walked back, she was silent for a while. She had her turquoise sandals on. One of the straps was beginning to rub; they were not good to walk in. She knew that she would get a blister that would then burst and become a sore so she would have to use a bandage. Stupid damn shoes, she thought and got herself wound up.
“People will think you’ve wet yourself,” she said with a little smile. There were dark patches on Nicolai’s jeans from the wet trunks he still had on underneath. But he didn’t care; he just kept walking. He wanted to get home again. He wanted to go down into the dim cellar where he could be alone.
“Don’t walk so fast,” Carmen complained. “I’ve got a blister.”
15
Seventeenth of August. Morning at Møllergata 4.
His name was Felipe Marian Zita and he came from Barcelona, but his wife Elsa was as blond and blue-eyed as a Norwegian fjord. Zita himself was dark and olive-skinned. One of Sejer’s first questions, given Carmen’s almost white hair, was whether he really was her biological father.
“Genetics is a complex area,” he said, “and it certainly played a trick on us. Carmen’s tow-colored hair was quite a surprise. Many people have asked before you,” he added. “You’re in good company. But please, sit down, sit down. Elsa has made some coffee. And I’ve just spoken to Carmen, because she calls every day. She said that she’s having bad dreams, which isn’t surprising given what’s happened. Lots of nightmares, recurring bad dreams. Nicolai is devastated and I’m really worried about him. He’s such a sensitive boy. Carmen is coping better. She’s strong, that girl, takes after me. I’m not sure what you’re after, but we can certainly have a chat. I’m sure you have your reasons. And we don’t go against the system, because that’s not who we are. We’re humble folk.”
Zita was obviously nervous and he talked a lot and fast. But this was perhaps due to his Mediterranean temperament, Sejer thought. It was hard to stop him once he had started.
“Sit yourselves down. Elsa’s just coming with the coffee, if you’ve got time.”
Sejer and Skarre thanked him and settled among the colorful, bright cushions.
“Carmen will definitely have another child,” Zita said. “And as soon as she can, if I know her right. But Nicolai thinks otherwise. He no doubt wants to wait awhile. He says that Tommy can’t be replaced. But that’s not what we want, that’s not the point.”
He got up and took some cups and saucers out of a cupboard and then sat back down at the table. The living room was obviously influenced by his Mediterranean background. Dark, heavy furniture, tapestries on the wall, potted plants in the windows. A carved wooden rocking horse with full saddle and bridle in leather. Tommy probably sat on that many a time, Sejer reflected sadly. He admired the modern chandelier with hundreds of cut-glass pieces that sparkled in the light from the window.
“And is it true that everyone calls you Pappa Zita?” Sejer inquired.
“Yes,” said Zita, as he sipped his coffee. “It was Carmen who started calling me that, when she was quite small. And then everyone started to call me Pappa, which I like. I’m happy to be everyone’s papa. Especially Nicolai, as he lost both his parents in a light-aircraft accident. They flew a Cessna straight into a storm — maybe you heard. And I’m a dad to everyone who works at Zita Quick. I’ve trained them all, and they’re good. Perhaps people don’t realize it, but working in a fast-food restaurant is a demanding job. And we have a fantastic reputation to live up to. Every day we have to deliver the very best. And we’re the only ones in the area who are open twenty-four hours a day. So that means lots of employees, high wage costs. But it’s good business. Very good business,” he concluded.
Elsa nodded. She was incredibly reserved. She studied Sejer and Skarre, her blue eyes full of doubt and suspicion.