A soft voice behind her urges her to stop, but she knows she mustn’t.
Elisabet makes it to the front door. Throwing the lock, she races out into the cool air of the night. She slips on the front steps, smacking her hip and twisting a leg beneath her. Her ankle hurts so badly she cries out, and she crawls for a stretch, losing her slippers. Then she forces herself to her feet.
4
The dog is barking at her. He runs circles around her as she limps away across the gravel driveway. She knows there is no escape in the forest, and it’s several hours’ walk to the closest farm, so she drags herself behind the drying shed, toward the former brewery. Hands shaking, she opens the door, slips inside, and pulls the door tight.
“Oh God! Oh God!”
She searches her pockets for her cell, but her hands jerk so badly she drops the phone. The back bursts off and the battery flies out. She scrambles to pick up the pieces as she listens to the footsteps crunch the gravel.
She crawls to the low window and peers out. Buster, who has followed her, scratches frantically at the door. Elisabet creeps over to the masonry fireplace and crouches behind the woodpile, where with uncooperative hands she tries to shove the battery back into place.
The door flies open. There’s nowhere to go.
She can see the boots, the twisted face, the raised hammer, its heft and shine. She listens to the voice, nods, and then covers her face with her hands.
The shadowy figure pauses a moment before knocking her flat on the ground, holding her down, and smashing her hard. Along the hairline, her forehead burns. Her sight is gone, and she’s in agony, but the warm blood running over her ears and down the sides of her throat feels like a caress.
The next blow lands in the same spot. Her head is knocked askew and now the only thing she knows is how to breathe. She thinks how wonderfully sweet oxygen is.
She cannot feel her body jerk from the next round of blows. She cannot tell when the keys to the office and the isolation room are taken from her pocket. She cannot see her body lying on the floor or the dog sneaking in and tentatively lapping the blood leaking from her crushed head. She cannot sense her life ebb away.
5
Someone has left a large red apple on the table. It gleams and looks wonderfully tasty. Perhaps she’ll just eat the whole thing and then pretend she knows nothing about it. She’ll sit there looking glum, ignore the harangues, and refuse to answer their questions.
She reaches for the apple, but her fingers sink into cold, mushy flesh. It’s completely rotten.
Nina Molander wakes up as she jerks her hand away. It’s the middle of the night. She’s lying in her bed. The only thing she hears is the dog barking in the yard. This new drug makes her wake at night. She has to get up and go to the bathroom. She needs to take the drug, even though it makes her feet and calves swell. Without it, dark thoughts consume her to the point where she no longer cares about anything and can’t get out of bed. She knows she needs something to look forward to instead of thoughts about death.
Nina throws off her blanket and sets her feet on the warm wooden floor. She’s fifteen years old, with straight blond hair, wide hips, and large breasts. Her white flannel nightgown is tight around her belly.
In the hallway, the only light on is the green emergency exit sign. She hears whispers behind one of the doors. Nina thinks the other girls are having a party and didn’t invite her. As if I’d ever want to go.
She can smell cinders, an old fire that has gone out. The dog starts barking again. Nina doesn’t worry about whether she’s quiet or not. She feels like slamming the door over and over. She doesn’t give a damn that Almira will get angry and throw things at her.
The floor is colder out in the hall. The old tiles creak. She heads toward the bathroom, but stops when she steps in a wet patch. A dark pool is spreading from beneath the door of the isolation room where Miranda is sleeping. Nina doesn’t know what to do at first, but then she sees that the key to the room has been left in the lock.
That’s weird.
She opens the door, walks inside, and flips on the light. There’s blood everywhere; it runs down the walls. Miranda is lying on the bed.
Nina takes a few steps backward and sees bloody shoe prints on the floor. She thinks she’s going to faint. She doesn’t notice that she’s peeing herself.
Back in the hall, she opens the door to the next room, and crouches down to shake Caroline’s shoulder.
“Miranda’s hurt,” she whispers. “I think Miranda’s hurt.”
“What the hell are you doing in my room?” Caroline asks as she sits up. “What time is it, anyway?”
Nina stops whispering. “There’s blood all over the floor!”
6
Nina can hardly breathe as she looks into Caroline’s eyes. She needs to make her understand, and she’s surprised when she realizes that she’s screaming at the top of her lungs.
“Shut up!” Caroline hisses as she gets out of bed. “Calm down!”
Nina’s screams have woken the other girls. Alarmed voices ring out from the other rooms.
“Come and see for yourself,” Nina says, and she begins to scratch her arms. “Miranda looks weird. You’ve got to take a look at her! You’ve got to!”
“Can you please cool it? I’ll look, but I’m sure-”
Another scream erupts in the hallway. Caroline scrambles out of her bedroom. Tuula is staring into the isolation room and her eyes are as wide as saucers.
Indie walks out of her room, too, scratching her armpit.
Caroline pulls Tuula away and catches sight of the blood on the walls and Miranda’s pale body. She blocks Indie, thinking that no one should have to see another suicide.
“There’s been an accident,” she explains quickly. “Can you ask everyone to go to the dining room, Indie?”
“What’s wrong with Miranda?” Indie asks.
“We have to wake up Elisabet.”
Lu Chu and Almira come out of their double room. Lu Chu is wearing only pajama bottoms and Almira is wrapped in a blanket.
“Go to the dining room,” Indie orders.
“Don’t I have time to wash my face first?” Lu Chu pouts.
“Take Tuula with you.”
“What the fuck is going on?” asks Almira.
“We don’t know,” Caroline says.
While Indie tries to gather everyone in the dining room, Caroline rushes to the staff room. She knows that Elisabet takes sleeping pills and never hears when the girls get up and wander around at night. Caroline bangs on the door as loud as she can.
“Elisabet, you have to wake up!” she yells.
Nothing happens.
Caroline hurries past the registration room and over to the nurse’s office. The door is open and she runs to the telephone and calls Daniel.
There’s static on the line.
Indie and Nina press in at the office door. Nina is shaking and her lips are white.
“Go wait in the dining room!” Caroline snaps.
“But the blood! Did you see all that blood?” Nina says and scratches her arm furiously.
“Daniel Grim,” a sleepy voice says on the other end of the line.
“It’s me, Caroline. There’s been an accident and I can’t wake Elisabet. I called you because I don’t know what else to do.”
“There’s blood all over my feet!” screams Nina. “I have blood all over my feet!”
“Calm down!” Indie shouts at her as she tries to pull Nina out of the office.
“What’s going on?” Daniel asks. His voice is sharper now and in control.
“Miranda’s in the cell, but it’s all full of blood,” Caroline says. She swallows. “I don’t know what we should-”