You pays your money coming in, going out. Ticket price for this ride: pain.
The difference between day and night was not clear to him anymore. Sometimes the lights were down when he was awake, sometimes not.
There was a miraculous hour when somehow his medication was perfectly balanced, and he felt almost normal, and in this time he cherished Ithaca’s presence. He told her he wanted her to marry again and she accepted this unintentional but necessary torture with the calmness he had come to expect and rely on; then he remembered having told her several times before.
“Why worry about it?” she asked quietly. “We’ll probably all be gone soon anyway.”
Harry shook his head as if disagreeing, but she looked at him with her “Oh, come on” look, one eyebrow arched, and he said, “I’d like to see that. What a show that’ll be, if it comes.”
“If?” Ithaca smiled ironically. “You’re my favorite pessimist. Now you sound hopeful.”
“Just barely hopeful,” Harry said.
“What did Arthur tell you?”
“Never try to hide anything from my woman.” Harry took a moment to remember. “He said the planet is covered by little spiders now.”
Ithaca leaned forward. “What?”
“The cavalry is here, but it’s probably come too late.”
She shook her head, not understanding.
“He showed one to me. A little robot. They’re harvesting the Earth before it goes. Trying to save a little breeding population, I’d guess. Like a zoo expedition. And they’re destroying the machines that are doing this to us.”
“Arthur told you all this?”
He nodded. “I thought he was nuts, then he showed me one of the spiders. He seemed…not happy, but he seemed to know he was doing something useful. He thought maybe they were controlling his thoughts, but he said he didn’t mind, and he couldn’t be…” Harry’s weakness came on him and he closed his eyes for several minutes. “He said they knew what was best, probably.”
Ithaca studied his face closely, leaning forward. “I saw one,” she said softly. “I think I did. In the garden.”
“One what? Spider?”
“Silver.” She held up her open hand. “Big as this. It ran away before I could see it clearly, but when I looked — it had been on the trunk of the old live oak-there were cuts through the bark, knife cuts. I thought I was seeing things, or just mistaken. Harry, should we tell people?”
“What good?” he asked. His thoughts were blurring again, so he said no more and only held her hand lightly in his.
Ithaca called the Gordon house the next evening and received no answer. The last part of Harry had died, finally, at eleven in the morning.
53
The Glomar Discoverer, its engines in reverse against a steady surface current and a constant twelve-knot southwesterly wind, drifted at the edge of a vast sea of lime-green and gray and white foam. The air was filled with a constant churning roar. High overhead, peculiar clouds were forming — swirling bands, curving upward as if along the inside of a funnel.
Walt Samshow scanned the foaming sea to the distant horizon and could see no end to it. He hardly needed to breathe at all now. Most of the men held wet rags over their noses and mouths. Nosebleeds were common; the delicate nasal tissues were deteriorating under the drying, burning effect of too much of a good thing: oxygen.
“We can’t stay here long,” Sand said, standing beside him on the bridge.
“Do we have our samples and readings?” Samshow asked. Sand nodded.
“Any word from the Navy ships?”
“They’ve left the area already. We’ve been listening for the deep submersible, but all we hear is the roar of bubbles.”
“Tell the captain we should pull back ourselves,” Samshow said. “Can anybody fight this?” He had directed his question out over the bridge railing, but Sand shook his head.
“I doubt it.”
“It’s like watching the whole ocean being dismantled,” Samshow said. He pulled a bottle of eyedrops from his peacoat pocket and leaned his head back to administer them.
Sand refused the bottle when Samshow offered it. “It’s scary.”
Samshow grimaced. “It’s goddamned exhilarating, and I don’t mean the oxygen. You can see the end of things, you can see a plan — or at least some outline of a plan — and it’s horrifying, it’s grand.”
Sand stared at him, not comprehending.
“Forget it,” Samshow said, waving the almost empty bottle of eyedrops. “Tell the captain to get us the hell away from here.”
Sand bumped into Chao, the first mate, in the bridge hatchway. Apologizing, he stood back and Chao held out a scribbled note.
“From Pearl Harbor, and from San Francisco!” he said.
“What?” Sand asked.
“Report of a seismic disturbance in Mongolia. Not an earthquake, a bomb. Perhaps ten megatons. Not an air burst, an underground or something like it.”
Samshow looked at the figures on the scrap of paper. “They’re no fools,” he said.
“You think they blew up the Russian bogey?” Sand asked.
“What else?” Chao grinned broadly. “Maybe we can get them all! Maybe the Australians, too, eh?”
“Where will they get a bomb?” Sand asked.
“If they even want to,” Samshow said.
“Only a fool would hesitate now,” Chao said. “Put the bastards out of action, cut their lines of communication!”
“Hear that freight train down there?” Samshow pointed figuratively and emphatically down through the deck and the ocean, and jabbed his finger to deepen the thrust to the mantle and core below. “As long as that’s running, we’ve accomplished nothing.”
“If the theories are correct,” Sand said.
“Still, we got them!” Chao refused to have a wet blanket thrown over his enthusiasm. He stared defiantly at Samshow then dipped his head and raised one leg over the bottom of the hatchway to return to the bridge.
54
Edward Shaw drove the Itasca into Fresno and stopped for gas. The sky to the north was free of smoke but deeper blue than he had ever seen it at this latitude. There was a lot of fine ash in the air from the fires in the Soviet Union and China.
Winter was coming to an end prematurely; across the Sierras, snow was receding rapidly.
California — with the exception of San Diego, where fires had spread north from Tijuana — seemed to have escaped the worst of the conflagrations. Yosemite was intact. That might be explained by the lack of tourists; the roads were unnaturally empty. A few radio stations had gone off the air, abandoned by their personnel. The news broadcasts he had heard driving into Fresno were far from encouraging.
The Kemp-Van Cott objects within the Earth were slowing more rapidly than before. It seemed both scientific and public perception that the harmonic swings of these two (or more, some said) “bullets” were ticking away the Earth’s final days. The current estimate was thirty days before they met at the Earth’s core. Sentence of death.
He bought basic groceries and several six-packs of beer in the convenience store, then drove through the city, stopping on impulse at a sprawling three-level shopping mall just off the highway in Pinedale.
“What in hell am I doing?” he asked himself after he had parked the RV. He sat in the driver’s seat, looking across the half-filled parking lot. “I hate shopping centers.” He got out and carefully locked up. In faded blue jeans, Pendleton jacket, and running shoes, he could have passed for any of the locals who wandered on the lowest level of the mall, going from window to window, alone or with girlfriends or family. Still unsure why he was where he was, Edward sat on a bench near a flower-shop kiosk and watched the people passing, concentrating on the men.
Life as usual? Not quite.
The expressions on the men’s faces, young or old, seemed fixed, dazed. There was no joy in their shopping. The children still showed enthusiasm, and the women for the most part appeared either calm or blank. Why? Women are supposed to feel things more than the men. Why the difference?