Hofstedler says, “Buster?”
Campeau says, “Not once?”
Rafferty says, “How’s it taste?”
The Growing Younger Man says, “Awful. Look at it, for Chrissakes. Green as the meat at Foodland.”
“But you drink it,” Campeau says.
“Buster,” says the Growing Younger Man with a decisive nod. “He’s always there.”
There is a moment of religious silence as everyone, except probably Toots, contemplates the fickleness of Buster. This is, after all, why these otherwise-intelligent men packed up their lives and moved here from less carnal climes. Only to be double-crossed by Buster.
“I’ll try one,” Campeau says. “Gimme.”
“Do you know how much this stuff costs?” The Growing Younger Man pulls his glass closer to his chest.
“Are you kidding me? Twenty years you been sitting next to me, knocking back one throat-closer after another, and I been sitting here, really nice about it, no matter what it looked like. And I listened to you whine about Jah for two years-”
“I did not whine about Jah-”
“In a city with twenty-nine million available women in it, I nodded and said ‘poor you’ a thousand times while you droned on, Jah this, Jah that-”
“Buy your own,” The Growing Younger Man says. “Jah was nothing-”
“She sure wasn’t,” Campeau said. “Barely competent.”
The Growing Younger Man says, attempting to narrow his eyes, “Excuse me?”
“Me, too,” Hofstedler says to him. “If you haff anger for Bob, you haff anger for all of us. You talked about her zo much that we all-”
“Leave me out of it,” Rafferty says. “I wouldn’t know Jah if she walked through the door wearing a neon hat.”
“Like you need-” Campeau says, and breaks off.
Rafferty leans forward. “Yes, Bob?”
“Nothing,” Campeau says. “Jesus, everybody’s so fucking touchy. I remember when you could-”
“Two dollah,” Toots says, slapping the snifter on the bar again. “And this time I make change.”
The tips of Campeau’s ears turn a deep red. For a moment, Rafferty thinks, things could get ugly, and then he realizes he’s just forgotten what it’s like. He says, “This is great, you know?”
Hofstedler says, “What is?”
“This. Just guys. Everybody bullshitting, not even expecting anyone to believe anything. Nobody’s talking about feelings, nobody will remember in ten minutes what anyone else said. We can all get wound up and then let it blow away. You know, the way things should be.”
“You should come more often,” the Growing Younger Man says. “It’s like this every night.”
“I’ll pay Campeau’s fine,” Rafferty says. “Just because I’m happy to see him.” The beer announces its alcohol content with a welcome glow. Like pink lampshades in a dim restaurant, it makes everybody look better. “I remember when people weren’t so touchy, too. So there, that’s four bucks I owe, and I’ll buy a round for everybody.”
“I don’t really want to drink that shit anyway,” Campeau says almost affably to the Growing Younger Man.
“I actually did Jah, too,” Rafferty says to the Growing Younger Man. “A couple of times.” He raises both hands. “Just kidding. Honest.”
3
The apartment house is right where he left it. He approaches it at a diagonal, following an invisible ley line that he can’t sense when he’s completely sober. Or half sober. He’s been out three hours, he’s had three more king-size beers on top of the two at the apartment, and the last thing he ate was a small helping of stir-fried chicken with basil and chilies about noon, before he went to the paint store. The beer has the whole hotel to itself.
“Eighth floor,” he says to the elevator, accompanying the words with a lordly wave of the hand. Once inside, he says, “Here. Allow me,” and pushes the button. As it rises, he bends his knees in a little plie that made Miaow laugh back when he invented it to help her with her fear of elevators. When he adopted her off the sidewalk, she’d never been in an elevator, and they did their plie together for months. With the dissonant emotional chords alcohol usually sounds in him, he immediately sinks into a kind of depressive nostalgia for the days when Miaow and he were closer, when she looked up to him. When she still thought he knew something.
She’s always been spiky and strong-willed, but when he summons up the picture of her with her hair parted strictly down the middle and pasted down with water, the way she’d worn it for years, looking up at him with a mixture of hope, faith, and potential disappointment-the emotional attitude created by a childhood of betrayal and homelessness-he can’t help missing the little girl she was then. And how essential she made him feel.
This is an issue Rose laughs off, as she does Miaow’s relationship, whatever it is, with Andrew. The last time he talked about it, Rose said, “If you didn’t want her to change, you should have bought a table instead.”
“A table,” he says aloud as the elevator doors open and the two men in uniform peer in at him.
Bruisers, both of them, wearing uniforms he doesn’t recognize. One’s smiling, one’s not.
“Wrong floor,” he says, pushing the CLOSE DOORS button, but the one who’s smiling sticks his foot in front of the door. In a moment of alcohol-fueled misjudgment, Rafferty aims a kick at the foot, misses, and staggers backward.
The smiling one laughs. He says, “We thought you’d never get home, Mr. Rafferty.”
The one who isn’t smiling takes Rafferty’s T-shirt in both fists and pulls him out of the elevator as though he’s an autumn leaf. The smiling one pushes the button that holds the elevator.
“There,” he says in more-than-serviceable English. “Now we don’t have to think about the elevator, do we? It’ll be here when we want it.”
“Who are you guys?” Rafferty slaps at the hands of the man holding his shirt, and the man raises them in mock surrender and takes a step back.
“We’ve come to take you with us,” Smiley says.
“Really.” Rafferty says, heading for his door, “shame you went so far out of your-” He’s almost yanked off his feet by the neck of his T-shirt, which has stopped moving so suddenly it feels like he snagged it on a building.
“Yes,” Smiley says, stepping into the elevator as his friend hoists Rafferty under his arm and carries him back across the hall. “With us.”
The room, windowless and badly lit, is about half the size of Miaow’s bedroom. Which, Poke thinks-working on staying calm-he should be painting right now.
He’s been given some time to worry about why he’s here, in this piss-colored room with the splintered table, the requisite mirror along one wall, the ghost fragrance of sweat and tobacco, and the mysterious and deeply unsettling stains on the floor.
It’s cold in here, but he’s sweating and he can smell himself. On the other hand, at least some of his drunkenness is abandoning him, probably looking for a more lighthearted environment.
The only furniture in the room is the battered table with two chairs across it. Smiley had put him into the chair facing the door. After five or ten uncomfortable minutes spent in cheerless speculation about the stains on the floor, Rafferty realized that the two front legs on his chair had been sawed down by half an inch, so that he was continually sliding forward. With a cheery wave at the mirror, he got up and swapped chairs. Then he sat there for another twelve minutes, breathing as evenly as possible, at which point he got up and tried the door, which was locked.
“Okay,” he said to the microphone high in the corner. “It’s nine forty-one. At nine-fifty I’m throwing the chair through the mirror.” He went to the mirror and held his wrist to the glass. “Synchronize watches.”
At 9:49 the door opens and the slender, handsome Thai with the pouches beneath his eyes-the one who’d moved him away from the fallen farang-comes in. He’s no longer in street clothes. Instead he wears a tightly creased uniform like the ones worn by the men who brought Rafferty here. He closes the door behind him, giving it a little tug to make sure the latch is engaged, and extends a long-fingered hand to drop a manila envelope onto the table.