“I will be safe,” Slanya said. “Gregor’s elixir will protect me.” Her tone was matter-of-fact.
Duvan snorted. “I highly doubt that.”
“You heard what he said: the chances of survival are dramatically improved.”
Duvan laughed. “I heard it, but that just means you’ll be able to survive for a third of an hour instead of dying immediately. We’ll need longer than that.”
“Well, I trust Gregor.”
Duvan shook his head. “He’s using you. I bet he’s done it before, too, and because you have faith in him, you agree to being used.”
“I owe him my life,” Slanya said. “That doesn’t mean that I’ll throw it away for him, but it does mean that he has earned my trust. He has never let me down.”
Duvan guided them up out of a ravine and onto a sunny slope, heading south. “Blind faith will be your undoing, I fear,” he said. “The Plaguewrought Land is wild beyond anything you’ve ever experienced. It abides by no rules, no laws.”
“I don’t see how-”
“Spellplague cannot be tamed by a draught,” Duvan said flatly.
Slanya was silent for a few moments, and Duvan was content to let the conversation drop. If she was determined to go with him inside the borders of the Plaguewrought Land then at least she would do so with her eyes open.
“There are people behind us,” Slanya said after a long silence.
Duvan had noticed that too. “Likely pilgrims. Likely dead soon.”
“So you hate pilgrims as well?” Slanya asked.
Duvan glanced over at her to try to read her expression, which was wrinkled in dismay. “I don’t hate anyone,” he said. “I do think that many pilgrims are greedy and misinformed, and that they have a high likelihood of dying.”
“You don’t approve of following one’s beliefs?”
“Not if those beliefs will get you used or killed.”
Slanya was about to retort when she stopped herself. Duvan watched in amazement as she concentrated and willfully evoked a change in her demeanor. “Very well,” she said. “Despite the fact that you express yourself cynically, and I have a more optimistic view, I think we are mostly in agreement concerning the pilgrims.”
He had to admit he was impressed with her restraint.
“But what if those folks are from the Order and have come to take you in?”
Duvan had considered that. “If they threaten us, we will kill them.” He smirked. “Or knock them out, as the case may be.”
“Why is the Order after you, anyway? Did you kill two of their members, like Beaugrat said?”
Duvan shrugged. “I killed one of them because she and Beaugrat turned on me and tried to kill me,” he said. “The other one was eaten by a manticore.”
“Ugh,” Slanya said. “So that’s why the Order wants to take you in?” Slanya asked. “It seems like a lot of trouble for a misunderstanding.”
“That must be it,” Duvan said, although he suspected that Tyrangal was right: the Order of Blue Fire wanted him for his resistance to spellplague. Just like Rhiazzshar, they wanted to use him.
“Is there any other reason they’d be interested in you? Have you done anything to make them want to interrogate you?”
Duvan lied easily. “Not that I can think of.”
“Don’t you think it would be a good thing to find out? If you know what they want and who wants you, then you might be able to thwart their plans concerning you and avoid future incidents like the one this morning.”
Duvan blinked at Slanya. “Why hadn’t I considered that?” he said, his tone mocking.
Slanya recoiled from his sarcasm as though she’d been slapped. “You don’t have to be an ass,” she said. “I was trying to help, because frankly you seem to need some of it.”
“Look, Slanya, I’m sorry.” And he was too. He felt bad for lying to her. “There is very likely another reason that the Order wants me, but I don’t talk about that reason to anyone. It’s not personal.”
“Maybe they’re interested in why you’re so lucky around the spellplague,” she mused. “Like, how can you have been inside the Plaguewrought Land a number of times and yet you have no spellscar?”
Duvan sighed. She was going to figure it out sooner or later. “I am spellscarred,” he said. “But my scar is completely hidden.”
“Oh? What does it do?” Slanya asked.
“I can’t tell you,” Duvan said. “Like I said, I don’t talk about it.”
They walked along in silence for a while, before Slanya continued. “Well, regardless, I think you need to find out why the Order is after you.”
“Yes, well, that sounds like a good idea, but I can’t do it.”
“What do you mean?” Slanya’s eyes grew wide. “It’s not that hard. You make a plan, ask some questions, do some counterspying. Maybe interrogate someone. It seems like you’d be good at those things.”
Duvan snorted. “I don’t even know where I’m going to be living two days from now. I never make plans past a tenday.”
“By Kelemvor, why not?”
“Why think about anything long-term when I might be dead any moment?”
Sweat cooled on Slanya’s neck as she walked next to Duvan. Gravel crunched beneath her leather boots, and she relished the shade provided by the large mote overhead. The fall morning had grown hot, but her sweat was more from nervousness than heat.
Slanya had always met challenges head on. She had always been able to make a quick and impartial assessment-a logical analysis of the obstacles in her path, acceptance of what she could not change. But she found that the prospect of going into the Plaguewrought Land was provoking an unusual reaction in her-apprehension and fear.
She tried to concentrate through this unfamiliar feeling. She concentrated on the conversation with Duvan. Here was someone whom she did not immediately understand, someone intriguing. Slanya sensed pain in Duvan’s words. Real pain, not embellished or fabricated. Slanya suspected that he might even be downplaying the pain he truly felt behind the words.
She looked over at the young rogue, expertly picking a path up an ever-steepening rocky slope. “You want to die?”
“No,” Duvan said. “Although sometimes I don’t want to live either. But it doesn’t really matter what I want, does it? I merely acknowledge the fact that we have a limited quantity of tendays. We all pass through the veil into death’s realm sooner or later, and none of us know when that will be.”
Slanya nearly winced. Such hurt and loss behind those words. She found herself intrigued. What was this man’s story? Would he open up to her? “What happened to you?” she asked. “What led you to such a belief?”
“You have a different take on it, no doubt.”
She sighed, allowing the sidestep. “I do,” Slanya said. “And so do most people. We make plans about the future and strive to achieve goals. Do you have any ambitions?”
Duvan was quiet.
Slanya let him consider. She noticed that the group behind them had veered off to the east. So they weren’t following them after all. Just some pilgrims heading to a different border spot. Slanya knew that there were several popular places for the pilgrims to go.
“My goals are all short-term. Eat, survive the day, share a bed. All immediate goals, except for the missions that Tyrangal sends me on; I have a long-term goal of repaying the debt I owe her, so I strive to achieve those missions.”
“Do you owe her a great deal?”
Duvan nodded. “She would say that I owe her nothing. I certainly don’t owe her any coin, but I am in her debt nonetheless. She saved me, freed me.”
“I’m curious,” Slanya said. “Why do you not make long-term plans? Don’t you want to accomplish something big or build something-a family or a homestead even?”
“I just don’t think about that.”
“Why not?”
Duvan let out a laugh. “Because I’ve learned that making such plans is a waste of energy. Because I see no reason to plan or hope for something when it can all be taken away in a heartbeat.”