I glanced back to the far end of the field and saw the fallen soldier being carried off in a sleigh, followed by my father and several officers on horseback. They were taking the injured man to the hospital. Papa’s interest in medicine had begun when he had served in the war against the Turks and he’d wanted to get the best medical care for his troops. That was how he had met Dr. Louis Pasteur.
The crowd started to thin out after the ceremony ended. Maman remained in her seat, talking to Princess Orlova and Princess Cantacuzene. We were joined by Dariya and her stepmother. I searched across the ice, looking for Petya. He sat on his horse in front of the Imperial Pavilion with two fellow officers, speaking with the tsar. I made my way over so I could ask Petya what was happening.
As I stepped out in front of the pavilion, my brother’s horse reared. I flung my arms up instinctively to protect my face as muddy snow flew everywhere. I was too scared to do anything else. I heard Maman’s scream behind me.
Petya fell to the ground, his boot caught in the stirrup by the heel spur. He would have been dragged by the beast if his companion had not grabbed the reins quickly. It was the grand duke George Alexandrovich who saved my brother’s life with his quick action.
Everything happened so fast I found myself rooted to the spot. I realized then that I had not been close enough to be in any real danger, but my brother had almost been killed. My heart pounded. And I was shaking with fear.
Maman sobbed as she raced down the steps past me to see Petya.
I tried to follow her, but the tsar’s men had him surrounded and were herding the crowd away as they placed him on an army stretcher.
Maman pushed her way through the people, but I was only able to catch a glimpse of my brother as he slowly sat up on the stretcher. He was banged up pretty badly, with several bruises and scratches, but otherwise seemed uninjured. Awake and alert, he still looked dazed. He was searching the crowd for someone, and then I realized he was looking for his horse.
I saw the stupid beast still acting skittishly on the other side of the pavilion. My poor brother. His cold light looked benign now, but there had been a brilliant flash as he’d fallen.
I tried again to push through the soldiers, but they ignored me completely. No one would let me by. Maman was already at Petya’s side, hovering over him with her handkerchief.
Frustrated, I found my brother’s horse, pawing the ground nervously. The animal snorted as I reached out to touch his neck. His large brown eye stared at me fearfully. Agitated, he was about to rear again.
“Are you so determined to get yourself killed this morning, Duchess?” Grand Duke George Alexandrovich said as he held firm to the horse’s reins. The horse seemed finally to quiet down under his gentle command.
Annoyed, I curtsied to the grand duke. “That was a very brave thing to do, Your Imperial Highness,” I said. “Thank you for saving my brother’s life.”
His blue eyes swept over me. “I wonder what frightened your brother’s horse, Duchess. He seemed fine until you approached.”
I blushed, horrified by and furious at his insinuation. I was too mad to think sensibly before I opened my mouth. “I did not know his horse was afraid of young girls, Your Highness.”
He bent his head down so only I could hear him. “Not all young girls, Duchess,” he said softly, “but they can sense supernatural malice.” He jerked on the reins of his own animal and led Petya’s horse back to the imperial stables.
His words stung. What kind of a monster did the grand duke believe me to be? I might be cursed with a tainted gift, but I bore malice toward no one. Fortunately, Maman was still fussing over Petya and had not heard a word of our conversation.
But someone else had. “Pay him no mind,” Princess Cantacuzene whispered in my ear. She had been standing behind me all along. “The young Romanov thinks he sees everything with his faerie eyes, and yet he is blind. Do not let yourself be troubled.”
That was easier said than done.
Petya insisted that he was fine, and refused to go to the hospital. Then he learned that the soldier who had fallen was his friend Count Chermenensky, and he hurried to accompany Papa there.
I rode home in the sleigh with my mother, worrying about Petya’s friend and wishing I’d never have to see the arrogant grand duke ever again. And praying that he would not tell the tsar the disasters that day were all my fault.
That evening, Papa returned home from the hospital looking exhausted and grim. Count Chermenensky had never woken up. Papa said Dr. Kruglevski did not expect the count to live through the night. My brother had refused to leave his friend’s side.
Papa was livid when Maman recounted Petya’s fall. “I told him to ride one of the other horses today,” he said, taking the vodka the servant handed him. Papa knocked the drink back in one gulp and placed the glass on the servant’s tray. “Another mount would have been much more suitable.”
Reading the Corelli book she’d given me, Maman sat in her chair opposite Papa. I wanted to ask Papa more about the fallen soldier, but he looked tired. I sneaked a glance at the cold light surrounding Papa, then looked at Maman as well. They both appeared healthy, and the dying light that caressed each of them promised that death was far off. With a small sigh of relief, I curled up in the corner chair with my medical book and read.
A while later, the footman announced a visitor. The officer asked Papa to come to the hospital quickly. I jumped out of my chair and begged him to let me go with him.
My father only shook his head sadly as he took his coat and hat from the footman. “Do not wait up for us tonight, my dear,” he said to Maman.
She stood up as well, placing her hands on my shoulder in comfort. I turned around and embraced her, saying a silent prayer for Count Chermenensky’s family. Twisting the obsidian ring around my finger nervously, I wished that he had not died so young.
After Anya talked us into one more cup of tea, we all went to bed.
And I dreamed.
The nightmares I had after Theophany were nowhere near as lucid as the first one, the night before the Blessing of the Waters, but were far darker. The night before I went back to Smolny, I dreamed of being cold, as if I’d been buried deep in the winter earth. I awoke several times, still shivering, certain I could smell the damp dirt in my skin and hair.
Was I going mad?
I prayed for warmth and daylight.
I prayed for my sanity.
CHAPTER TEN
I tried to forget about the terrible dreams when I returned to Smolny. Madame Tomilov greeted us all and provided a wonderful welcome-back feast.
Elena was happy to be in St. Petersburg again. “I have a present for you,” she told me at dinner. “I’ll give it to you when we are alone.”
I’d already written a thank-you note to her parents for the onyx box. But I still did not know who had sent the tarot card—whether Militza had added the card to the gift. Or perhaps the crown prince himself.
My cousin, who seemed a little paler since I’d seen her at the Christmas Ball, rolled her eyes. “What superstitious trinkets are you trying to scare Katiya with now?” she asked.
A shudder ran through me as I remembered that Elena had taken a strand of my hair back to Cetinje with her. What had she done with it?
She ignored Dariya and laughed. Her eyes seemed so much brighter since her trip home. Suddenly, I remembered my nightmare, and I wondered what kind of dark magic Elena had been dabbling in over the holiday. What rituals did the Montenegrins practice in their kingdom? I took a nervous sip of my water.