But who thought of future wrecks when he saw the splendidly decked-out ships and nobles? The sails were no longer grubby and tattered like great rags, but spotlessly white, with a vermilion-red cross painted on them.
Cardinals in purple robes blessed the ships. Chorales were sung by a thousand voices as they set sail, and continued for an hour after the ships had cast off and were far downstream. The crews of criminals had been replaced by noblemen eager to make their fortune. This did not improve navigation. Da Gama sailed on that first outward voyage as an unknown skipper, but now his surly face bore a more cheerful expression than ever. Later he became Admiral-in-Chief and had to wear a splendid uniform or kiss ladies’ hands, bow to the King, kneel before the Cardinal; then he thought of his incompetent crew, twisted his mouth into shape, but failed to produce a smile, just a grimace of irritation. On the Cape Verde islands those incurably homesick or seasick who, finding themselves on dry land again, refused to go back on board except to return home at the first opportunity were left behind. On São Thomé the ranks were thinned yet further, and there was room to move about the deck — only then did Da Gama feel that the ceremony of farewell had ended and the voyage had begun. At the end of his life the keen interest subsided somewhat, and people became used to the fact that gold came in and noticed that the country did not grow any richer, but if anything poorer. The nobles now knew that fame was not achieved on a pleasure cruise, but on a perilous voyage lasting years. The criminal type of nobleman was best suited to the profession of conqueror. Send-offs were no longer conducted with full pomp and ceremony. The King and court no longer attended. Nor did the Cardinal, but here and there on the half-collapsed stands sat a weeping woman. An ordinary priest in a grey cassock rattled off the prayers and from the quayside sprinkled the brown hulls, most of which would soon submerge in unblessed water, holed below the waterline, riddled with bullets or torn apart by exploding gunpowder. Within a generation the old days had returned. In his old age Da Gama aimed to regain the turbulent calm of the voyages of discovery alone.
Then he was forced to become viceroy of the Indies and to realize before his death that the discoverers had become plunderers, that a global Portuguese empire had not been established, that they had only attacked another global empire, which tolerated the foreigners and the damage they wrought, like the elephant tolerates a troublesome itching rash that it cannot reach, but which apart from that does not disturb its ponderous existence.
Why now, for the departure of Fernando Alvares Cabral with a fleet of five ships, of which only the São Bento rose above the edge of the quay as it sat in the water, was half the court once again present, many prelates in their regalia, the King and the Infante himself? Surely not to show the Spanish envoy they still had ships?
No, the eagerness to set forth, the urge to do great deeds was already declining. Once the despised discoverers had paid homage to the court. Now it was the other way round. The tacit and respectful request was: “Don’t return empty-handed. It’s already becoming difficult to live in the grand style. Don’t settle in the East. Let the fatherland enjoy the riches. Come back.”
But most of them stood indifferently on deck and did not join in the hymns that the canons struck up with trembling voices and the choirboys with shrill ones.
Cabral had bowed to the King, the prelate had sprinkled the holy water over the few who knelt bare-headed, and at the bow they were already casting off.
Then something happened, unexpectedly.
A tall old man — no one knew where he had come from — forced his way through the guard, stood in the open between the ship and the court and uttered — no one understood and everyone listened — a curse that was like a long-awaited storm that finally erupts. All felt themselves under the spell. The sun hung low in the west on a bank of cloud that blocked the mouth of the Tagus. Its shadow, together with that of the Tower of Belem, fell over all of them. The choirs fell silent, he spoke to the ships with his back to the court, so that at first they heard nothing. But the old man, who had begun in a calm and measured fashion, now yelled louder and louder. “…Is there nothing better to do than to convert and exterminate heathens living on the other side of the world? It took you centuries to drive the Moors out of the country, and before you know it they’ll be back. They’re waiting just across the water. They can learn a thing or two here. For centuries they have searched for the philosophers’ stone. In twenty years you have converted the country’s best blood into gold. Who profited by it? Even the court is here as a covert form of begging.”
On the ships there was muttered approval, on the quayside deathly silence.
“Let the English and the Norwegians, who in their own countries are stricken by poverty and damp, sail to the East. This country is fertile and rich, never too cold and never too hot. Da Gama and Albuquerque have mausoleums and statues. They should have been strung up. And so should the first man who raised a sail on a boat and left the coast. Accursed be all who seek the unknown, accursed be Prometheus, accursed be Odysseus.”
Still no one intervened. But on the São Bento a man climbed onto the railings and shouted, “Leave those Ancients in peace, Father. We’re going anyway, because we don’t feel like staying in this country for ever, however beautiful it is.”
Now the spell had been broken, and everyone started talking at once, and the ladies of the court laughed loudly and shrilly.
The old man was no longer the threatening Jeremiah, but a poor, sorely tried man who stood craning his neck at the water’s edge, weeping: “Luís, don’t leave your father, don’t go yet. In a year’s time you’ll be able to sell your ancestral lands and do whatever you want… I’ll be dead by then!”
Soldiers dragged him away.
On board no one admired Luís for his stoicism. A sailor yanked him off the railings.
The manoeuvring began. The officers ordered the men to sing and cast off. But soon the ships were far from the shore, and one could just see the courtiers getting up from the stands and hurriedly making their way home. The quay was empty before they were out of sight, and no one looked back any more.
Only Luís, who had nothing to do, gazed from the stern at the disappearing land. He looked at the Tower of Belem as if it were his father still standing there. False modesty had made him commit a cowardly act. His father would soon die now, Diana would become queen and forget him. He didn’t intend to return like a hero and participate in a feeble comedy at court.
But was that why he had made a clean break with the past?
The birds continued to follow the ship for some way, until the coast was a vague strip of brown. That would soon cease. But it was as if those he was trying to evade were following him, as if he were constantly encountering them on the narrow ship and would soon find it claustrophobic. Was this the broad, liberating horizon that his departure was supposed to bring?
His eyes filled with tears, his thoughts with lines of verse. He hid in his cabin. In order to appease his father, who was still standing in front of him as he had stood there on the quay, at first tall and threatening, then pleading and weak, he began to write, and tried to transform the painful scene into a great prophetic event, but he failed. He could not master difficult stanzas; he lacked the patience. Instead, two lines kept booming through his head: