'You drive,' he said, and flung open the passenger door, left unlocked when they had parked the bare forty minutes earlier. Should have left the keys in the ignition.
Famy had the rifle to his shoulder. It was small, a child's toy, too insignificant to be a killing weapon. The people who had paused on the far pavement did not believe in it and now stood and watched — not with great fear, nor petrified beyond movement, but curious. Famy was jolted from the image by McCoy's words.
'Come on, you stupid bloody eejit. You'll have to drive.'
Still Famy held the rifle up, peering over its sights, watchful of pursuit.
'Shift yourself, you bastard.'
Famy lowered the rifle, and held it at his side, as a man who walks with a stick, and is resting. 'I cannot,' he said.
McCoy seemed not to have heard him. 'Don't piss about. Get behind the bloody wheel.'
'I cannot drive.' Famy said it slowly. Humiliation, abject and total.
'Course you can bloody drive,' McCoy's voice rose in exasperation and temper.
'I don't know how. I have never driven.'
McCoy waved his right arm in Famy's face. 'Can't you see, there's a bloody great bullet in there? Stop farting about and move the car off.' it is impossible. I have never driven. I cannot.'
The monotonous recitation slid home to McCoy. The obscenity he yelled at the Arab was vicious and wounding.
McCoy ran round the car and draped himself into the driving seat. He laid his right arm along the wheel for support and from the street light Famy could see his face whitened. With his left hand McCoy inserted the key into the ignition, and then put the car into gear. By pushing his whole body forward he was able to turn the wheel toward the direction of the road before he could bring his left hand into play again with the gear stick.
Famy wondered whether the Irishman would faint. He wound down the passenger window and looked back across the road, rifle aimed again. In his jacket pocket were three grenades — he could run his fingers over them.
Grip-bag in the rear, where it had been left, more ammunition, more grenades, needed the reassurance, and then the car was moving. He cringed as they went through the lights, bracing himself for an impact that did not happen.
And another car came through the lights, clearly visible to him, unmistakable.
'Another car followed us,' near-panic, near-hysteria.
'What am I supposed to do about it?'
'I cannot see it now, not as an individual car, there are just lights.'
'Forget it,' said McCoy, if it gets close blast it. If not forget it.'
McCoy could tell that his concentration was slipping, felt the weakness drifting uncontrollably over him. The wound itself fascinated him. Little to see, but he glanced obsessively at it. Just the neatly driven hole that lay in the centre of the blood patch where the cloth had darkened and stained on the upper forearm. The pain ebbed, rising only when he tried to use the hand, and then sliding into numbness when he rested his fingers on the wheel.
'Did you get the bastard?' McCoy said.
They were on the move now. If he did not have to go fast, and drive under pressure, then he could manage. If there was pursuit… There was a vagueness, an absence of care, caused by the loss of blood, but that was the option that he did not care to consider.
'I don't know.' Famy's reply was little more than a whisper.
"Course you bloody know. Either you saw him go down or you didn't. You know when you've hit a man, the way he goes.' McCoy said it with patronizing knowledge. Seen at first hand — the way a man was raised in the air, thrown up rag-doll and the way he then slumped out of control, unable to protect his head. There was a lapse of the co-ordination that maintained the living. it was difficult to know.' Famy paused. He studied the road in front, the thinning traffic of late evening in central London, then glanced behind. Only a myriad of jumbled lights, some stationary, some on the move, none so close as to threaten danger. Famy wanted to explain, wanted the other man to understand, 'I was about to fire at Sokarev when you shouted. There was distraction. As I fired there was a man across the room who began to shoot.
One of the men pulled Sokarev under the table, I was firing all the time he did that, but he was on the ground and then was gone from my sight. The man who sat beside Sokarev, he was hit… '
'Big deal, they'll be singing and dancing in Beirut if you've drilled a Brit geriatric.'
McCoy was almost amused at the other man's discom-fiture. And it was a failure, that much had penetrated to him, through the cloud and the haze. Without his wound he would have felt savage hatred at being associated with the fiasco, but the injury dissipated his anger, rendered it obsolete.
'… There was shooting from the wall facing us. Three or four men. And the bodyguard near the table, another one, not the one that went to Sokarev, he had the small machine-gun. He had stared to fire when I threw the grenade. The grenade would have taken Sokarev, but the man fell on it. Then I could see nothing. He just exploded, and then there was smoke. The men who were shooting had an aim by then, one could not stay at the window.'
'One of those bastards took me.' There was finality in McCoy's words. To Famy it seemed the pain of the inquest was over, and the car was still moving. McCoy could cope with the disability. Famy watched the cars behind and those alongside but could find nothing to sustain his earlier anxiety. He put the M1 on the floor, under his legs, easy to reach but invisible to any driver who might glance at them casually from an adjacent car.
McCoy said, the trace of a smile playing at the side of his mouth, 'I thought this was the one where you stood up and had yourself counted, where you took Sokarev, or they took you. Bugged out early, didn't we?' it was impossible to continue shooting with all the firing from the wall.'
'Hand gun stuff, not accurate at that range. Lucky shot that hit me.'
'You started to run, and you were pulling at me.'
'But it's not my war, remember? You could have stayed.
You were the bloody marksman. I'm just the chauffeur.
So, why did you do the scamper?'
'I couldn't see any more… only the smoke… I couldn't aim.' But Famy knew they were just words. There was no recollection of making a decision to run. He was already moving long before the awareness of it. There had never been a moment when he had the choice, choice of life and death.
They had swung to the west now, and the traffic was lighter as they navigated a by-pass route which avoided the heart of the city. McCoy was able to keep the speedometer flickering a path between twenty and thirty miles an hour.
'They won't react well, your masters. Won't have wanted you hanging about able to fight another day and Mr Bloody Sokarev coming out clean.' McCoy was turning the screw. Knew it, and enjoyed the process. Retribution for his pain.
Famy stayed silent.
'My crowd wouldn't take kindly to it — not with all the investment. If it's cocked then it would have been better it had never started. Victory for them, bad news in your parish.'
McCoy was talking as if to himself, softly and winning no response.
'The Provies have their own way if it doesn't work out.
If it's yellow, if the bugger sprinted to save his neck, then it's court martial. Not as formal as all that, nothing pompous. Half a dozen guys, in a barn or in a garage.
Sentence comes a bit formal, though. Hood and a pistol-shot behind the ear. Leave a note on them too, so the next lot know why.'
Famy had his eyes closed, lids tightly drawn together, but was unable to shut out the message as McCoy expanded. if it's just because they didn't think, mucked the scene, then it's easier. Call it knee-capping. Bullet through each, from the back. They walk again, but they never run, and they, stand out from the crowd because they're on sticks for weeks. The Proddies, the other mob, they're worse… use a Black and Decker. It's a drill, used for putting holes in the wall. Takes longer than a bullet — obvious isn't it?