With this dream still lingering fresh in his mind, he dreaded what he might see when he looked up. But all was as it had been for years now. Niner snarled his fearsome snarl, his forked tongue lolled between teeth almost as long as fence pickets, his green-gold eyes stared blankly across the room. Ceremoniously crossed above this fabulous trophy were Roland’s great bow and the arrow Foe-Hammer, its tip and shaft still black with dragon blood. He mentioned this terrible dream once to Flagg, who only nodded and looked more thoughtful than usual. Then Ro-land simply forgot it.
Forgetting was not so easy for Thomas.
He was haunted for weeks by nightmares. In them, his father stared at him and shrieked, “See what you’ve done to me!” and threw his robe open to display his nakedness-old puckered scars, drooping belly, sagging muscles-as if to say this too had all been Thomas’s fault, that if he hadn’t spied…
“Why do you never want to see Father anymore?” Peter asked him one day. “He thinks you’re mad at him.”
“That I’m mad at him?” Thomas was astounded.
“That’s what he said at tea today,” Peter said. He looked at his brother closely, observing the dark circles under Thomas’s eyes, the pallor of Thomas’s cheeks and forehead. “Tom, what’s wrong?”
“Maybe nothing,” Thomas said slowly.
The next day he took tea with his father and brother. Going took all of his courage, but Thomas did have courage, and he sometimes found it-usually when his back was to the wall. His father gave him a kiss and asked him if anything was wrong. Thomas muttered that he hadn’t been feeling well, but now he felt fine. His father nodded, gave him a rough hug, then went back to his usual behavior-which consisted mostly of ignoring Thomas in favor of Peter. For once, Thomas welcomed this -he didn’t want his father looking at him any more than necessary, at least for a while. That night, lying awake for a long time in bed and listening to the wind moan outside, he came to the conclusion that he had had a very close shave… but that he had somehow gotten away with it.
But never again, he thought. In the weeks after, the nightmares came less and less frequently. Finally they stopped altogether.
Still, the castle’s head groom, Yosef, was right about one thing: boys are sometimes better at pledging vows than they are at keeping them, and Thomas’s desire to spy on his father at last grew stronger than both his fears and his good intentions. And that is how it happened that on the night Flagg came to Roland with the poisoned wine, Thomas was watching.
29
When Thomas got there and slid aside the two little panels, his father and his brother were just finishing their nightly glass of wine together. Peter was now almost seventeen, tall and handsome. The two of them sat by the fire, drinking and talking like old friends, and Thomas felt the old hate fill his heart with acid. After some little time, Peter arose and took courteous leave of his father.
“You leave earlier and earlier these nights, “Roland remarked.
Peter made some demurral.
Roland smiled. It was a sweet, sad smile, mostly toothless. “I hear,” said he, “that she is lovely.”
Peter looked flustered, which was uncommon with him. He stammered, which was even less common.
“Go,” Roland interrupted. “Go. Be gentle with her, and be kind… but be hot, if there is ardor in you. Later years are cold years, Peter. Be hot while your years are green, and fuel is plentiful, and the fire may burn high.”
Peter smiled. “You speak as if you are very old, Father, but you still look strong and hale to me.”
Roland embraced Peter. “I love you,” he said.
Peter smiled with no awkwardness or embarrassment. “I love you, too, Dad,” he said, and in his lonely darkness (spying is always lonely work, and the spyer almost always does it in the dark), Thomas pulled a horrible face.
Peter left, and for an hour or more not much happened. Roland sat morosely by the fire, drinking glass after glass of beer. He did not roar or bellow or talk to the heads on the walls; there was no destruction of furniture. Thomas had almost made up his mind to leave, when there was a double rap at the door.
Roland had been looking into the fire, almost hypnotized by the flicker-play of the flames. Now he roused himself and called, “Who comes?”
Thomas heard no response, but his father rose and went to the door as if he had. He opened it, and at first Thomas thought his father’s habit of talking to the heads on the walls had taken a queer new turn-that his father was now inventing invisible human company to relieve his boredom.
“Strange to see you here at this hour,” Roland said, apparently walking back toward the fire in the company of no one at all. “I thought you were always at your spells and conjurations after dark.”
Thomas blinked, rubbed his eyes, and saw that someone was there after all. For a moment he couldn’t rightly make out who… and then he wondered how he could possibly have thought his father was alone when Flagg was right there beside him. Flagg was carrying two glasses of wine on a silver tray.
“Wives’ tale, m'Lord-magicians conjure early as well as late. But of course we have our darksome image to keep up.”
Roland’s sense of humor was always improved by beer-so much so that he would often laugh at things that weren’t funny in the least. At this remark he threw back his head and bellowed as if it was the greatest joke he had ever heard. Flagg smiled thinly.
When Roland’s fit of laughing had passed, he said: “What’s this? Wine?”
“Your son is barely more than a boy, but his deference toward his father and his honor of his King have shamed me, a grown man,” Flagg said. “I brought you a glass of wine, my King, to show you that I, too, love you.”
He passed it to Roland, who looked absurdly touched.
Don’t drink it, Father! Thomas thought suddenly-his mind was full of an alarm he couldn’t understand. Roland’s head came up suddenly and tilted, almost as if he had heard.
“He’s a good boy, my Peter,” Roland said.
“Indeed,” Flagg replied. “Everyone in the Kingdom says so.”
“Do they?” Roland asked, looking pleased. “Do they, indeed?”
“Yes-so they do. Shall we toast him?” Flagg raised his glass. No, Father! Thomas shouted in his mind again, but if his father had heard his first thought, he didn’t hear this one. His face shone with love for Thomas’s elder brother.
“To Peter, then!” Roland raised the glass of poisoned wine high.
“To Peter!” Flagg agreed, smiling. “To the King!”
Thomas cringed in the dark. Flagg’s making two different toasts! I don’t know what he means, but… Father!
This time it was Flagg who turned his darkly considering gaze toward the dragon’s head for a moment, as if he had heard the thought. Thomas froze, and in a moment Flagg’s gaze turned back to Roland.
They clinked glasses and drank. As his father quaffed the glass of wine, Thomas felt a splinter of ice push its way into his heart.
Flagg made a half-turn in his chair and threw his glass into the fire. “Peter!”