“No,” Gallen said, shaking his head. He felt as if leaving Seamus’s bedside would be some form of betrayal. He needed to see this through, be there if Seamus died.
“You’ll do no one any good here,” Father Brian said. “Whether Seamus lives or dies or wakes up an idiot, there’s nothing you can do for him.”
Father Brian pulled at Gallen’s hand, and led him out into the dawn. The sun was rising pink over the green grass of the drumlins. Morning fog burning off the downs crawled up the hillsides in some places like pale spiders of smoke. The raucous calls of crows echoed over the fields. Father Brian took Gallen out behind the O’Connors’ barn, to a reedy pond. At their approach, several snipe got up and flew about Gallen’s head, uttering sharp cries. A pair of mallards rose from the glassy water, and Father Brian sat with Gallen on a sun-bleached log.
“All right,” Father Brian said, folding his hands. “Out with it. Give me your confession.”
Gallen felt odd giving his confession to a cousin. Father Brian was only twenty-five, and the man was so fresh that he couldn’t grow a beard to save his soul. Still, he was a priest.
“Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned,” Gallen said.
“How long has it been since your last confession?” Father Brian asked, folding his hands like a steeple.
“A year.”
Father Brian raised his eyebrows, looked at Gallen askance. “So long? How many men have you killed in that time?”
Gallen thought a moment, added his three kills from last night. “Thirteen.”
“Business sounds a bit slow,” Father Brian mused. “Killing is a grievous thing-a mortal sin under some conditions. I assume that all of them were highwaymen and scoundrels?”
“Yes.”
Father Brian folded his hands again. “Hmmm. And how much booty did you find on the corpses?”
Gallen had to think. He hadn’t kept a running tally. “Well, if you consider the boots and clothes and weapons I sold, not more than a hundred pounds.”
Father Brian whistled in surprise. “That much, eh? A good haul.” After a bit of thought, he said, “Say a Hail Mary for each man you killed. That ought to suffice. And of course, I’d thank you to pay a tithe to the church.”
“Ten pounds?” Gallen asked, his heart beating hard. He’d spent the money long ago. Sure, he made a lot of money as an escort, but he had to buy his food at the inn, pay lodging-his expenses were equally high.
“Well, you wouldn’t want to risk dying with any kind of stain on your soul,” Father Brian said. “God delivered these evil-doers into your hand. It’s only fair that you offer something to show your gratitude.”
“But ten pounds-”
“Och,” Father Brian interrupted, “think nothing of it. You’ll take more than that off your next couple of jobs.”
Gallen nodded reluctantly, wondering how much Paddy and the other thieves might have had in their pockets. Father Brian stared hard at him. “So, what else have you got to confess?”
“About last night. I keep thinking, and I’m pretty sure I could have saved Seamus that knock on the head.”
“Ohhh,” Father Brian said thoughtfully. “So that’s why you look so wrung out. I figured as much. You’ve never lost a client before. So what makes you think you could have saved him? You said there were, what, nine robbers? You’re sure you could have taken so many?”
“I stood fast when they first came at us,” Gallen said. “I knew what they wanted, but I advised Seamus to throw them his purse. But-”
“And why did you do that?” Father Brian interrupted. “You’re not a coward, are you? I’ve never heard such talk about you. Think close, and give me the truth.”
Gallen considered closely, remembered the men circling him in the dark, big men sporting beards, men who looked soft and flabby from lack of work, men armed with kitchen knives and a relic of a sword that had showed a faint patina of rust even in the dark. “I didn’t want to have to fight them,” Gallen said at last. “They looked like farmers, soft, down on their luck-not killers. A couple of them were just boys.”
Gallen thought back, remembered the two strangers that had hired him last night at Mahoney’s Inn. Now, the man who had worn two swords on the outside of his cloak-that man had been a trained warrior. Gallen had seen it in his stride, in the clean way the man had maneuvered through the common room without letting his weapons knock against the stools. His cautious demeanor showed that he’d been a man who lived with battle. Gallen had fought such men before-trained swordsmen out of Darnot who turned to butchery after the war. Gallen didn’t mind fighting such men, though they could be more dangerous than a wounded boar.
“So, you took a little pity on some robbers,” Brian said. “Christ advocated the same, that we have mercy on our brothers-but only if they are penitent. The men who were robbing you last night didn’t merit mercy. They gave you no quarter and asked none in return. Now, if the survivors repent and turn to Christ and ask your forgiveness, then it would be appropriate for you to forgive them, welcome them back as brothers in Christ. In such circumstances, your feelings would do you merit.”
“I know,” Gallen said. Father Brian sounded as if he were trying his best not to chastise Gallen, make him see things in their proper light. In truth, Gallen was too tired to argue or think on his own. He only wanted to sleep.
“So, perhaps your hesitation did cause Seamus some hurt, and perhaps not. You can’t know anything for certain,” Father Brian said. “So I’ll tell you what. I want you to take a vow before me now. I want you to promise God that when your heart is hot to come to the aid of another, you will never again hesitate.”
Gallen glanced over at Father Brian, and in his mind the words of the sidhe echoed: “I will hold you accountable for any oaths you make this day.” The morning sun seemed to go cold, and Gallen stood up and looked out over the drumlins at the white spiders of fog climbing the hills. Sheep were bawling in the distance, but otherwise the world seemed quiet, desolate. Gallen felt almost as if the sidhe stood nearby, with his hand cupped to his ear to hear the enunciation of the oath. Somehow, Gallen felt sure, the sidhe had known that Gallen would be asked to take this oath, so the sidhe had warned him that this was a solemn business. But would Gallen be speaking the oath to God, or to the sidhe? To speak an oath to a magical creature would be a sin. “Thou shalt not suffer a witch to live,” the Bible said, so how much more wicked was a sidhe, a creature of pure magic? Gallen could not make a vow to the sidhe.
“Well,” Father Brian asked innocently, unaware of Gallen’s dilemma. “Will you speak the oath?”
“I will,” Gallen said. “I’ll speak it to God: If ever again my heart is hot to come to the aid of another, I will not hesitate.” Gallen said the words, and out over the fields a crow began cawing and flew up into the hills as if to carry the message. Gallen wondered if the sidhe had taken animal form.
“Now,” Father Brian said, “before the sun gets any farther up the sky, how about if you and I hike up the road and search those robbers? Maybe we could get a handle on some of that tithe you owe the church.”
Gallen agreed reluctantly. He didn’t expect much from these bodies, and it seemed rather ghoulish to be searching them in the company of a priest. Still, if they didn’t hurry, some early traveler would get there first.
They headed up the road, over the mountain. When they got to the site of the ambush, Seamus’s son Patrick was there. He already had the bodies laid out side by side like partridges. He hunched over them, hurrying to get their purses and anything else of value. When he saw Gallen and the priest, he hurried even faster, as if he would take the loot and run.
Gallen stood back and surveyed the scene. He knew he had killed three last night, but there were four corpses. One of the wounded men had bled to death on the spot. All four men looked small and harmless when displayed here on the ground. Their clothes were rough-sewn wool, worn through.