In the wind: how it is blowing around her.
Don’t push your love too far, Eddie. Ulla Bäckström sings, screams out over the Boundary Woods.
But it is like this, all the more often too. That: the bird has flown the coop. Darkness in Ulla’s window. Ulla is not where you think she will be. Ulla everywhere, Ulla across all borders.
And when you see her like that, a glimpse in the Boundary Woods, a glimpse on the field that starts outside Johanna’s window in Johanna’s room in the house below the hill on the First Cape where Johanna and Solveig live together, a glimpse below Tobias’s greenhouse while Tobias is still alive, a glimpse on the path in the copse on her way to the Second Cape… then she is not surrounded by all of her thousand friends but almost always alone.
Ulla Bäckström, the Flower Girl, in a field, November 2004. Ulla Bäckström comes walking over the field, butterflies are falling out of her large, light, rough hair; velvet insects in different colors are shimmering softly in the light of the Winter Garden, where she is headed. Ulla Flower Girl, a basket with roses over her arm: she has begged them off of Tobias at his greenhouse, she is going to sell them at the Winter Garden.
Long white coat, long white dress, white ankle boots—dress-up clothes, because this is when she is writing her play about the American girclass="underline" Ulla, the Flower Girl, is going to gather material in the Winter Garden, the clothes are her camouflage.
The basket is filled with dark roses when she meets Johanna on the field.
“Hey, Lille.” Sets her basket down on the ground, trains her beautiful brown eyes on Johanna.
“Shall I tell you about the Winter Garden? Have you heard?
“You know.” Ulla Bäckström lowers her voice to a whisper, points at the frozen ground between them. “It’s like a hole in the earth. You can… fall. Down. And swish, you’re in the underworld.
“And Lille, it’s magical down there. There’s an inner kingdom. Kapu kai. Lots of rooms. The forbidden seas. Have you heard?
“Places almost nobody knows about. Secret rooms where only a few have been. And in the rooms, Lille, there are stories. The walls talk: It happened at Bule Marsh. Is it familiar? You find out the truth about everything there.
“Do you think it’s true, Lille?” she says, staring at Johanna again, but Johanna, suddenly struck dumb by her own shyness, does not get a word out.
But then Ulla Bäckström takes out the snow globe. Rummages around in her basket on the ground, under the roses.
“Look here.” It is round, made of plastic, fits in the palm of her hand.
“The American girl in a snow globe,” she whispers. “From the Winter Garden. You can buy it at the souvenir shop.” Holds up the snow globe in front of Johanna and Johanna sees: two plastic figures in a watery landscape. Boy, girl, on a cliff—the dark water of the marsh under them with white ripples that are supposed to represent the foam on the waves; the background of the snow globe a shimmering silver.
The boy in the foreground, with his back toward you, hand raised, turned toward the girl on the edge of the cliff in the moment right before she falls headfirst, is sucked up by the whirlpool and disappears. You see only her terrified face over the boy’s shoulder. Mouth wide open, sharp red lips surrounding a silent and eternal scream.
Ulla on the field shakes the snow globe, snow falls inside it: soft plastic flakes that swirl around in the water, mixed white and silver. Glitters in the light from the Winter Garden, which is falling over the field in the November twilight.
“They say she died from love,” Ulla Bäckström whispers. “The one who killed her loved her too much. The boy. With his back toward us. But, Lille, who is he? You can’t see the boy’s face.
“I mean,” Ulla Bäckström continues, as if she wants to reveal a secret, “which one? There were two, after all. Who loved her. One was named Björn, the other named Bengt. The Boy in the woods. That’s what they called him.
“But it was Björn who was her real boyfriend, they were closer in age. The Boy in the woods was only thirteen and she had just turned nineteen. And Björn, her boyfriend, he became so sad when she died that he went and hanged himself.
“But the other one. The Boy in the woods. You wonder, Lille, can you ever really know what it was actually like?
“Because he, Bengt, he loved her just as much. If not even more… I don’t know,” says Ulla Bäckström, after a brief pause, shrugging her shoulders, standing up straight. “Maybe it’s a riddle, Lille. But, in any case. Hard to know. Since all of them are dead now.
“But—oh! Have to go now. Sell my roses, in the Winter Garden.
“The snow globe, isn’t it pretty?”
Johanna nods attentively.
“Do you want it? You can have it.”
And Ulla Bäckström gives the snow globe to Johanna.
She laughs again, and now, suddenly, it has started snowing; large, heavy flakes descend over the field. “All of them dead now…” Ulla Bäckström hums in the first snow, almost elated, a new melody that suddenly has floated into her head. “Dead, Lille.” Opens her mouth and stretches out her tongue to catch a few snowflakes on it. “I’m obsessed with death. Ille dille death Lille,” Ulla sings and lowers her voice. “And I’m not Ulla but Ylla, Ylla of death. Listen Lille, in this silence on the field, doesn’t it sound good?”
Johanna mumbles, “Yeah, maybe,” a bit gruffly because she had to say something even if she would really like to say something else, something better, something more in line with the special mood.
“But, Lille,” Ulla continues, “maybe it’s like this. That there’s a lot of goodness… blue skies, flowers, beautiful music… and at the same time, as if another force, a wild pain, and mortality is working inside everything.”
And then suddenly, with those words, she is gone. Has lifted up her basket with red roses and continues across the field toward the Winter Garden.
Ylla of death. Skirts flapping, so white in the light of the Winter Garden rising up in front of her.
And Johanna, alone on the field, wants to call out, Wait Ulla, wait! Take me with you! But just stands there, dumb and silent. And futilely of course. Ulla Bäckström has probably forgotten everything already and Ulla Bäckström does not wait.
Johanna stands where she stands, a snow globe in her hand.
She takes the snow globe to her room and puts it away among all her things, looks at it sometimes and fantasizes. The field that starts outside the window. Blows mist on the glass. Lille, she writes in the mist, peers out through the letters. Empty. The light of the Winter Garden. Ulla does not come.
The play about the American girl begins and then ends, new plays come, new music. Ulla who sweeps by in the corridors at school, the theater the dance the music, how they sing about her there where she is walking. Johanna tries to make eye contact. It does not work. Or, if Ulla sees, then she looks through Johanna, caught up in her own things.
And at home: Robin moves away, Tobias becomes ill and does not come to his greenhouse anymore. The greenhouse deteriorates, Tobias dies, Solveig and Johanna are alone in the house.
The American girl in a snow globe. The Winter Garden. An inner kingdom. Kapu kai. But it happens that Johanna finds her way to the edge of the Boundary Woods anyway. Like always, she stands at the edge and looks up, into the darkness. Ulla’s room, high up above Rosengården’s fence.