“You promised that you would only touch me… not…”
“Me? I did exactly what you said. I only touched you. And you, Manami, immediately jumped on me and started kissing me. It’s your own fault.”
“I did, I admit it. But you knew that it would be like that. You’re the experienced one, not me. How could I know that I would lose it like that?”
“My sweet darling. You lost it, did you?”
“Yes, completely.”
“And now you’d like to do it again, admit it.”
“I would. I mean, I would never leave your bed. But perhaps I’m not interesting to you. My body might not be… You’re used to…”
“Shut up! I really mean it! Once and for all! For me there is only your body. Only you, Manami.”
“And you too would never leave my bed. Tell me that, please… Lie to me.”
“Lie to you? Stop being silly! I would never leave, but not your bed or my bed. I will never leave our bed, my love. For days… weeks… our bed.”
“Oh, that was so nice. The best! How you… I still don’t know what you did to me… I wasn’t at all aware how time passed… And that’s why I’m angry with you, Pascal! Two hours! And you knew that and you didn’t care about…”
“Let’s go to my room. I can’t take it anymore,” Pascal took her by the hand.
“We have to endure it, love, we have to. We cannot do that here anymore. The children could wake up, Julius could come in at any moment.”
“Alright, Manami. I won’t caress you or kiss you… I won’t do anything anymore, if that’s how you are.”
“Shut up… shut up, please. We cannot talk about it. We cannot think about it. It is as though nothing happened. That is how we have to behave.”
“You shut up! Because, if I see that you are that excited again, I won’t ask you anything. I won’t listen to you at all, Manami. I will pick you up in my arms and carry you to my room.”
“There! I knew it!” Manami shouted.
“So know it! You should know!” Pascal shouted back at her.
“When you see that I’m excited! Me! And you’re never excited? You are, of course you are, but not because of me! I’m not sexy enough to excite Mr. Alexander!”
“Stop it!” Pascal shouted. “I’m not excited?! I’ve been burning with desire for your body! I’m mad about you, Manami! And I won’t take this any more! I keep quiet, I keep it in, I burn up, I suffer so as not to upset you! Not to pressure you! I only think about you! Well, I can’t do it anymore!” Pascal got up from the couch, violently pulled her by the hand and picked her up in his arms.
“Tell me! Tell me, are you crazy about me?!” Manami was overjoyed.
“I’m not going to tell you anything more. You’ll see for yourself,” he said while opening the door to his quarters.
“Don’t, my love, please don’t! Really don’t! What if Peter comes in!”
Hearing her words Pascal stopped.
“Alright, Manami. But if you say once more time that I’m not excited…”
“Well, I’m so afraid…”
“What are you afraid of, my dearest darling? I don’t want you to be afraid of anything! Don’t you see that? Why don’t you understand how much I love you? How much I want you? Ever part of your body! Your beautiful breasts and your back… your arms and your shoulders… and your legs, refined, perfect. Your thighs, your hips… and your buttocks, my dearest buttocks. It is because of it that I can’t take it anymore. You haven’t let me get to know it at all, to love it, and caress it and kiss it. And your rose. My most beautiful rose, which opens its petals only to me, which loves only me, which is only mine. Only mine!!!”
“I’m all only yours! Forever only yours!” Manami hollered, finally certain that Pascal wanted her.
Pascal was holding her in his arms the entire time.
“I don’t care about anything!” he shouted and opened the door.
He ran into the room, placed her on the bed and lay down next to her. He raised her nightgown.
“Pascal…” Manami whispered in heat. “Just this now, please. And quickly. Just to calm ourselves. Please, my love…”
Pascal got up, locked the door to the living room, closed the door to the dormitory and said
“I will make love with you until morning, my goddess. I’m no longer in a hurry anywhere. I will first kiss every inch of your body for hours. For hours, do you hear me?”
“Pascal, don’t talk that way. You know I can’t resist you. My son could come in. Please, Pascal…”
“He can’t come in. I’ve locked the door. And if he wakes up, you will come out from here and tell him that I have a high fever and that you put that meat for lunch, which you supposedly defrost every night, on my forehead to cool me down,” Pascal laughed.
“What meat? What are you talking about… Ah! You’re so shameless!” Manami remembered her fictional alibi.
“And if Julius comes, let him come. Let him find out. I want him to learn, as soon as possible. And what do I care what the world is like up there? Only we exist! Only the two of us, Manami!”
Manami didn’t say anything anymore. Pascal took off his clothes and lay next to her. He slowly raised her nightgown and stroked her legs.
“Now just that little problem, Manami,” he whispered in her ear.
“What problem? I knew it, I knew that something wasn’t to your liking!”
“Well… we were behind four doors, but I still had to cover your mouth with my hand.”
“You’re so shameless!”
“You’re really loud, Manami.”
“Apologize! Immediately!”
“I apologize,” Pascal smiled.
“So what if I’m loud? It’s your own fault,” said Manami and started kissing him wildly.
Chapter 143
The following evening Seneca stayed the night in the shelter with his family for the second time. When he and Manami wished Pascal goodnight and retreated to their room, Pascal went to his door with a heavy step. He entered the corridor and started towards the bathroom. He stopped halfway.
“You won’t make love to him, Manami. I know that. You promised me. You promised that you would tell him how much we are in love. And I believe you, Manami. Because I know that you love me as much as I love you. I only have to make it through this night. Eir is between you. You won’t take her anywhere…” Pascal turned on the light and went into the bathroom. He raised his head and looked at his eyes in the mirror. And they were wild. “What do I care that a child is between you! I don’t allow him to lay in your bed. Or kiss you goodnight! I won’t allow it!!! Not even on the cheek! I won’t allow him to touch you! To look at you! I won’t allow it! I won’t allow anything anymore!!!”
Pascal burst into the living room and rushed toward their quarters. And then he stopped dead in his tracks. At that same moment Seneca came out and quickly walked towards the entrance to the shelter. He didn’t even look at Pascal. He hurried out and slammed the door.
Manami, with her back to Pascal, carefully closed her door. And then she turned around and ran into his arms.
“I told him, Pascal!” she shouted. “I told him everything!” Her entire body was trembling.
Pascal held her and didn’t say anything. He didn’t interrupt her.
“When we went into the room,” Manami continued excitedly, “he told me to take Eir away. So I took her to the other room. So that we wouldn’t wake her if we argued.
“When I came back he wasn’t in bed. He was still standing in the same place, next to the bed, looking at me. I stood near the open door and waited to hear what he was going to say. And he said ‘You probably aren’t in the mood for this. You satisfy your needs regularly with your Pascal.’