“You have a case of this magic drink?”
Jesus.
What had I unleashed?
I said,
“No, I mean I wish but I mean the situation I am supposed to be working on now.”
Mean... twice in one sentence, the Grammarian would kill me.
Bingo!
The solution to how to solve the case.
Sweet fucking disbelief.
Who knew?
Maybe it was hanging with the clergy, nun better, so to speak. Bring the war to him. Crash and burn language in his presence and see how he ran?
Maeve eyed my glass and burped, then,
“I have a very fat pink pig.”
Hello?
Did nuns see pigs where we mere mortals saw pink elephants?
She laughed, said,
“It’s a fat porcelain one and I put all my spare change in there for Enable Ireland, I call it ‘The pig sings charity.’”
I knew that reference from Anthony de Mello’s book Awareness.
“... Trying to get people to change is like trying to teach a pig to sing.
All it does is annoy the pig.”
Maeve then changed tack, said,
“I have holidays soon.”
They get holidays?
From what?
Piety?
She saw my skepticism, smiled, said,
“I go to spend a week on the Aran Islands with my sister.”
Serendipity?
I told her about my meeting on the boat with the man and boy and asked if she might inquire discreetly on them.
She was excited, said,
“I’ll be like an undercover agent.”
I said drily,
“Mind it doesn’t become a habit.”
And felt a thud in my chest and then a ferocious fit of coughing. Maeve, all concern, got me some water and the spasm passed. I paid the bill, left a hefty tip, and Maeve said,
“You are a generous man.”
“Naw, I just want her to like me.”
And fell on my face.
“All is changed, and for the Grammarian, changed shockingly.
Grammar, like all disciplines, is not immune to radical change.”
Park Wilson never saw the brick coming. Smashed into the side of his head and, though not killing him, it shook the be-Jaysus out of his brain cells. Park had been as usual in a swirl of letters, clouds of vowels fandangoing and cartwheeling in a cacophony of verbal dexterity. A crew of kids, standing on a wall, saw him thus, engrossed and muttering to himself. The fiercest of them spat,
“Wanker”
Pulled the concrete brick loose from the wall’s edge and let fly.
To his astonishment and horror, it hit the man square on the forehead, felling him instantly.
They fled.
Park twisted on the ground, the sheer impact bringing a moment of clarity unlike anything he’d ever experienced. He tried to rise but blood poured into his eyes, disorienting him. He managed to get up on one shaky knee, reached out
For help?
Letters?
Clarity?
His fingers found the said brick and he pulled it toward him, lifted it up to his face, and, momentarily wiping his eyes clear, he peered at the assault weapon, imagined he read on the side that was unbloodied
... a... e... i...
His brain started to freeze and he muttered,
“What comes after i?
I before e?
But not...”
What?
Holy God, what?
He fell backward, the brick slipping from his dying hand, the last vowel eluding him just as peace had eluded every decade of his insane existence.
He emitted a tiny sigh and his last breath formed, danced a little, then died on the gravel stones of the gravel path.
He died as he had lived.
Without rhyme or reason.
It was, if not a fitting epitaph, at least a grammatically correct one.
The wall the boys had been standing on was known locally as Casement’s Wall. He is said to have begun building it before being arrested.
Sir Roger Casement, 1864–1916, Irish rebel, has reportedly
... been hanged on a comma.
At his trial, Casement had argued that the Treason Act was unpunctuated and thus not legal. Two diligent officials searched the Records Office and stated that the original document was legal. Thus the story spread that Casement had
... attempted to be freed by grammar.
It may have been of some scant comfort to the dead Park that a grammatical brick had done him in.
A variation on the so-called bucket list, meaning it is compiled as if Jack Taylor meant it, dancing as fast as he could. Driven by a hundred forms of despair, he realized that only grave defiance would be a response to a literal death sentence.
A cri de coeur
Dying.
La mort est maintenant.
Three months in the hospital and emerged with the doctor’s verdict
... tops?
“You have three months to live.”
... “It is in the liver, spreading gradually to the brain.
... Put your affairs in order.”
Or rather, in my case, disorder.
A due date focuses the mind wonderfully.
Suddenly you don’t have to fret about paying the water charges. You want to weep for the pup that will be left behind.
What did I miss in the three forlorn months?
Me own self.
Ireland voting yes to same-sex marriage.
And,
On a weird connected note,
Bruce Jenner on the cover of Vanity Fair as a woman with the phrase
... “Call me Caitlyn.”
Jesus wept.
Missed the Eurovision song contest.
Ah, horrors.
Missed the Grammarian being literally bricked.
I got back to my apartment and, for a few minutes, sat on the sofa in delayed shock. What I most wanted to do was simply curl up in a ball and howl. Dying!
Fuck.
Managed to stir and grab the bottle of Jay, pour a wallop, and sink it. Stood with my eyes closed until it hit my gut. Then hit it did.
Hard and wonderful. Wiped my brow and let out a slow, agonized,
... phew.
“Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass. It is about learning to dance in the rain.”
A new storm of epic proportions was forecast and this one, they promised,
Was
The Big One.
Batten down the feeble hatches. I met with my rent-a-thug and, after a lot of haggling, got the old revolver I wanted.
Cost
... a lot.
The guy telling me,
“You gotta pay for class.”
An indication of its vintage was he could procure only five bullets. I said,
“Should be sufficient.”
Got the look and the question,
“What are you killing?”
Asked in half-jocular fashion.
I said in a similar tone,
“The past.”
Back at my apartment, I dry-fired it, needed some oil. Like my system. But it had the resounding comforting click of the hammer dropping.
A bell tolling.
Told myself,
“Least now I never have to read Salman Rushdie.”
I was on countdown to the end. The pain had upped a level and I was gut-swallowing painkillers to a limited effect.
A side effect of this intense medicine was, according to my doctor,
... Mild hallucinatory effect.
Mild!
I fucking beg to disagree.
A bitter cold day I stood on the rocks over Galway Bay, thought of James Lee Burke and his ghosts in the confederate mist. I saw