"Do you know my Dad?"
"I did a long time ago."
He was worried that Dirtwater wouldn't remember him. Crease couldn't even show him any identification, since all of it was in his cover name. All he could do was flash his father's badge at him, which wouldn't mean anything. Maybe point at the old man's grave.
But when he looked over again Dirtwater was already staring at him. Those dark expressive eyes showing recognition. Dirtwater smiled and opened his arms, waving both hands. Despite himself, Crease let out a laugh.
They shook hands and Crease was surprised at Dirtwater's strength. He'd run up against guys a lot tougher but none of them contained the same kind of immense inner power that Dirtwater exuded. Crease imagined it must have been very hard for him to have taken that punch from Edwards ten years ago and not broken the deputy's neck.
Crease didn't know what to say or how to say it. Dirtwater could read lips perfectly, but Crease couldn't find any words. All this way and now here he was face to face with another person from his past, but anything he might ask or tell him seemed moot. There was too much significance in the moment and also not enough.
He cocked his head and Dirtwater grinned and nodded, patted him on the shoulder and gave him a brief hug. Dirtwater gestured, his hands fluttering, his eyes and features shifting expression. Crease looked back over his shoulder at his father's sunken plot.
Hale told him, "He says he knew you'd show up again one day. He's been waiting for you."
"He knew more than me then."
Dirtwater's lips were moving, but since he'd never heard speech and couldn't actually talk, Crease didn't grasp how these could be actual sentences. But Hale watched him carefully and obviously understood. "He says he can see your sadness. You waited too long."
"I originally planned on six months. Time got away from me."
"He says you're not who you're supposed to be."
That straightened Crease's back. Hard enough hearing such things inside your own head without some deaf mute saying them to you, by way of his chatty son. Crease wanted another cigarette. "That's probably true of any of us."
"More so for you, he says."
Crease stared into Dirtwater's eyes. You could witness a lot in Dirtwater's face. His silence allowed for a great deal of sudden contemplation, and the hush of the cemetery only added to it. He tried to read the man's face but only saw something of himself there, a cloudy reflection. Maybe Dirtwater was doing it on purpose or maybe it was just his natural skill at communicating without a voice.
Crease let out a little grin, the one that Tucco's people knew to beware of, and Dirtwater's face closed up like a fist.
Hale said, "He's not saying anything."
"Good. I want to see where Mary Burke is buried."
Dirtwater and the boy wafted between headstones like ghosts. Crease followed, tripping over roots and chuckholes, catching his jacket on fat little angels' wings.
Hale was in the lead and Crease wondered why the kid should know where Mary's grave should be. Crease got that feeling again that his past was rushing forward to encompass and color and affect the present. That every move he made was the completion of some small action started ten years ago.
"Here," Hale said.
The stone was plain. It simply said: Mary Burke, Beloved Daughter, Taken From Us Too Soon.
"She mean something to you?" the kid asked.
"I don't know."
"How could you not know if a dead girl means something to you?"
Dirtwater drew the boy back by his arm and pressed a finger over the kid's lips. The three of them stood there like that for a while, Crease enjoying the breeze blowing against the back of his neck.
He knew he would never know who kidnapped her. He'd never be sure of where the money went or even if his father had truly shot the girl. Some mysteries you're not meant to answer. Some of them are supposed to continue on and on, tainting your life.
There would never be an end to this for him, and it didn't really matter, he was just killing time. But he decided he would visit with her family, ask questions, nose around a decade and a half too late.
It wasn't to make amends for the old man. He could never do that and wouldn't bother trying. But he'd come back here for some reason and he figured this might be a part of it, and anyway, he had a day or two until Tucco showed up.
Hale brushed against Crease's arm. "He wants to know if your father picked her up… no, took her… like everybody thought."
Crease looked over at Dirtwater. "No, but he planned to grab the money, only somebody beat him to it. Edwards was there, in the woods, but my father didn't think he got his hands on it either. It vanished from the mill that night. Either the real kidnappers got it or somebody else did."
Dirtwater furrowed his brow, moved his hands and fingers, made sharp gestures in the air. "He says you should forgive your dad."
"I have, a long time ago."
"If you want, I can put some flowers on her grave. On his too, if you want."
"That would be nice, Hale." Crease got out his wallet and held out a twenty, but the boy didn't take it.
"Don't cost anything to pick flowers."
Crease stood there for a while longer, and then he turned and watched the kid staring at his father with such obvious love and he thought of himself at that age staring up at his own father. Then he thought of Stevie and how much his son already despised him, and he knew the hate would only gain greater purchase and continue to build within him through the years. Even if Joan found another man-a good man this time-and got remarried, the guy would never be able to reach beyond Stevie's rage. Crease would have to do something to save his son, but he didn't know what it might be.
~* ~
Crease was driving slowly through town again, riding past the station with his foot itching to floor the pedal, when a cruiser wheeled out of a parking slot in front, screeched in reverse over the double yellow line, and gunned up beside the 'Stang.
"You," the cop said through his open driver's window. "You've been roaming around town all day today, haven't you." It wasn't really a question.
"Yes sir, I have," Crease said. He let it roll easily off his tongue, the way he did when he was in uniform.
"Alone. Most folks who come through here are with their families. Who are you?"
Crease gave him the other name. Until he said it he wasn't even sure that he remembered it, although he'd been using it for more than two years. The cop would already have his tags and the name would match up to them.
"Who are you?" Crease asked.
"I'm Sheriff Edwards."
Crease kept his face blank but it startled the hell out of him. He couldn't believe it. Edwards appeared to have aged twenty years over the last ten. The broken nose had never been set right, and it had been broken a couple more times since Crease had tagged him. He'd gone to seed, had gone so soft that Crease couldn't do much besides study him, noting all the disagreeable details. The wet, alcoholic puffiness in his face distended his features like a balloon stretched too thin. He looked more than a little like Crease's father at the end.
God damn.
"So let me ask you, son," Edwards said. "What, are you doing in my county?"
"Visiting a friend."
"And just who might that be?"
You had to give it to him, the man could smell intent, his senses as sharp as an animal's. "Rebecca Fortlow."
"I know most of Reb's friends. She doesn't have many of them."
"Regardless, I am one."
"Then you're definitely up to no good. That girl is nothing but a mess of trouble."
Crease kept silent.
"Why don't you get on out of here now, son? Reb's had enough problems without all you boys chasing her farther off the narrow path."
Crease kept silent.
"You hear me, son?"
"Yes, sir," Crease said.