The Dungeon Master, he almost roots for us. He refrains from his dire lessons. We’re already steeped in the dire. We want to stab beasts.
We turn a granite corner, and there, lo and behold, we behold him. The dragon lounges, obscenely, atop a great apron of stone, vermilion scales blazing. Rainbow flame flutters from his nostrils with each dozy breath. He regards us through the slits of his amber eyes.
The dragon’s treasure spills out from beneath him on the floor — gold, silver, rubies, jade. Just what’s heaped around our feet at the threshold of the chamber is a princely sum.
“Let’s take that,” Cherninsky says.
“Take what?” Marco asks.
“What’s around our feet. Just scoop it up and run.”
“Not fight the dragon?” the Dungeon Master asks.
“I like it,” Brendan says. “That’s strategy.”
“The dragon could really kill the hell out of us,” Marco, who will never learn, explains.
“No. Let’s fight the dragon,” I say, and the Dungeon Master nods. “It’s part of the game. Maybe we can tame him and ride him.”
“Ride him?” Cherninsky says. “Are you out of your mind?”
“People do it.”
“It would be cool,” Brendan says.
“I got one thing to say,” Cherninsky says, out of his chair now, pacing. “I’m not going to die here.”
“Take a chance,” I say. “Otherwise it’s just boring. You’re the one who said we shouldn’t be afraid to die.”
“When did I say that?”
“Down at the reservoir.”
“The reservoir,” the Dungeon Master says. “You guys talk about the campaign down there? You suck each other’s little bird dicks and talk tactics?”
“Yeah,” Cherninsky says. “We suck them Bergen Pines style.”
“Guys,” I say. “Stop it. Come on. Let’s decide about the dragon. You really want to bail?”
“Better safe than sorry,” Marco says.
“Is that an old paladin saying?”
“You’re outvoted,” Cherninsky says to me.
“Fine.”
“Okay,” Cherninsky says to the Dungeon Master. “We’ll just scoop up what’s near our feet and not rile the dragon. Can you roll for not riling the dragon?”
“Sure you want to do this?” the Dungeon Master asks. “This moment might never come again.”
“We’re sure.”
“Listen,” the Dungeon Master says. “I know I’ve been hard on all of you. I want to be more easygoing from now on. I want you to have fun.”
“This is fun,” Brendan says. “Really. Thank you. This is so exciting. But I think right now we should just grab a little gold and leave the cave.”
“This is pathetic,” I say.
“You don’t know anything about real violence,” Brendan says.
“What?”
“You heard.”
“It’s a dragon, man! It’s not real!”
I notice Cherninsky slide a scrap of paper over to the Dungeon Master. The Dungeon Master drops dice in his leather cup, the one reserved for the most fateful rolls. The dice thump on the desk blotter.
“Consider the dragon officially riled.”
“No,” Brendan says. “No, no.”
“Get the gold!” Cherninsky says.
I brandish my two-handed sword at the dragon while the others shovel treasure and flee.
“Come on!” they call.
“Go,” I say. “I’ll catch up. I’ve got a sudden craving for dragon burgers.”
A smile wavers on the Dungeon Master’s face. Because I am brave, I realize, he will spare me.
I charge the dragon, leap with my sword for his throat. Rainbow flame pours over my magic chain mail.
The Dungeon Master flicks his eyes at my roll.
“You’re dead. Deep-fried.”
“Huh?”
“A craving for dragon burgers? You think you’re in a movie?”
“No,” I say. “I think I’m in a fantasy game. And I have magic chain mail.”
“Bogus magic chain mail,” the Dungeon Master says. “You bought it off that wino monk.”
“It’s held up okay until now.”
“You thought you could kill a dragon? Sorry, my friend. Long may we honor the memory of Valium.”
“This is bullshit.”
“Bullshit?” the Dungeon Master says. He’s wound up. He really isn’t that well. “It’s not bullshit. It’s probability. What, you gonna kwy? You gonna kwy like my little brutha? Life is nasty, brutish, and more to the point, it bites grandpa ass. Get it, bird dick? How’s your two-handed bird dick now?”
“It’s great,” I say.
The remainder of the group makes it out of the mountain maze, but the goats turn out to be shape-shifters, just as Cherninsky warned. They transform into ogres with huge spiked maces. It’s hardly a fight. Before he dies, Cherninsky’s thief does manage to stick an ogre with his dirk. The ogre turns back into a goat, then into Cherninsky’s dead sister, drenched, draped in seaweed.
“Just a little girl,” the Dungeon Master says.
“You freak,” I say.
Cherninsky’s got his pen out, and I think he’s about to go for the Dungeon Master’s neck, but then he starts to bawl.
“Cry it out, sweetheart,” the Dungeon Master says.
“Leave him alone,” I say.
“This doesn’t concern you,” says the Dungeon Master. “Just back off. You have no clue.”
“Okay,” Marco says. “It’ll be okay.”
He sounds like my father.
“The hell it will,” the Dungeon Master says.
The Dungeon Master holds up the note Cherninsky passed him.
“Wait till you hear this,” he says. “Your pal was planning to steal everybody’s gold. He wanted me to roll for it.”
“He’s a thief,” I say.
“Go ahead, defend him.”
“I am.”
Brendan freezes in his chair. Cherninsky keeps weeping. Marco bobs in some ruined communion with the spirits of okay.
I stand, whack the screen off the Dungeon Master’s desk, see the dice, the sheets of graph paper, the manuals and numerical tables. There are doodles on the blotter. Crosshatched vaginas with angel wings. They soar through ballpoint clouds.
“I said never touch the screen,” the Dungeon Master says.
“And I say don’t flash girls you will never have at the ice rink. Don’t set fire to your shits in the parking lot. You’re a mental case. They should have kept you locked up.”
The Dungeon Master comes around the desk, and I think he’s about to make a speech. He lowers his head and spears me in the gut. We crash together to the floor. He squeezes my throat. I palm his chin, push. Marco screams, and I’m almost out of air when Brendan climbs the Dungeon Master’s back, bites his head. They both tumble away. The door bangs open and Doctor Varelli leans in.
“Play nice, you goddamn puppies!” he howls, shuts the door.
We lie there, heaving. My wrist throbs. I smell raspberry soda in the carpet.
The Dungeon Master paws at the blood on his head. Brendan rubs his tooth.
“You children,” the Dungeon Master says, rises, lumbers off. We hear him yell at his father in the kitchen. A loser, he calls Doctor Varelli, a lesbian.
“It’s been a little difficult around here,” says Marco.
I crawl over to the window. In the next yard, some kids kick a ball. It looks wonderful.
* * *
My broken wrist takes a long time to heal. I stay clear of the Varelli house, and at school only Eric signs my cast. He initials it, as though his full name might incriminate him. My dad says I don’t have to get a job until the cast comes off.
I join the after-school club, roll a ranger called Valium the Second, but nobody thinks it’s funny. Why would they? Lucy Mantooth plays a wizard-thief. It’s clear she doesn’t want me in the club.
Eric lives near me, and sometimes we walk home together. He likes to cut through some trees near the Varellis’ house, but I never speak of them. One day we see the Dungeon Master’s Corvette in the driveway. His father bought it for him last year, but the Dungeon Master has never driven it. He doesn’t even have a license.