Outside the window the Paraguayan music dragged on, not the salsa now but something wild and mindless, banging and howling. Alik was more sensitive to music than the others. “For Christ’s sake go and shut them up,” he begged Libin.
Libin grabbed Natasha and left.
On the television more crowds appeared. In the room there were also crowds of people, and it seemed to Alik that the two were connected. At times among the familiar faces an unfamiliar one would flash past. He glimpsed a small grey old man in strange white clothes, with a leather strap around his forehead, not quite in focus.
“Nina, who’s that old fellow?” he asked.
Nina started, wondering if he had noticed the landlord.
“See, that little one with the white beard.”
Nina looked, but the old man had disappeared.
The unbearable music disappeared too, and in its place came children, a large number of strange, unfriendly children with animal faces. Despite the lateness of the evening, it was very hot.
Valentina came to Alik. “What would you like?”
“Sing me something cool.”
She sat next to him, embraced his inert leg and sang quietly and very clearly:
Frost, frost, do not freeze me
Do not freeze my horse or me …
Her voice was cool, and ripples from it spread through the air like a toy boat being lowered into the water. Alik saw himself bundled in his old thick brown fur coat tied by the belt with his favourite buckle. His head was covered by a tight beaver-lamb cap on top of a white kerchief, and he was sitting in his old sledge with the bent back. Walking in front of him he saw his mother’s felt boots, and the hem of her blue coat flapping against the grey of the felt. A woollen scarf was tied tightly over his mouth. The scarf was wet and warm, and he had to breathe hard, very hard, because the moment he stopped an icy crust would seal the moist, warm gap and the scarf would freeze and hurt him.
There were more children now, and they were wearing fur coats too, fluffy and covered in snow.
The door banged, and Libin tumbled out of the lift with the six Paraguayans. They were short, dressed in black trousers and white shirts, and banging castanets, rattles and drums.
“Nina, who are these people?” Alik asked uncertainly.
“Libin’s brought them.”
Libin was very drunk. He came up to Alik. “Hey, look at these wonderful guys! I took them for a drink. I thought they wouldn’t be able to play if they had a glass in their hands, and I was right! They’re wonderful guys, but they don’t know any English. One of them can say a few words, the others don’t even speak much Spanish, their language is Guarani or something. We had a drink and I told them my friend was ill, and they said they had some special music for people who are ill. How about it? They’re wonderful guys.”
The Paraguayans had already formed themselves into a line. Their leader, who had a scar across his brick-red face, struck his drum and they moved around in a circle, swaying rhythmically and emitting a strange half-gulp, half-yell, bending their short legs at every step.
The women, who in recent weeks had been so exasperated by their noise, now collapsed into silent laughter. Yet here in the apartment it sounded quite different, eerily serious, reminiscent not of street music but of other, immeasurably greater things. In it was the beat of the heart, the breath of the lungs, the movement of water, the growl of the digestion. Heavens, even their instruments were skulls and bones, and skeletons hung from them like festive decorations. The music finally died away, but before people had time to murmur together in the pause, the men turned to face the other way, still in single file and made another circle, and another kind of music started up, ancient and macabre.
The dance of death, Alik thought.
Suddenly its meaning was revealed to him as the story of the dying body, and the musicians’ movements as part of the prologue to some theme which would follow. The monotonous and doleful sounds which had so irritated him for weeks past now appeared as familiar as the alphabet, but they broke off, leaving something unsaid.
More and more guests arrived. He saw in the crowd his old school physics teacher, Nikolai Vasilevich, known as the Galosh, and he felt a weary surprise that the man had emigrated at his age. How old would he be now? He saw his classmate Kolka Zaitsev, who had been killed falling under a tram, a thin boy in a ski-jacket with pockets, kicking a soft rag ball in front of him; how sweet that he had brought it along. He saw his cousin Musya, who had died of leukaemia as a child, walking across the room with a washing-up bowl in her hands, only she wasn’t a child now but almost grown up. None of this seemed at all strange to him, but in the correct order of things; there was even a sense of old injustices being put right.
Fima came and touched his cold hand. “Maybe you should come back now, Alik?”
“Okay,” Alik agreed.
Fima gathered up his light body and carried him to the bedroom. His lips were blue, and his fingernails were a paler blue, but his hair burned with its unchanging dark copper colour.
“Hypoxia,” Fima noted automatically.
Nina took one of the bottles from the window-sill. The chief Paraguayan, who was their interpreter, went over to Valentina and asked her if he could touch her hair. With one hand he felt his own rough locks, gleaming like coal, and with the other he ran his fingers through her tinted, many-coloured tresses, and he laughed with delight; two weeks ago they had left their village in the rainforest and had come to New York, and he hadn’t yet managed to touch all the wonders of this new world. Valentina had the strange sensation that someone was putting a skullcap on her head, but there was nothing unpleasant about it and it soon passed.
Alik was fighting for air. He knew that he must breathe as deeply as possible, otherwise the warm gap in his scarf would close. He breathed in convulsively, rather more often than he breathed out.
“I’m tired,” he said.
Fima held his wrist, dry as the branch of a dead tree. The diaphragm muscle was dying now, the lungs were dying, the heart. Fima opened his medical bag and pondered. He could give Alik a camphor injection, drive on his exhausted heart and make it gallop for a while. Or morphine maybe, a blissful oblivion from which he wouldn’t return. Or things could just take their course. In that case he wouldn’t live more than a day, two at most. There was no knowing how many hours he might last.
This country hated suffering; it rejected it ontologically, admitting it only as an incident which must be instantly eradicated. This young, suffering denying nation had developed whole schools—philosophical, psychological and medical—dedicated to the single problem of how to save people from suffering. Fima’s Russian brain had difficulty in coping with this concept. The land which had raised him loved and valued suffering, and derived its nourishment from it: from suffering people grew, developed, became wise. Fima’s Jewish blood, filtered for millennia through suffering, carried within it an extra vital substance which disintegrated in its absence; people like him lost touch with the earth under their feet when released from suffering.
But none of this applied now to Alik; Fima didn’t want his friend to suffer so cruelly during the last hours of his life.
“We’d better call the ambulance, Nina,” he said, more resolutely than he felt.
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