Elizabeth put her hand on Mary's shoulder for a moment.
“Don't be unhappy, Molly,” she said, in rather an unsteady voice.
“But I am, Liz, I am-I can't help it-I have talked, and worried you, and have been cross, but all the time I 've been most dreadfully unhappy. Oh, Liz, don't do it-don't!”
“Molly, dear-”
“No, I know it 's no use-you won't listen-” and Mary drew away and dabbed her eyes with a fragmentary apology for a pocket-handkerchief.
“Molly, please-”
Mary nodded.
“Yes, Liz, I know. I won't-I did n't mean to-”
There was a little silence. Then with a sudden choking sob, Mary turned and said:
“I can't bear it. Oh, Liz, you ought to be loved so much. You ought to marry some one who loves you-really-. And I don't think David does. Liz, does he love you-does he?”
The sound of her own words frightened her a little, but Elizabeth answered very gently and sadly:
“No, Molly, but he needs me.”
Mary was silenced. Here was something beyond her. She put her arms round Elizabeth and held her very tightly for a moment. Then she released her with a sob, and ran crying from the room.
CHAPTER XIV. THE GOLDEN WIND
Then far, oh, very far away,
The Wind began to rise,
The Sun, the Moon, the Stars were gone,
I saw the Grey Wolf's eyes.
The Wind rose up and rising, shone,
I saw it shine, I saw it rise,
And suddenly the dark was gone.
DAVID BLAKE was married to Elizabeth Chantrey at half-past two of an April day. Edward and Mary Mottisfont were the only witnesses, with the exception of the verger, who considered himself a most important person on these occasions, when he invariably appeared to be more priestly than the rector and more indispensable than the bridegroom.
It requires no practice to be a bridegroom but years, if not generations, go to the making of the perfect verger. This verger was the son and the grandson of vergers. He was the perfect verger. He stood during the service and disapproved of David's grey pallor, his shaking hand, and his unsteady voice. His black gown imparted a funerary air to the proceedings.
“Drinking, that 's what he 'd been,” he told his wife, and his wife said, “Oh, William,” as one who makes response to an officiating priest.
But he wronged David, who was not drunk-only starved for lack of sleep, and strung to the breaking point. His voice stumbled over the words in which he took Elizabeth to be his wedded wife and trailed away to a whisper at the conclusion.
A gusty wind beat against the long grey windows, and between the gusts the heavy rain thudded on the roof above.
Mary shivered in the vestry as she kissed Elizabeth and wished her joy. Then she turned to David and kissed him too. He was her brother now, and there would be no more nonsense. Edward frowned, David stiffened, and Elizabeth, standing near him, was aware that all his muscles had become rigid.
Elizabeth and David went out by the vestry door, and stood a moment on the step. The rain had ceased quite suddenly in the April fashion. The sky was very black overhead and the air was full of a wet wind, but far down to the right the water meadows lay bathed in a clear sweet sunshine, and the west was as blue as a turquoise. Between the blue of the sky and the bright emerald of the grass, the horizon showed faintly golden, and a broken patch of rainbow light glowed against the nearest dark cloud.
David and Elizabeth walked to their home in silence. Mrs. Havergill awaited them with an air of mournful importance. She had prepared coffee and a cake with much almond icing and the word “Welcome" inscribed upon it in silver comfits. Elizabeth ate a piece of cake from a sense of duty, and David drank cup after cup of black coffee, and then sat in a sort of stupor of fatigue until roused by the sound of the telephone bell.
After a minute or two he came back into the room.
“Ronnie is worse,” he said shortly. There was a change in him. He had pulled himself together. His voice was stronger.
“He 's worse. I must go at once. Don't wait dinner, and don't sit up. I may have to stay all night.”
When he had gone, Elizabeth went upstairs to unpack. Mrs. Havergill followed her.
“You 'av n't been in this room since Mrs. Blake was took.”
“It 's a very nice room,” said Elizabeth.
“All this furniture,” said Mrs. Havergill, “come out of the 'ouse in the ' Igh Street. That old mahogany press, Mrs. Blake set a lot of store by, and the bed, too. Ah! pore thing, I suppose she little thought as 'ow she 'd come to die in it.”
The bed was a fine old four-poster, with a carved foot-rail. Elizabeth went past it to the windows, of which there were three, set casement fashion, at the end of the room, with a wide low window-seat running beneath them.
She got rid of Mrs. Havergill without hurting her feelings. Then she knelt on the seat, and looked out. She saw the river beneath her, and a line of trees in the first green mist of their new leaves. The river was dark and bright in patches, and the wind sang above it. Elizabeth 's heart was glad of this place. It was a thing she loved-to see green trees and bright water, and to hear the wind go by above the stream.
When she had unpacked and put everything away, she stood for a moment, and then opened the door that led through into David's room. It was getting dark in here, for the room faced the east. Elizabeth went to the window and looked out. The sky was full of clouds, and the promise of rain.
It was very late before David came home. At ten, Elizabeth sent the servants to bed. There was cold supper laid in the dining-room, and soup in a covered pan by the side of the fire. Elizabeth sat by the lamp and sewed. Every now and then she lifted her head and listened. Then she sewed again.
At twelve o'clock David put his key into the latch, and the door opened with a little click and then shut again.
David was a long time coming in. He came in slowly, and sat down upon the first chair he touched.
“He 'll do,” he said in an exhausted voice.
“I 'm so glad,” said Elizabeth.
She knelt by the fire, and poured some of the soup into a cup. Then she held it out to him, and he drank, taking long draughts. After that she put food before him, and he ate in a dazed, mechanical fashion.
When he had finished, he sat staring at Elizabeth, with his elbows on the table, and his head between his hands.
“Ronnie is asleep-he 'll do.” And then with sudden passion: “My God, if I could sleep!”
“You will, David,” said Elizabeth. She put her hand on his arm, and he turned his head a little, still staring at her.
“No, I don't sleep,” he said. “Everything else sleeps-Die Vöglein ruhen im Walde. How does it go?”
“Warte nur, balde ruhest du auch,” said Elizabeth in her tranquil voice.
“No,” said David, “I can't get in. It was so easy once-but now I can't get in. The silent city of sleep has long, smooth walls-I can't find the gate; I grope along the wall all night, hour after hour. A hundred times I think I have found the door. Sometimes there is a flashing sword that bars the way, sometimes the wall closes-closes as I pass the threshold. There 's no way in. The walls are smooth-all smooth-you can't get in.”
He spoke, not wildly, but in a low, muttering way. Elizabeth touched his hand. It was very hot.
“Come, David,” she said, “it is late.” She drew him to his feet, and he walked uncertainly, and leaned on her shoulder as they went up the stair. Once in his room, he sank again upon a chair. He let her help him, but when she knelt, and would have unlaced his boots, he roused himself.