Kat shoved her hands into her pockets and continued on down the street.
She glanced to the right, down College Avenue toward the classic limestone buildings of the campus. It struck her as funny how she'd once fought so hard against her parents' plans for her. They expected her to attend Mountain Laurel on a faculty scholarship, but she stubbornly fought to be allowed to go anywhere but the local college. She laughed to herself softlyshe'd sure won that battle, and here she was twenty years later, staring at the quaint campus with longing.
As she strolled on, Kat watched each puff of her breath mix with the cold air. She had no clear idea where she was headed or what time it was but felt the need to keep walking. She no longer felt in a rush to leave town, not after that head-spinning reunion with Riley. She'd shoved a note under Nola's door before she left the B and B: /I went out to get some fresh air. Take all the time you need this morning. We have to talk!/ What they'd be discussing was a bit unclear to Kat at the moment, since she didn't know exactly what had happened last night. Riley seemed pleased enough when he left, but preoccupied, maybe even unsure. Well, of course he was! How else could he possibly feel? How else could /she/ possibly feel? How else would two people feel after trying to make up for twenty years of anger, loneliness, and hurt in one night? Without words? Because there'd been very little talking going on, that was for sure. The night had been 90 percent desperate physical need and 10 percent dozing off. The whole surreal business had left her a jumble of sensations, raw and off-balance.
As Kat continued to walk, she took inventory of herself. Her spirit felt sore. Her heart was full enough to burst. And her body was a wreckinsides swollen and hot, lips puffy, right hip bruised from crashing into the nightstand at some point.
But it was her mind that had really taken a beating. It was careening all over the place. Unrealistic hope kept popping into her head, fantasies of herself and Rileyalong with Aidanpiecing together some kind of family where there'd never been one. It was a seductive vision. And impossible. Kat knew there'd be nothing left after they'd hacked their way through twenty years of bitterness. Too much to forgive. Too much to risk.
Kat extracted her Dolce amp; Gabbana sunglasses from her jacket pocket and slipped them on to shield her eyes from the morning sun. She focused on the sound of her shoes tapping against the sidewalk, letting her arms swing free at her sides. It was Kat's policy to never put herself in a position where a man could hurt her. She'd had some good times with men, yes. But she never loved any of them, or allowed herself to believe they loved her. It was a policy that had worked for her.
Suddenly, Kat stopped, realizing where she'd walked. Her parents' house was just a few houses down, on Forest Drive, but she would not be going there. She didn't even turn her head to look. As if on autopilot, she continued walking, stopping only when she arrived in front of what had always been the unofficial heart of town. She stared at the hard-to-miss monstrosity of a house, its redbrick tower rising sharply into the sky, five thick columns along the front porch, the whole structure the same outrageous spectacle it had always been. As a kid she'd heard that the house was featured in most every American architecture textbook because of its unusual combination of design elements. Tourists would sometimes stop their cars across the street and stare, take pictures, or even sketch the house. All Kat knew was that for as long as she'd been alive it had been the Bohland House, her secret childhood refuge, home of Big Daddy Bohland and his boys. And at that moment she stood gawking at it, like a fool, not even sure why she was there or who lived there these days. /Aaaarrrooooogggghhh./ Kat jumped, suddenly aware she wasn't the only one wondering what her business was at the Bohland House: A rickety old dog made its way down the porch steps and brick walkway, harrumphing halfhearted warnings along the way. Kat smiled at the creature, knowing that this couldn't possibly be the same hound Riley had had back when they were kids, but it looked like it could be a descendant. What had they called that dog?
Waylon? Willie? All Kat could remember was that Big Daddy always named his dogs after his favorite country singers.
The dog came to a stop at Kat's feet and sniffed, wagging its tail in what must have been the seal of approval to her visit. As Kat reached her hand down to pat the dog's head, a shiny, black SUV whipped into the drive. It took Kat all of one second to realize it was the same vehicle that had splashed mud all over her yesterday at the construction site.
It would look ridiculous if she turned and ranlike she was doing something wrong by being on a public streetbut it couldn't be any more embarrassing than staying put. What if Riley was a passenger in that car? Would it seem she was stalking him? Kat gulped and waited for the driver's side door to open.
Oh my God, she whispered. It was Aidan getting out of that car. But it wasn't Aidan. Kat blinked, trying to get her mind and eyes to cooperate.
Of course it wasn't Aidan. So it had to be Riley's kid brother, Matt, who must be into his thirties by now.
Kat waved awkwardly. Matt stared at her, hands in pockets, like he didn't know whether to ignore her or say something. Kat's heart sank.
She supposed that's all she was to any of the Bohlandsthe girl who stole Riley's son.
Matt lowered his gaze and shook his head slowly. When he looked up, a tentative grin appeared on his face, much to Kat's relief. He walked toward her, the dog running up to greet him with a howl. In a moment, he was close enough that Kat could make out the image of a shield on his navy blue windbreaker, the words /Persuasion Police Department, Chief Bohland/ in yellow print below.
Kat couldn't suppress her laugh. The hound dog chimed in so loudly that Kat had to shout over the wails. So?Mad Matt' Bohland grew up to be one of the good guys?
He reached his hand toward hers and shook it firmly, still trying to hold back his smile. Kat. You're back. And just for the record, I've always been one of the good guys.
Really? In my mind you'll forever be a twelve-year-old pain in the ass.
He nodded, his grin expanding, then patted the dog's head. Whisht, Loretta. Now, up! Matt snapped his fingers and the dog made her way up the brick walkway and onto the porch, plopping down at the top of the steps. Matt turned his attention back to Kat. So. You here to see Riley?
Uh… Kat knew it was a simple question. She must seem like an idiot.
But she was so nervous she could hardly speak. Not really. I mean, unless he lives here. Does he live here? Anyway, I was just going for a walk.
Matt's eyebrow raised in question. Kinda chilly this morning.
It feels great. I needed to clear my head. Kat was struggling to sound as nonchalant as possible, but her heart was beating violently. She knew her cheeks had to be screaming red with embarrassment.
Matt stood in awkward silence for a moment. Riley came to see you last night?
The words sounded almost like an accusation, and though Matt's face remained friendly enough, it was now a guarded kind of friendly. It occurred to Kat that Matt was protecting his big brother/from her./ He stopped by. We talked.
Matt said nothing.
We talked a lot.
Please accept my apology for the mud yesterday.
Kat laughed a little, relieved that Matt had changed the subject, even if he'd done it with no finesse whatsoever. Thanks. It did kind of ruin the moment.
He winced. I am really sorry for that, Kat. And I'm sorry about your dad, too. Matt shifted his weight, then gestured back toward the house.