She didn't answer.
"To Highwatch. You understand? I must…" He looked away, squeezed his eyes shut, and took very deep breaths.
This more than anything brought Hweilan out of her stupor. She had never seen Scith cry.
"Find out who did this," said Hweilan.
He looked back at her. "What?"
"You said you're going back. It isn't to save anyone. Our family is dead." It all came out of her in a toneless rush. "You said so yourself. You saw my mother die trying to save her maidservants. The others were dead when you found them. If Creel were able to storm the fortress, that means that the Knights are dead or fled. Any of the servants or villagers who survived are either captives or sworn to new masters. We have tools for food and fire. We can make shelter. If you're going back, there's only one reason: to find out who did this, and why. We must know so that we can hunt them down and kill every last one of them. That's the only reason to go back. And I'm going with you."
Scith sat there in stunned silence for a long time. Finally, he said, "No, you will not come. Think. You heard those Creel golol. They wanted you. Not as spoils. They wanted you. They knew you. They had orders for you. You are being hunted."
"Why?"
"I do not know," said Scith. "But we need to know. Our best hope now, I think, is to go west to your family's allies in Damara. The Creel are savage and cunning, but they could not have done this without help. That they were hunting you specifically…" He scowled and added a bit of wood to the fire. The blood soaking his arms had frozen black, and his sleeves creaked as he moved. "If their help came from the west, then we must know from where, or we could be seeking shelter from wolves in a lion's den."
"And you want me to… what? Sit here and tend the fire?"
His scowl deepened, but part of Hweilan took great comfort in it. This was far better than tears. This was the Scith she knew. "If those golol were hunting you, if Jatara was hunting you, then by now whoever gave those orders knows you escaped. They'll still be hunting. Every Creel and ally will probably be watching for you. But I am Nar. Change my hair, maybe even take some clothes off a corpse, and I can blend in. I can walk among them if I am careful. You cannot. You will stay here, because you are not a little girl anymore. You are a hunter. And after last night, you are a warrior. You must think. You'll never bring vengeance to your enemies if you hand yourself to them."
And so he left. He took his bow and all the arrows. The thick horn was too strong for her to draw, and even if she'd had a string for her father's bow-and she didn't-she couldn't draw it either. Scith told her to wait one day. If he had not returned by dawn the following day, Hweilan was to leave without him. North at first. Returning to the Gap would take her too close to Highwatch, and the lesser passes wouldn't be safe for a woman alone. Her best hope would be to go north around the Giantspires, then turn west for Damara. A long, cold road.
Exhausted, Hweilan tried to sleep, but she only dozed fitfully. She lay curled under her cloak beside the fire, and as sleep came upon her, so did the memories Vandalar feeds the crows.
No one can help you.
Your mother is dead.
But under them all was a deeper rhythm, like the sound of distant drums. With them, a sense of fear and dread seized her, and in the final moments before she clawed her way out of sleep, she thought she could hear words in the beat.
Jagun Ghen…
She woke shivering. The fire had burned low. Lying still on the ground, her body had soaked up the chill. She sat up and fed the fire, careful not to add too much. With the solid ceiling of low clouds-some wisping along the tops of the surrounding hills-she knew it would take a miracle for the smoke to be seen more than a few hundred feet away. But if Scith didn't return soon, she'd need all the wood to get through the night.
Sitting there, hunched near the fire, she dozed off again, and again the memories came, and the distant beat.
Jagun Ghen…
Jagun Ghen…
She coughed. In her doze, she'd leaned in too close to the fire. The smoke was choking her. She took in a ragged breath and wiped tears on the back of her glove. Through the haze of smoke and tears, she saw the man, just at the edge of the trees, watching her. He crouched, elbows resting on his knees, a massive spear laid across them. Standing, he would have looked down on Uncle Soran. But it was his eyes that drew her. They burned with a hot, green fire, like looking at the sunset through an emerald. So bright that their glow hid his face in darkness. Beyond the darkness massive antlers protruded from his head, melding with the twisting branches of the wood.
"Jagun Ghen…"
The sound didn't seem to come from the antlered man, but from the woods beyond him.
Hweilan came fully awake and took in a breath to scream.
The man was gone. Another trick of shadows and branches seen through the haze of smoke and tears. Probably mixed with exhaustion and nightmare as well.
Heart hammering in her chest, Hweilan looked around. Evening was drawing nigh. The sky had taken on the deep gray color of heavy snow on the way. She was utterly alone. Ravens cawed in the distance, but nothing more.
Night fell, and still Scith did not return. Hweilan kept the fire going. Alone in the dark, it struck Hweilan how utterly and completely alone she really was. Before, in the wild she had always had Scith with her-and usually a great many guards besides. And there was always a home to which she could return. No more. The sounds of the hills at night, sounds that Hweilan had always loved on hunting trips-the breeze through the branches, stronger gusts seeming to sigh over the hilltops, night birds in the trees, small animals rustling through the brush, now and then the hoot of an owl-seemed almost furtive. Even sinister.
Hweilan found herself shivering. She added more wood to the fire. Her rational mind knew it was foolish. Nothing she heard was anything she had not heard dozens of times before. Nevertheless, a sense of dread grew within her.
She hugged herself to try to still the shivering, and her hands caused something sharp to poke her chest. Her kishkoman, still under her coat and jerkin. It brought her mother's words back to her… our people, Hweilan, we are… not like others. If you find yourself in danger, if you need help, blow this, and we will hear.
Hweilan pulled on the leather cord around her neck until she held the kishkoman with her frost-tinted gloves. She set the small horn whistle to her lips and blew, long and hard, again and again and again.
She lost count of how many times she blew. But she forced herself to stop when lights began to dance before her eyes. Her head felt light and airy. Clutching the kishkoman in one fist with the sharp point protruding from her fist, Hweilan lay down again and tried to sleep.
Just before she dozed off, a wolf howled in the distance.
When she woke the next morning, her sense of unease had not lessened. If anything, it seemed stronger.
Dawn had come, and Scith had not returned. Hweilan stood, kicked snow and dirt over the smoldering remains of the fire, and looked northward. Down in the wooded valley, she couldn't see far, but she knew what lay that way. Mile after mile, mountain, hills, and steppe. Even if the gods smiled on her, she had a journey of many tendays ahead of her.
"Alone." Her voice seemed very loud in the morning stillness.
But that one word made her decision for her. Everyone she knew and loved was dead. Everyone but Scith. She could go off alone, and if she was very, very lucky, find herself a beggar on some lord's doorstep. Or she could go after her friend.
Hweilan turned and headed south. Scith had trained her well, and his trail was easy to follow. She took her time. She knew that even if the invaders were sitting secure in Highwatch, feasting on their bounty, they would have scouts and guards out. Especially if Scith was right, and the invaders were hunting her.