A slow reaction: Ivory or gold?
Gold.
How much?
The wizard knows the spell's worth.
Hare's face flinched and changed, coming alive for an instant, so quickly that it seemed to flicker, then clouding again into blankness. That's all gone, he said, all gone. A coughing fit bent him over; he spat black. When he straightened up he stood passive, shivering, seeming to have forgotten what they were talking about.
Again Arren watched him in fascination. The angle in which he stood was formed by two giant figures flanking a doorway, statues whose necks were bowed under the weight of a pediment and whose knotmuscled bodies emerged only partially from the wall, as if they had tried to struggle out of stone into life and had failed part way. The door they guarded was rotten on its hinges; the house, once a palace, was derelict. The gloomy, bulging faces of the giants were chipped and lichen-grown. Between these ponderous figures the man called Hare stood slack and fragile, his eyes as dark as the windows of the empty house. He lifted up his maimed arm between himself and Sparrowhawk and whined, Spare a little for a poor cripple, master
The mage scowled as if in pain or shame; Arren felt he had seen his true face for a moment under the disguise. He put his hand again on Hare's shoulder and said a few words, softly, in the wizardly tongue that Arren did not understand.
But Hare understood. He clutched at Sparrowhawk with his one hand and stammered, You can still speak speak Come with me, come-
The mage glanced at Arren, then nodded.
They went down by steep streets into one of the valleys between Hort Town's three hills. The ways became narrower, darker, quieter as they descended. The sky was a pale strip between the overhanging eaves, and the house walls to either hand were dank. At the bottom of the gorge a stream ran, stinking like an open sewer; between arched bridges, houses crowded along the banks. Into the dark doorway of one of these houses Hare turned aside, vanishing like a candle blown out. They followed him.
The unlit stairs creaked and swayed under their feet. At the head of the stairs Hare pushed open a door, and they could see where they were: an empty room with a strawstuffed mattress in one corner and one unglazed, shuttered window that let in a little dusty light.
Hare turned to face Sparrowhawk and caught at his arm again. His lips worked. He said at last, stammering, Dragon dragon
Sparrowhawk returned his look steadily, saying nothing.
I cannot speak, Hare said, and he let go his hold on Sparrowhawk's arm and crouched down on the empty floor, weeping.
The mage knelt by him and spoke to him softly in the Old Speech. Arren stood by the shut door, his hand on his knife-hilt. The grey light and the dusty room, the two kneeling figures, the soft, strange sound of the mage's voice speaking the language of the dragons, all came together as does a dream, having no relation to what happens outside it or to time passing.
Slowly Hare stood up. He dusted his knees with his single hand and hid the maimed arm behind his back. He looked around him, looked at Arren; he was seeing what he looked at now. He turned away presently and sat down on his mattress. Arren remained standing, on guard; but, with the simplicity of one whose childhood had been totally without furnishings, Sparrowhawk sat down cross-legged on the bare floor. Tell me how you lost your craft and the language of your craft, he said.
Hare did not answer for a while. He began to beat his mutilated arm against his thigh in a restless, jerky way, and at last he said, forcing the words out in bursts, They cut off my hand. I can't weave the spells. They cut off my hand. The blood ran out, ran dry.
But that was after you'd lost your power, Hare, or else they could not have done it.
Power
"Power over the winds and the waves and men. You called them by their names and they obeyed you. "
Yes. I remember being alive, the man said in a soft, hoarse voice. And I knew the words and the names
Are you dead now?
No. Alive. Alive. Only once I was a dragon I'm not dead. I sleep sometimes. Sleep comes very close to death, everyone knows that. The dead walk in dreams, everyone knows that. They come to you alive, and they say things. They walk out of death into the dreams. There's a way. And if you go on far enough there's a way back all the way. All the way. You can find it if you know where to look. And if you're willing to pay the price.
What price is that? Sparrowhawk's voice floated on the dim air like the shadow of a falling leaf.
Life what else? What can you buy life with, but life? Hare rocked back and forth on his pallet, a cunning, uncanny brightness in his eyes. You see, he said, they can cut off my hand. They can cut off my head. It doesn't matter. I can find the way back. I know where to look. Only men of power can go there.
Wizards, you mean?
Yes. Hare hesitated, seeming to attempt the word several times; he could not say it. Men of power, he repeated. And they must and they must give it up. Pay.
Then he fell sullen, as if the word pay had at last roused associations, and he had realized that he was giving information away instead of selling it. Nothing more could be got from him, not even the hints and stammers about a way back which Sparrowhawk seemed to find meaningful, and soon enough the mage stood up Well, half-answers beat no answers, he said, and the same with payment, and, deft as a conjuror, he flipped a gold piece onto the pallet in front of Hare.
Hare picked it up. He looked at it and Sparrowhawk and Arren, with jerky movements of his head. Wait, he stammered. As soon as the situation changed he lost his grip of it and now groped miserably after what he wanted to say. Tonight, he said at last. Wait. Tonight. I have hazia.
I don't need it.
To show you To show you the way. Tonight. I'll take you. I'll show you. You can get there, because you you're He groped for the word until Sparrowhawk said, I am a wizard.
Yes! So we can we can get there. To the way. When I dream. In the dream. See? I'll take you. You'll go with me, to the to the way.
Sparrowhawk stood, solid and pondering, in the middle of the dim room. Maybe, he said at last. If we come, we'll be here by dark. Then he turned to Arren, who opened the door at once, eager to be gone.
The dank, overshadowed street seemed bright as a garden after Hare's room. They struck out for the upper city by the shortest way, a steep stairway of stone between ivy-grown house walls. Arren breathed in and out like a sea lion Ugh! Are you going back there?
Well, I will, if I can't get the same information from a less risky source. He's likely to set an ambush for us.
But aren't you defended against thieves and so on?
Defended? said Sparrowhawk. What do you mean? D'you think I go about wrapped up in spells like an old woman afraid of the rheumatism? I haven't the time for it. I hide my face to hide our quest; that's all. We can look out for each other. But the fact is we're not going to be able to keep out of danger on this journey.
Of course not, Arren said stiffly, angry, angered in his pride. I did not seek to do so.
That's just as well, the mage said, inflexible, and yet with a kind of good humor that appeased Arren's temper. Indeed he was startled by his own anger; he had never thought to speak thus to the Archmage. But then, this was and was not the Archmage, this Hawk with the snubbed nose and square, ill-shaven cheeks, whose voice was sometimes one man's voice and sometimes another's: a stranger, unreliable.
Does it make sense, what he told you? Arren asked, for he did not look forward to going back to that dim room above the stinking river. All that fiddle-faddle about being alive and dead and coming back with his head cut off?