Bad 1980s rock and roll, big-hair metal at its most aggressively ordinary, elbows its way onto the sidewalk. The as-yet-unclaimed women, who will be doing short-times until 7:00 P.M., hug the stools they've staked out, their miniskirts riding up over their thighs as they scan the crowd in the hope of intercepting a speculative glance. Most of them aren't even pretending to be interested. It's too early.
Rafferty knows exactly how they feel. Thanks to the visit from Elson and Rose's nervousness afterward, he got maybe ninety minutes of sleep. His eyes feel like someone poured a handful of sand beneath his lids, and there's something sluggish and heavy at his core. He knows there's only one cure: coffee. The question is whether to go home and drink a pot with Rose or grab some here. He's thickheaded enough that his indecision actually stops him in the middle of the sidewalk. One of the girls in the bar, seeing him pause, calls him in. For a moment he considers it-they've got coffee-but the music and the clientele combine to create a richly textured awfulness that's better avoided at this hour. The light level drops slightly, and he looks up to see some truly alarming clouds.
Can he even make it home before the rain hits?
He is turning to walk to Sukhumvit Road when he sees the girl.
She instantly stops and drops to one knee to fiddle with a shoe, lowering her head so a veil of black hair falls forward and covers her features. In the half second or so that he sees her, however, the face leaps across the darkening day as though a flashbulb has exploded. She is extraordinarily beautiful. Her pale face is angular, sharp-boned, almost unnaturally symmetrical. Eighteen, maybe nineteen. Not Thai. Chinese, perhaps, or even Korean, although something about her features-the high bridge of her nose, the curve of her lower lip-suggests she might be hasip-hasip, fifty-fifty Western. But the thing that arrests his gaze is that there is something familiar about her. He knows he has never seen her before. He would remember if he had; she is definitely material for the memory bank. But he recognizes something in her face.
He is still staring at her when she glances up from her shoe and catches his eye. She gives him a sliver of a smile, more the thought of a smile than the thing itself, and then stands and walks away, her back to him, heading back up Soi Nana. He is certain she just reversed direction. As she retreats, he sees that she is taller than most Asian women, perhaps five-eight, another reason to think she might be hasip-hasip.
Not as tall as Rose, he thinks, and a bolt of guilt pierces him. He should be doing something-anything-about Agent Elson. And Fon, if he can; for all he knows, Fon is still in jail. The first thing that comes to mind is the two cops who were with Elson. He pulls out the phone again, turns it on, and dials the number of his friend Arthit, a colonel in the Bangkok police. As he waits for the ring, he turns back in the direction of Sukhumvit and begins to amble toward it. Arthit's voice mail picks up, and Rafferty leaves a message, asking whether they can meet for lunch in a couple of hours at an outdoor restaurant near Arthit's station.
He snaps the phone shut and asks himself again: home or somewhere here?
His decision arrives in the form of a typical Thai raindrop, perhaps half a pint of warm water, that smacks the top of his forehead much as a Zen master might clobber a meditating student whose attention has wandered. Before he can blink, thunder rumbles and the sky flickers: lights on, off, then on again, and suddenly it's much darker than before. A giant burps high overhead, a noise like someone rolling cannonballs in a huge pan. Rafferty has learned respect for Thai rainstorms, which can empty an Olympic swimming pool on one's head in a matter of minutes, and he hurries toward the intersection, hoping to flag a tuk- tuk before the deluge strikes.
Hope, as is so often the case, is disappointed. Poke hasn't gone ten yards before the drain opens in heaven, tons of water falling, the drops so fat and heavy that their splashes reach his knees. A whiplash of light precedes by scant seconds a sound like the sky cracking in half. The rain increases in volume, slapping his shoulders sharply enough to sting. His world shrinks to a circle a few yards wide with himself at its soaked center. It is literally impossible to see across the street.
Rain means the same thing in what the tour books call "exotic Bangkok" that it means in more prosaic cities around the world. It means that there will not be a taxi within miles. It means Rafferty could stand on the curb for hours, stark naked, painted fuchsia, and waving a million-baht note, and no one would hit the brakes. It means he has a chance to find out whether his new jeans are really preshrunk or just Bangkok preshrunk, meaning that some seamstress spent several minutes painstakingly sewing on a label that says "preshrunk," which is usually the item that shrinks first.
He's running by now, the phone folded and sheltered in his fist, looking for a restaurant, coffee shop, bar-anyplace he can wait out the rain. As if on cue, golden lights bloom to his right, haloed in the rain. A bell rings as he pushes his way through the door, into a small bakery and coffee shop. He is alone, facing a long glass case full of pastries frosted in an improbable yellow the color of Barbie's hair. The air is thick with coffee, and stools line the window, framing a gray rectangle of rain. He takes a seat and drips contentedly onto the floor, watching the water fall.
As a native of California, where a cloudy day makes the TV news, Rafferty is thrilled by Thailand's enormous weather. Its sheer magnitude seems a kind of wealth, spending itself extravagantly day after day: thunderous rain, blinding heat, clouds as greasy and dark as oil shale. Nothing makes him happier than being in his apartment with Miaow, all the lights on in midafternoon, as monsoon-force winds lash the rain around and rattle the glass door to the balcony.
And now Rose will be there, too. As his wife.
The lie he told Rose in bed that morning nags at him. In fact, he had tried to find his father. Within two weeks of his graduation from UCLA, he had returned to Lancaster and ransacked his father's metal box. Two days later he was on a plane to Hong Kong. Once there, he used the decades-old names and addresses he had copied into his notebook to track his father across China, where he ultimately found the woman-fat and blowsy now-for whose decades-old memory Frank Rafferty had left his wife and son behind.
His father had refused to see him.
The only thing Rafferty owes his father is that the search had brought him to Asia, where he has been more or less ever since.
Frank has a yellow heart, his fierce mother had said, the one time she allowed Rafferty to raise the subject of his father's disappearance. At the time he'd thought she meant he was a coward. Only after he realized that he, too, had a yellow heart did he grasp that his father simply loved Asia, could not live anywhere but Asia. Rafferty's mother, half Filipina herself, had understood her husband, although that didn't stop her from hating him later, with that special talent for hatred that Filipinos carry in their blood, mixed in with gaiety and music.
A yellow heart, he thinks.
"Sawadee, kha," someone says behind him. He turns to see a girl, perhaps ten years old. She wears a pair of shorts more or less the same yellow as the pastries behind the glass and a much-laundered T-shirt that says HAPPY TOGETHER above a picture of two fat hippies whom Rafferty recognizes as the singers in an old-time band called the Turtles. She is as brown as a paper bag.
"Sawadee, khrap," Rafferty says. "Caffee lon, okay?"
"One hot coffee," Happy Together says. "It will coming up." She looks past him at the rain, and her lips move experimentally. Then she narrows her eyes and takes the plunge. "Have raining, yes?"
"Have raining, yes," Rafferty says. "Have raining mak-mak." The Thai phrase for "a lot."
"Hokay," Happy Together says proudly. "Talking English, na?"